CJK's journey BACK to the real me!!!! Comments welcomed and encouraged!!

[toystoryduo]

Weigh to go making goal! That is wonderful!!! Keep up the good work!

Have a wonderful week before Christmas!

 

[lovinaz]

I think I would get a new scale and ditch the other two! It's bad enough I have to see the number on the scale, forget adding math to it!!!! At least you have a better idea of what the "right" number is.

Congrats on the Size 8 pants! At this rate, you will pass me up, since I have been stalled for quite some time now (and am 4lbs heavier than I was this summer, OUCH!)

You should definitely treat yourself to a shopping trip as a reward for all your hard work these past few months!

 

[bekkiz]

I am SO SO SO happy for you making your goal! That is outstanding! I do agree with the above poster--get thee to Bed Bath and Beyond and get a new scale.

Again, good job on the loss and all of the hard work. You are really kicking some butt

 

[Blueeyes101817]

Congrats on making your goal!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Thats great!!!!

I would say throw out the scales and get a new one if possible..i like seeing a number and not having to figure anything out!

have a great week!

 

[CACruisin']

Congrats on making goal and wearing size 8's!! That is wonderful!

"Dear Santa, please bring CJK a new scale for Christmas. She has been very good this year and really needs a new scale."

 

[traceycooper]

Well done CJK
You deserve it, you have worked so hard, i'm proud of you :

 

[Blueeyes101817]

Hope you are having a great week!

 

[CACruisin']

Merry Christmas CJK!

 

[toystoryduo]

Merry Christmas, CJK!

I hope you and your family had a wonderful holiday!

 

[Blueeyes101817]

Hope you had a great christmas!!!!

 

[kmp1191]

Merry Christmas!
Where are you??!!!

marie

 

[CJK]

Hi everyone!! Thanks for checking in on my journal - especially when I haven't been!!

I hope you all had a wonderful Christmas with family and friends. Our Christmas is really spread out over 5 days between our two immediate families, extended families, aunts/uncles/grandparents/friends. We had some wonderful quality family/friend time. However, I've got some good news and some bad news.

The good news is that I was able to work out 4 of the 5 days that surrounded food. I worked out on the treadmill each of those days and walked one evening as well. During the first 3 days, I really held my own foodwise. I was able to have SINGLE portions of the unhealthy treats that were constantly presented to me. Also, if I didn't REALLY want it (ie. pie), I said no and just had a single chocolate or something similar that I DID really want. I'd never do that before.

Okay, so onto the bad news! I drank very, very little water and LOTS of tea! I was constantly travelling between houses so water would have just been a nuisance! Well, on day 4 and day 5 of our Christmas week, I lost it both evenings. Quite honestly, I lost control as far as sweets are concerned. At one of the parties, there was an enormous spread of my favourite chocolates, squares, brownies, candy, etc.... Something just snapped in my mind and I made the decision to have whatever the heck I wanted. I ate so many sweets that I'm sure I gained a couple pounds in those 2 days alone. Yes, I easily had 7000 extra calories!!! All the foods that I hadn't been eating the last 7 months (or very large quantities of them), were just too much to resist. I'm soooo disappointed in myself, but I'm trying not to beat myself up.

I couldn't bring myself to stand on the scale this morning, but I do know the scale will be up. Today, I got back on track with water, exercise and food. BUT, tomorrow I'm going to one of the biggest parties of the season!! Yikes!!

I'm really struggling right now and I just want to get back on track and not undo some of my hardwork.

I was also really struck by how friends/family reacted to my weightloss (now about 60lbs lost since June). Well, most people were quite complimentary. Some family, however, FREAKED out and said they were worried about me. Their reactions really bothered me. I'm in my healthy BMI (about high mid range), I've lost about 2lbs a week (so it wasn't too fast), yet my family is worried? I admit to shedding a few tears when I was by myself (but that could also be the Christmas stress getting to me). Sometimes I think that I just can't win. *sigh*

Well, I've got to go make a salad for tomorrow's party. Please send any positive thoughts that you have to spare. I'm quite nervous about losing control again. Hope you're all having a wonderful Holiday season!!!!!

 

[DisDee]

Hang in there CJK! 2 days of eating snacks is not going to undo 7 months of hard work and commitment. You have done such an amazing job at losing the weight and being more healthy. Holidays can be so stressful with all the running around and social situations. As for the comments...focus on the positive reactions, not the negative and maybe jealous remarks. People are so funny when it comes to their reaction to anonther's weight loss. Back in the mid-eighties, I lost 60 pounds and was told I looked too thin (120 lbs. on a 5'3" body is not too thin) I think some of those commments were caused by envy. Also, don't you just love how everyone tries to fatten you up? Stay away from the scale for a little while. Maybe give yourself a week to get back into the groove and then weigh yourself. There's just no reason to make yourself more stressed out over a number on the scale. Keep doing what you have for the last 7 months and you'll be just fine, in fact you already are!

