Failure is not an option! I believe in ME!!

[TinkerbelleAbbysMom]

Well, I've been on the boards for about a year now. I have seen the WISH symbol and not ever looked into it much until tonight. What I know is that as I have been reading some of the journals, you all seem to be a wonderful, supportive group of people. As I said on the WISH joining board, I tried using JM's site but I avoided it. I even tried joining a challenge and it didn't help.
What I do know now is that it is time to draw the line in the sand. I started JM back in April and could be at least 30 pounds lighter. Sadly, I am not. I did learn alot through the JM challenge about how I got to weigh 224 at 30. I know the emotional triggers that got me here. My dear BF can pinpoint the exact time she started gaining weight. She says she remembers it as plain as day.... She had lost her son to SIDS on Christmas morning. She said one day, she stopped and thought if I can't have Carson, I can have a milkshake. Unfortunatley, I don't have one set trigger. It's more or less been a lifelong battle. I can remember my mom taking me to Jenny Craig as Senior in college b/c in the words of my dad, "People don't like fat people." I didn't realize then the pain that statement would cause me. However, I have forgiven him for it. I have straightened my mom out so she no longer compares me to other fat people. Most of all, I have started getting on to myself for negative self talk! I am determined to make 2010 my year to be healthy for the Lord. My thought is this is His temple and I am not supposed to put junk in. As I said, I am a big Jillian fan. So i've read her book and have her Shred DVD. I am going to start using her DVD and doing circuits. I am also planning to walk/jog most days as well.
Where to start.... I have a dear husband who is supportive but afraid to really push me b/c I think he is afraid I'll get mad at him. He can eat a pound of pasta and never gain an ounce. So he doesn't understand the struggle. I have a sweet, wonderful 3.5 yo princess. She loves to "ekercise" with mom. That is really an inspiration. We have an 8 yo Beagle named Molly who needs to workout with me too!!
Okay, so my goals are:
1. To get down below 200 before our October 21st DisneyWorld trip
2. Complete the Music City 1/2 Marathon
3. Achieve my goal weight of 145 by this time next year.
4. Along with that, be off of my high blood pressure medicine.
5. Realize my dream of learning to Believe in Me!! I want to find the delicate princess inside and show everyone just how strong she really is!
I noticed some of you have treats for yourself along the way. I have to think of what I want mine to be. Please, anyone feel free to join me here with your tips, words of encouragement, etc!!

 

[VernRDH]

Welcome to WISH!! Glad you found your way here.

I understand your struggle with parents, my grandmother was the same way. Always negative comments, trying to sign me up for this or that diet plan/camp etc. But the only person you have to do it for is yourself. Sounds like you have a good plan for exercise, what type of eating plan are you going to do? WW, calorie restriction, SB? Everyone here is a wealth of information if you need it.

Good luck, you can do it!

 

[momof2minnies]

Welcome! Good Morning! You can do this and the people here are very supportive.Like Veronica said you have to do it for yourself.

Your goals look like completely achievable goals if you set your mind to them.

Good Luck- keep posting,
Linda

 

[TinkerbelleAbbysMom]

Thank you ladies! As far as what type of diet, I guess its sort of a combo of implementing Jillian's rules in Master Your Metabolism and the Sugar Busters Diet I used when I was pregnant. I weighed 217 when I got pregnant and delivered at 218. Then at my 2 week checkup I was 193. That was 3.5 yrs ago. It worked well and is adaptable. My biggest thing I know is needing to track my calories... it's annoying. But I understand the value there. When I was pregnant, I learned how things affected my blood sugar. I really tried to limit my carbs per meal. That seemed to be very doable. My problem when the rubber meets the road is not planning ahead. I get up and get going, usually a healthy breakfast and then I get rushed and don't have lunch prepared. That's when I end up in the drive thrus....uughh! So I need to plan better. I did well with Jenny Craig when I was in HS but I can't afford that now. I know in the past, if I cut out the sodas and walked it helped. I have all of this head knowledge it's the rubber meeting the road that gets me... maybe that's what I should have titled my journal!! I have been looking at the polar heart monitor which helps track calories expended too but I'm just not sure.
Breakfast today was toasted english muffin with PB. Lunch was large spring mix salad with roasted red pepper vinagrette and a few croutons. Then 3 slices thin crust pizza with peppers, onions, mushrooms, andouille sausage and a few pieces of pepperoni. It was leftover from last night. I need to try to figure out where I am on my calories now. I will also post later what Jillian's specifics were on what type of things to eat for breakfast, lunch, snack and dinner. Maybe as I post my food intake, you all will see if and where I am going wrong.

