I'm still back twenty pages or so, looking at all the beautiful trees and decorations, and I just want to cry. I honestly don't know how my DD and I are going to make it through December.
Last Christmas we were at the Poly conceirge Hawaii building for 12 days 11 nights. We left home the 16th and returned the 27th. So no tree had to go up.
Fast forward to now. We have merged our households.We get the tree. We have a real fireplace to hang stockings. I go downstairs into the storage room. I find some lights. Some very old handmade ornamnets.
I look for my big box of ornments and my stockings. My DD does the same. Dsil asks, where did you see it last? Under the steps at the old house. Something in his eyes make us stare. "Hey, we agreed not to bring the fake tree and anything else we hadn't used in years.
Hmmmm, we didn't use the decorations last year because we were in DisneyWorld. You wouldn't have thrown out our ornamnets would you? Dsil "Well, I gotta go to choir practice."
My DD and I have accepted the reality that he threw away our Christmas decorations. But the enorminty of this is making us sick. Literally.
Her stocking that she has hung every year since she was two. (we took it to Disney!!) All of the "my first Christmas all the way to My seventh Chritmas." ornaments. All of the special ornaments we recieved from the dead relatives. All of our Disney ornaments.
I'm going to bed. I am burying myself under the covers. If I don't post anytime this weekend, send in tinker1bell to peel me off the floor.
My heart is broken. Goodnight.....