 

[Amy&Dan]

CJK, just got caught up with you and congratulations on making your initial goal! Don't worry about overeating at the recent gathering, its what you do the next day that counts. Enjoying some sweets at the holidays is just a fact of life I think! As for people's negative reactions to your weight loss, how disappointing but not surprising! Nothing like a big amount of success to make people feel crummy about themselves and then criticize you. Every time I have lost weight I have been saddened by the reactions of others. Which is why I love WISH. We are all friends but in cyber space its easier to be nice and true to ourselves and each other and not be petty and jealous! As I recall one of your reasons for doing this was to get healthy to conceive, thats some powerful incentive. I think given your age its not an off the chart amount of weight to lose. YOu exercised and worked very hard at this. Its not like you did some wacko diet that cannot be maintained. Since you lost that weight and gained a ton of muscle you did it the healthy way. So just blow off the cattiness and be proud of you!

Hang in there, the holidays are almost over (thank goodness). Then we can all start the new year and leave the sugar loaded season behind us. And again, CONGRATULATIONS!!

 

[SunFloridaDisney]

CJK, hope you had a nice Christmas, and Happy New Year!!

Once the holidays are over, just get back into the routine, and hang out here for encouragement. I think most of us experience the same thing, gain during this time of year, but the new year is a time to start again.

Don't worry too much about comments from others. You've worked hard and should be proud of your accomplishments.

 

[traceycooper]

Hi CJK
we are all struggling right now so know you are not alone.
Well done for getting back on track after the party, & i'm sure any small gains will dissapear once new year is over & life settles back to a normal routine

I'm sure your family didnt mean to upset you with their reaction, proberbly just shock! You have done an amazing job the last few months, i'm sure if they knew how sensibly you have worked to lose the lb's they would understand & be overjoyed for you, but if they dont know pherhaps they would be concerned you were ill or something.
Hope the next party went well

 

[lovinaz]

Don't worry about all the naysayers! You are finally at a healthy weight. You did not pick that healthy weight out of a fashion magazine with ultra thin models, you picked that healthy weight out of a established medical chart for healthy weights - BMI. You lost weight the right way - eating healthy and exercising. And if people can't be happy for you, that is their problem, not your problem!

And like everyone else has said, don't let a couple days of crazy eating get to you. We've all been there, you just have to focus on all the things you did resist. Those couple days won't ruin everything you've accomplished.

 

[Foxfiregrrl]

Hey! I am finally getting caught back up with your journal.

First, CONGRATULATIONS!! on reaching your goal weight!! WAY TO GO!! You have been SO dedicated and done an EXCELLENT job!! I will take inspiration from you as I get restarted on this journey.

Second, I hope you have gotten back in the swing after the couple of rough days. I agree w/ previous posters that a couple of days won't derail 6+ months of hard work...unless you let it mentally throw you off of the track. I think that the weight loss journey is as much mental as it is physical. Keep thinking the positive thoughts and you will get there!! Remember you are working at this for your health and the health of your future children and that is an awesome motivator! You are already at your goal weight all you have to do now is maintain and maybe drop a pound or two here and there so those pants are a touch more roomy. That is a cinch compared to the hard work you have already put in!

Keep up the good work!! HAPPY NEW YEAR!!

 

[CJK]

THANK YOU soooooo very much to all of you!!! I think I had what can be considered a "temper tantrum"!! I'm quite embarassed. Thanks to your kind and encouraging words, I'm right back on track!

A little off topic, but have any of you ever had chocolate, candy cane cheesecake???? I had some at the party I went to a couple days ago. Let me just say it's AMAZING!!!!!! I didn't intend to eat the entire large piece, but I just couldn't resist. The hostess also had homemade turtle brownies that were incredible. Thankfully, I worked the rest of my day around these goodies so I didn't gain weight. In fact, I'm down a couple pounds from just before Christmas!! It has really been an eye opening experience.

While I did indulge in some treats (one REALLY bad day and two semi-bad days), I did watch what I ate the rest of the time, continued exercising and kept busy. I'm wondering if my body welcomed the extra food, almost as if I was in starvation mode again (though I eat 1400 calories a day on average)? Interesting. In the meantime, I'm trying to be careful today and tomorrow so that I can enjoy some champagne tomorrow night!

I'm wondering if I should re:evaluate my weightloss plans now. I still have a couple pair of pants that don't fit yet, but I'm beginning to think that I'm not really meant to be that small anymore. I'm a solid size 8 right now, about 148lbs on my 5'8 frame. I was 140 when I got married and I never thought I'd get to that weight again. I once got to 131 but found that entirely too difficult to maintain (read: dh found me somewhat irritable! ). I'm going to try to get to 145 and try maintaining for a while.

As for the negative comments from family/friends regarding my weightloss, you're all absolutely right. That's why I love coming here so much since we're all on this journey together.

Happy New Year and thanks so much for sticking with me! I'm off to read some journals!!

 

[Blueeyes101817]

Hi CJK-
It seems like we are very similar in weight and height! I am 5'7ish and right now about 152 pounds. Id like to get down to 140-145.
You have done a great job, dont worry about all the holiday eating--we have all done it! you will get back on track !
Have agreat weekend!