Please excuse me for not being so vocal the last week or so. Monday my dad passed away. It was somewhat unexpected yet somewhat a prayer answered. We found out he had cancer about a month prior they dr's told him 6months to 2yrs and we just thought we had more time.... but mom and I belive it was for the better. He had lost a lot of weight, he had be come weak, and couldnt sleep well. Food didnt taste good to him and we could tell he was in pain also. He would have never wanted for anyone to see him in a worse state, and we would have never wanted to see him suffer. I truly belive he is in a better place then the hell he was in here!
Im so lucky to have had him across the street from me and see him virtually every day. I am trying to find comfort in that and not have guilt for not seeing him the night before when I had gone over and mom said he was sleeping. I left to let him sleep since he hadnt been sleeping much. But a part of me aches wishing I had just gone in and blown him a kiss!
My mom has been very strong in all this, but she is a strong person (she would tell you otherwise) She has pushed me out of the house everynight to tell me to sleep in my bed with my husband and boys. Next week I think I will make it a mother daughter weekend and stay there, as this is when it will get harder since family and friends have left. I try and keep a happy face during the day for the boys and mom, but at night is when I have my "breakdowns" I cry and try not to wake up E. In time I know it will get easier, but it just doesnt seem real that he is gone now.
Thank you for allowing me to post a paragraph it just seemed to flow out and its always been so much easier for me to write something then say things face to face to people, so this was very therapudic for me! THANK YOU!
anyhow-- I have skimmed post at 3am when I couldnt sleep this week, and wanted to say welcome to newbies (I thought I remember reading that LOL)
Eric and Chris great job on the logo I LOVE IT! Ill probably try buying things soon in time for the xmas surprize for the boys! Ill let you know how it goes when I try!