It's okay. I feel that way sometimes too.
I work for GREAT BIG MEDIA CORPORATION publishing division, and I kid you not, I am the only person in the entire company who does my job here.
On the one hand, I've been told that if they were ever to do layoffs, my job is quite secure since it needs to be done every day and no one, not my boss, not her boss, not HIS boss, literally no one knows how to do it. (The original person who started this position when they began using the software is no longer with us, before he quit he trained the guy who took over for him, and when that guy quit after several years , he sort of trained one guy who then trained me (partially as he was only a backup) and the rest I spent a good year figuring out on my own.
When I'm out, I have two assistants who sort of know the bare bones basics of what I do, but none of the details. I've tried training over 8 people(including the bigwigs) in the last 4 years but they always seem to "forget" since it's not their primary job function.
So anyway, it's nice being secure and I get incredible benefits, but the pay sucks (not just for me but for everyone in my department) and I have a hard time taking days off because I have to worry about catching up the next day because my assistants can only do the basic parts.
It's confusing I know. And sometimes it is REALLY aggravating.
But on the other hand, I realize that my idea of sucky pay and other people's idea of sucky pay may be quite different. I also realize that I get a
lot of perks through my job (they pay for my horseback riding for pete's sake!) and am lucky to have nice people to work with and good health/eye and dental insurance. I also have no dress code, am encouraged to be "creative" with how I decorate my workspace, and they don't have a problem with internet use during work so long as I get done what I need to get done.
That's my advice to you. Think about the good things about your job. Make a list of them and then compare that to the list of bad things.
Sometimes the good things outweigh the bad.
