Hey everyone...glad to see so many are doing so well. I haven't checked in for a couple of days. To be perfectly honest, my last few days have stunk. I am not really feeling the greatest, to the point where I just want to curl up and cry. I don't know why I feel so down, but I get like this every now and then. I do blame it on PMS, except it doesn't happen every month, so I don't know why it happens. I take one day off a week from working out, and it usually is Wednesday. So, I took that day off....and it just blew the rest of the week for me. On Thursday, I literally had to PUSH myself just to do the minimum of my workout....and usually, when I start, I realize I can do it, and do it well, but on Thursday, it just wasn't there....again, was feeling really down

. And I knew Friday would be busy from the time I got up to the time I went to bed, and I was out and about all day and didn't eat great (not terribly, but not great). Saturday, I had to host a get together, and again, there was so much food, and again, I wasn't feeling the energy to try. I personally wanted a big bowl of chocolate ice cream just to feel better, but I couldn't even do that. I ended up eating TERRIBLY last night, despite the fact that I had tons of healthy food as options at the party.
I reserve Sundays for cheat days, as long as I go to the Wilderness center and run...but today, I couldn't do it....my tummy wasn't feeling great from all the yucky food I ate yesterday, and now I feel terribly. I know set backs happen, but I feel like I completely blew it....And today, I again didn't eat very well.
I didn't want to weigh myself because I fear of what the scale will say. I know I shouldn't be so hard on myself, but I literally feel like garbage. My race that I am so desperate to complete is in 4 weeks, and I will be so proud of myself if I can finish it, but right now I am so down on myself for not giving the training my 100%...I fear that I won't be able to finish it, and I have wanted to get into this race for 2 years! And I am not even CLOSE to being even half way ready for it...
Sorry for the rant....I literally am reading this again, and feel the tears building up....I hope I do better this week. I am just SO disappointed in myself and don't know why I'm so down on myself! Hope everyone is keeping up....Joline