 

[VernRDH]

Journaling what you eat helps a lot. If I have to write it (or post it here) for everyone to see, I really think twice about it. And once you get in the habit its easy to do. You really have to account for all the B,L,T 's (bites, licks and tastes LOL) In my journal (Running for Freedom) I track all my WW points and foods. It helps that my friends are looking at it and commenting too sometimes.

It can be hard at first to get started, but once you get into it, its easier to track. Not saying its easier to make the right choices all the time, not by a long shot, but you have the knowledge at least.

 

[TinkerbelleAbbysMom]

Well I did my weight and measurements today. I weighed in at 226.2. Sadly I found the inches I had lost a few months are back. That wasn't really anything I did not know as my clothes have told me that!!! Anyway, here's to new beginnings. I said before I would post what JM's diet plan is for breakfast I am supposed to have 1 grain, 1 c milk/yogurt, 1-2 veggies or fruit, 3-4 oz meat. For lunch 1-2 grains or 1/2 to 1 c beans, 2-3 serv veggie or fruit, 4-5 oz meat and 1 tsp oil or sprinkle of nuts. For snack 1 fr or 2 veggies or 1 grain or 1 cup milk and 2 oz meat. For dinner 1 grain or 1/2 c beans, 1 fruit, 2-3 veggies, 5-6 oz meat and 1 tsp oil/fat.
So this am I had blueberries with yogurt and toffee almond granola. I am planning to take a salad and tuna for lunch. I will also take a whole grain pita. For my snack today, I will have pb and graham crackers. This evening I will post if that is accurate. But it's my plan. Which as I have said in the past has been the trouble. Oh yeah and for dinner we are having spinach spaghetti with tomato sauce and a really big salad.
Hope everyone has a great day! Remember, we are all worth it!!

 

[momof2minnies]

Hi Sounds like you are doing well so far.Spinach spaghetti sounds interesting.

Remember exercise is the main ingredient to losing weight and toning up.I should follow my own advice- right now we have a new puppy and I have not done a thing- it is like having newborn and I am pooped-HA!HA! Actually the kids were easier.

Keep posting

Linda

 

[TinkerbelleAbbysMom]

Good Afternoon! Ya know I think exercise stinks! I wish I were motivated about it. However, today when I got home I went out and mowed the lawn for DH. I know it's probably not the most ideal... but it was something. Then when I came in I did 30 crunches. Plan to do some more.. but I got sidetracked by a phone call. I would love to do 50/day to start with. After a week I'll add 25 more with a goal to work toward 100/day. Baby steps....
I have been almost 48 hrs without a soda too!!! Water and tea for me!!

 

[TinkerbelleAbbysMom]

Oh and Linda, the spinach spaghetti was really good. Not sure how much spinach was in it. But I got it at Whole foods... very good. DH and I both think we like it better than regular spaghetti! Wonder if Tony's would have something like that

 

[TinkerbelleAbbysMom]

Well today I did consult my JM calorie counter. So I am excited to have implemented that into my routine for if and when I do have to eat out. Ddidn't get the other 20 crunches in yesterday. Today I was talking with DBF and we both were talking about how difficult it is to stay motivated. She is single and her mom is sort of her accountability person. My poor DH seems to be afraid I 'll get mad if he helps with the exercise motivation. After talking with DBF I had some drive time in the car. My job is a home health nurse and often I cover 100 miles/day. So I was thinking, how can I get and stay motivated to exercise. So I was thinking, who can I get competitive with? My DSis is trying to lose weight too. So we are tossing around a plan where we each put $50 in a pot. Then at the end of 8 weeks, whoever has lost the most will get the pot. Then we can use the money to buy new clothes or get a massage. I am thinking that $100 will go far in my new Disney wardrobe!! Woohoo! Hopefully she will take me up on it! May even include DM in the process too!!
I also thought about "paying" myself to workout. I know it sounds silly but I am really trying for the motivation. I want this but when it comes to getting on the mill or putting one of the dvds in, I lose that motivation..