Amanda -- Thank you. I knew you would understand. I guess everything is relative, and making good choices is a big enough step without thinking about sacrifice, too.
It occurred to me this morning that while I have made HUGE changes in my life, I am really not suffering for my cause. I am still leading a normal life, eating 3 meals and 3 snacks a day, and NOT rabbit food. So, if the weight loss is slow (only another 1/2 pound this week), I know this is a more reasonable approach, and I will keep going just as I have.
I think the stress in my life is really impacting everything right now. Work is stressful. DH having no job after Thursday is stressful. The dire financial condition of my parents' estate is stressful. Having to figure out how to liquidate my mother's coin, plate, and stamp collections when I know nothing about any of those things, all in an attempt to have money to throw at their creditors, is stressful. I am not going to let my weight loss and 1/2 marathon training efforts be stressful. Those are the things I am doing for me and for my family and for a healthy future. I just have to adjust my mindset and look at the exercise as an outlet, rather than an obligation.
Having said all that, though, I am really disappointed that I did not get to the gym last night. Left work late and headed home to beat severe thunder and lightening storms. Had to start dinner for the kids, then started going through my mother's stuff to figure out how to start to organize to sell it all off in some organized, value-maximizing fashion. No real likelihood of getting there tonight either due to our other commitments.
Didn't eat too badly last night, though -- one fat free hot dog (finger food) and mushroom eggbeater omelette for dinner (with a few of the kids' french fries -- but I didn't eat any of their pizza!). Dessert later was TWO weight watchers ice cream cones (UGLY
!!!! but still only 4 points total, which is less than the breyer's ice cream I would have eaten) and 2 cookies (3 points). Haven't figured out where that puts me points-wise for the day, but I still had FPs for the week, so I definitely didn't exceed my points allowance.
DS11's awards assembly tonight, so probably no time for the gym and I bet we will end up eating out. Should be able to get back to the gym tomorrow night.
Food plan for today:
B: grilled chicken breast (leftover from Sunday) on WW bagel (4) -- this was very filling. I shouldn't be hungry again until lunch, but may eat a snack anyway
S (if needed): big fat juicy apple, cut up (2)
L: lettuce,tomatoes, cucumber, fat free feta cheese, kalamata olives, pine nuts (4) (sound familiar? yesterday's lunch was so delicious, I decided to do the same thing again today)
S: chewy granola bar (3)
D: not sure, since we will be out for most of the evening. Will have to play it by ear, but I have plenty of points to do something good, even if we go out to dinner.
Back to work.
WISHing my cheerleaders
, my rocks
, my friends
a great day!
CAN 
DO IT 
JUST 
Cam,
