Cristabel's Journal: Losing it to Save my Life (Comments welcomed & loved!)

[disney-inspired]

I was referred over here to start a w.i.s.h journal by tiger_lily03, after I posted in the w.i.s.h section under "Just for fun".

Let me just tell, having to lose weight is not "just for fun", nor is it "fun". It's the exact opposite, "not fun". I'm a whiz with definitions, really! No, seriously I am. Let's get this bad boy started already then, huh? "Bad boy" as in this fantabulous w.i.s.h journal.

Someone got caught in the cookie jar. Who? Me? Nah, couldn't be....Oh, okay it is.
I'm a 19 year old college student in southern California who needs to lose anywhere from 80 to 100 pounds. As for my fat history, I started gaining weight in third to fourth grade and it just skyrocketed after that. Something that has always bothered me is that when I sit down in a classroom (jr. high, hs, and college) my balloon-like stomach is always pressed against the desk (connect desks) and my butt in the seat is like too much mix in a cupcake liner. I'm the only "fat" person in my main family. Sometimes I feel if you look up "fat" in the dictionary, you'll see my picture AND I'll be eating cake at the time.
My mom used to be overweight and still struggles after holidays but she maintains a size 10/12, my sister lost about 40 pounds a couple years back and kept it off, she yo-yo's from a size 8 to 10. My dad weighs about the same as I do (which MORTIFIES me) but he's taller, so he is overweight but it's just not the same (stupid double standards!). Their lifestyle is healthy (excluding my dad) UNlike mine. I love fast food and I'm lazy (bad, bad, BAD combination).

At this point and time in space...
I'm at my highest weight, an estimated 260 pounds. Typing that out makes it a reality and scares me witless. I'm about 5'5.

Way off into the future...
I'm never going to be "small". I have a large body frame. As my Dr. put it so gently "she's built like a football player". Thank you Dr. for all your sensitivity and kindness....YOU LOOK LIKE A GIRL!! *runs away* I just want to be healthy and as small as that allows me. I'm aiming to weight 160-170lbs and fit in a size 10 to 12. My family has a history of diabetes and high blood pressure. I have two cousins on my dad's side of the family in their early 30's and they have type 2 diabetes! That sends me running from the sweets table.

Game Plan
* Journal, journal, journal. Which means "write down every SINGLE thing you eat because it makes it a reality, fatty!". Serious, go check the dictionary.
* drink 64 oz of water everyday
* don't buy fast food anymore
* Gym-attack! 5-6 times a week.
* DON'T weight myself EVERY week.
* Save money. This has nothing to do with weight loss but everything. My reward for losing the weight will be another trip to Disney World.


Now I'm off to sleep because in addition to this "not fun" stuff I have to go to school.

G'night!

 

[disney-inspired]

This is from the W.I.S.H section of Just for fun. Even though we all know it's "not fun".

So this is my Sunday so far:
Let see, I just finished a successful 4-day workout week. We had my sister's 8th birthday party yesterday and I had spaghetti (ahhhh!) and cake (AHHHHH!) but Today I have done very good considering it's Sunday. This is the day we usually eat like there is no tomorrow. Sadly, there is always Monday right after it

I don't even want to think about Saturday
but today I have had:

(2) Cracker & cheese snack - 200 cal
(1) Capri Sun - 100 cal
Denny's grilled chicken sandwich, applesauce, hot chocolate - 650 cal
(I know it's a bit high but it was low compared to everything else they had!)
McD's filet fish sandwich & small fries - 760 calories

I went to gym after eating and burned 885 calories in 66 minutes. I'm pooped!


So that's it so far.
Lately, I will be up watching tv at night and I feel like I'm starving! I eat a couple times a day so I know I'm not lacking calories. Then I realize, I'm not drinking enough water! So here come the tally marks. Sometimes I can't stand drinking just water so I put unsweetened, natural cranberry juice in it to give it a kick! [Plus its a great detox!]

I am a bit behind in my exercise minutes but I plan on working out the full 60 minutes now since I already have a week under my belt


As for encouragement, my whole family is being greatly supportive.

I am using the Disneyland/CHOC walk in November as incentive to become physically fit.

As my reward for losing weight and saving money, I plan on going back to Disney World in January 2009. My parents would rather go to Cancun, so I have to find a buddy (or buddies) to go with me. I just feel sad thinking about being by myself at Disney World. I think I would be somewhere in the World and I'll remember some trivia or really enjoy something and then I'll turn to tell my sister, mom, dad, etc about it and no one would be there.

I think it would be a great experience for me to attend an all girl's trip to WDW. Of course, they would have to be willing to go with an under-ager. I'll be 20 by January but still not of legal age to drink. So I'm trying to get my cousin and friend to go but I don't know if they are serious about joining me. I don't care about age as long as these girls, or women, are (preferably) Christians or good, clean-fun kind of people. I hope no one will take this as I'm a religious nut because there is a difference between being religious and having your spiritual life intertwined with your daily life. For example, I don't look down on people who drink or smoke because it's their choice. Sure I don't think smoking is healthy and I wouldn't do it (asthma!) but I'm not going to judge you. I don't know about other Christians, but when I turn 21 I plan on trying wine. It's a big misconception, drinking is not a sin BUT getting drunk is; that's a big difference.
Ok, ok I'll get off my soapbox per se. I just had to clarify.

