Well, I thought that I would read back over this stuff. Then I decided that maybe I should post an update andmaybe explain why there was no trip report.
But I did want to share one thing about the trip, or rather, the closing of that trip with you. Our last night I had book the Wishes Dessert Party. We really enjoyed it, although the queue was annoying. As it was our last night, and I knew what I had facing me upon our return, I really couldn't think of anything other than Mom. I stood at the railing with my family watching the spectacle in the sky, consumed with images of her. I croaked out a few bars of Wishes, and tried (but failed) to blink back some tears. And then it hit me, that I needed to make a wish of my own during Wishes. So this is the bargain that I made with God during the very last part of the finale. "I know that I don't get to choose the time or the place of her passing, but my wish is just that she not suffer."
That's really all that's left to tell about that trip, and much of it is a blur. We lost Mom just 7 weeks later. She went quickly, and for the most part, she was not in pain. So, I got my Wish.
A week before Mom died, I got laid-off from my job. I was unemployed for about 3 months. During that time, I had decided that I should sell our DVC - as we would need the extra money. I hadn't had a nibble on my resume, and was really starting to panic. We closed on the sale, and a few weeks later, I had a new job and a large raise. Oh well, DVC isn't going anywhere.
Those months were very difficult for me. It truly felt as if my hope and joy had died with my Mom. I still miss her terribly, and it seems strange to live in a world without her. In May, we met on the shores of the San Saba River in Texas and spread my Mom's ashes (as per her wishes). She always wanted a piece of land with a river than ran through it, so that she could go fishing on the shores with her grandchildren. She used to sing a lullaby to our kids about it:
Gonna catch fishies 1,2,3
Gonna catch fishies baby and me,
Gonna catch fishies by the old oak tree,
Down by the shores of Fishberry...
Here is a picture of the sky above her marker. It's on my desktop at work now.
We are starting to get back on our feet financially, and decided that we would take one last trip on our APs. After that, we'll have to play it by ear. But for now, we are headed back to The World again (our family's Laughing Place) in September. This trip will sort of be a do-over for me. I have been campaigning fiercely to see if I can get any of my extended family to meet us there. Not going to hold my breath though.
Anyway, thanks for reading! I don't know if I will do a pre-trip, or a report of any kind.