Well, I was not as successful yesterday as I would like to have been, but I made a start. Today I will again search for God's still, small voice of guidance and comfort. I did pray that He would speak a little louder, because my inner voice of anxiety and fearfulness is pretty loud!
I stayed up last night until 1:45 AM. DD was working on homework that she had let slide. I think she's just about caught up now, although she'll have to work hard to stay that way. I knew if I stayed up to keep her company, she'd stay on it instead of getting further behind.
I've taken my meds and started on my water. I got to the grocery store last night so I have healthy food with me for breakfast and snacks, and I'll buy a burger for lunch. Tonight is another busy one - DD has a tennis match so I'll be there to cheer her on.
Today is a new day, a fresh start. I'm tired but I'm willing to try another day of healthy living with God's grace and love.
EDIT: 8:45 AM
I'm trying out Erin's TW idea of eating when hungry. I didn't scarf down my breakfast the moment I got to work. I'm now hungry and looked at all my choices to see what sounded good to me. I'm having my beloved apple with peanut butter - YUMMY!
I'm also trying to eat more mindfully. I won't be working while eating my apple, like I usually do. I'm going to savor it and really TASTE it. I'm going to allow myself 5 minutes to be centered and quiet, so I can return to my work refreshed and energized.
EDIT: 1:15 PM
The day is going well. I feel surprisingly calm, with a quiet energy. I thought I'd be really dragging by now, but I'm feeling quite good!
I just finished some baby carrots (love that CRUNCH!!) and a raspberry yogurt. I didn't buy anything for lunch because I just wasn't all that hungry. I know I'll be hungry later this afternoon and I have some almonds in my desk drawer, but for now I'm satisfied.
Work is going well. I'm baby-stepping my way through my assignments and making some progress, trusting God that I'm on the right track. The sense of peace that I'm feeling, instead of the usual anxiousness and fear, tells me that I must be doing it right. I can feel His presence with me and its giving me both comfort and joy this afternoon. I'm feeling so very blessed.
EDIT: 3:45 PM
I just had some almonds to tide me over until I get home. It's been a good day. I only ate the food I brought and there were NO trips to the EVM!! This is a major victory!