ANYWHO, I have to save at least $1000 dollars to have a nice stay. I went for a week (my first time) in 2006 but I was with my family and they slowed me down A LOT and I didn't get to see half of what I wanted.

So I failed the whole not "buying junk food" today. Sundays OH THE MISERY!

 

[disney-inspired]

My daily intake is 1600 calories
64 oz. of water
Water: [x][x][x] [x][x][x][x][ ]

Breakfast:
1.5 c. cheerios 150 cal
3/4 c. 1% milk 100 cal
250 cal
Lunch:
Subway Melt 380 cal
baked Lays 140 cal
diet coke 0 [That makes me so happy!]
520 cal
Starbucks
Tall, frappuccino 245 cal

2nd lunch:
chicken from Costco ? cal
pasta shells ? cal
gatorade 120

1 apple 55 calories

twix 280 calories
wafers 240 cal

Total @ 4:45pm - around 1700 calories



UGH I'm already over! Stupid work snacks!!! I guess I'll have to work out really HARD today!

I still have "dinner" to eat

We'll see how tomorrow goes....it's a new day.

EDIT*
so after work I stopped at Trader Joe's, bought the expensive eggs since the cheapies were gone :[
then hit the gym.
I worked out for 85 minutes and I burned 930 calories. It was like I couldn't stop. I kept saying "only 5 more minutes then I'll stop" well I said that about three times

Got home and drank some cranwater
did some ASL homework, went on the dis and started reading a hilarious pre-trip report, showered & slept like a LOG!

DAY 6 OF EXERCISE

 

[disney-inspired]

Today has been a good day! (So far)
Aiming for 1750 calories
Water: [x][x][x][x][x][ ][ ][ ][ ][ ] Goal is 80 oz. of water

Breakfast7:30am
mcskillet burrito - 610 calories
lg coffee - 95 calories (because of sugar & creamer)

*Yes I know that's a lot of calories but I knew I was not having a big lunch (and I was starving ) but I just checked, and next time I'll get a egg mcmuffin with no cheese if I have to buy breakfast. It's half the calories.
Lunch 11:15am
Oven-roasted, chicken breast - 310
(on honey grain oat)
1 c. of water - 0
The Plan
Snack Planning around 2pm
1 small (or med) apples - 110 (144 for med.)
2 c. of water
Gym at 3:30-4:30
shower & change
chores
Dinner
skinless chicken breast meal (pollo loco) - 310 calories
Venti, Caffe Americano with sweet 'n' low - 45 calories
Bowl of honey bunches of oats - 130
1 c. 1% milk - 130

I went over by 24 calories, bad breakfast planning!
Exercised for 53 minutes & burned 660 calories.

Now besides all that technical health stuff:

After looking over my unofficial transcript online, I will have my 60 transferable units by the end of this semester! BUT I don't have the math requirements finish! BUMMER! So I will have those done by fall and then I'll apply to transfer to Cal State Fullerton in Fall 2009. I'm planning on majoring in Business, concentrating on entertainment and tourism. Which is great since I want to work for Disney! Oh and it's only 15 minutes from Disneyland! That was the defining point, lol
Now I need to save $5200 just for housing which I have to share with five other girls! My dad was saying I could just commute but I want that "moving out" experience before the real thing. I just hope we can qualify for financial aid so I can get some help paying for tuition, housing, and food. My dad says he makes too much but we do have three full-time students in the house, so I don't know.

 

[MIdanceMom]

Hi Cristabel,

Welcome to the WISH journals. It looks like you are doing a fantastic job. You certainly have a great reward planned for when you reach goal. Keep up the great work.

Oh, I agree. I think living on campus is a great idea.

Take care,
Beth

Just a thought, if you switch to a tall skinny latte with the sugar-free syrups, it is only 100 calories. Grandes are 130 and ventes 170.

 

[disney-inspired]

Hi Cristabel,

Welcome to the WISH journals. It looks like you are doing a fantastic job. You certainly have a great reward planned for when you reach goal. Keep up the great work.

Oh, I agree. I think living on campus is a great idea.

Take care,
Beth

Just a thought, if you switch to a tall skinny latte with the sugar-free syrups, it is only 100 calories. Grandes are 130 and ventes 170.

You're right. I have to my sister (she works at Starbucks) and ask her how to order it. I can't remember the long orders.

 

[disney-inspired]

Wed 3/19

Water: [x][x][ ][ ][ ][ ][ ][ ]
Breakfast
*1 c. honey bunches of oats - 130
* 3/4 c. 1% milk - 130
* 1 banana - 90
350
Lunch
2 slices! zpizza zbq - 340

garden burger - 100
misc.(means I don't want to tell you ;]) - 420
1190 so far
So that leaves me 560 calories for dinner & fruit afterwards
:]

 

[Tiger Lily 03]

You've got some wonderful goals and I love your enthusiasm! You can do this.

You are so lucky to have encouragement at home. That should help I think.

We need to find a way for you to make some fun along the way. I'm thinking if you pick the marathon weekend at WDW in January '09 as your reward date you might join the WISH Team cheerleaders. It is a fantastic event. You will be inspired to participate in events for 2010 and beyond I'm sure!

What else can you find to make some fun as you channel over to making healthy choices for your lifestyle change?

Keep on keepin' on!