Hang in there, TaeJa! I wish I had some wonderful words of advice but all I can offer is my heartfelt sorrow and a virtual hug!

If you need to talk, or vent, or cry, know that we're here to listen, always!
That's very cool that you've decided to homeschool. I've always admired the dedication and committment of homeschool parents.

I've been subbing in the elementary school and I've found that teaching is not my calling!

Good thing I wasn't planning on going back to school for it.
As for your daycare stories, I worked in two different daycares when I first moved to Florida. I anticipated having my kids and being able to take them with me when I worked. Unfortunately, I got to see the less than perfect side of the coin and found it wasn't for me. (I must have worked for the real whackos, it realy scared me away from that line of work for good! So much so that I couldn't even consider daycare as an option for my kids over the years.

) Amazingly enough I've made it 17.5 years without needing daycare and now I have two great teen sons (and one girlfriend!!!

)to leave my 8 year old with.
I've found that in the end, it's all about what works for your situation.