Everything with Grandma's wake and funeral has finally come to a close. It has been a very very long couple of days filled with many tears and a little laughter as we all shared memories of Grandma.
I haven't posted in a couple of days because I was so tired. I would take a couple of Tylenol PM's before I'd go to bed and then sleep a little longer than normal in the morning. Then at night I was totally exhausted and just wanted to go to bed. I still checked in everyday though just long enough to see what was going on. Again, I want to thank all of you for your love, hugs, and prayers during a very difficult time. Even though none of you were at my Grandma's wake and funeral, I felt like you were all there. You are all wonderful and I'm so glad you are my friends.
I saw that many of you asked about Stephanie and I want to let you know that she is doing much better. Sunday night she was very very sad again and nervous about the wake the next day. She even told me that she didn't want to go. I told her that I wouldn't force her to go, but I think that she would regret not seeing Grandma one last time. At the wake she was a very strong little girl, she would go to Grandmas casket alone at times and speak very softly to her. I don't know what she said, but that's okay, it can be a special talk just between her and Grandma. At the end of the night she asked if she could say a prayer to Grandma alone with just me. Then she changed her mind and asked if my family and her could all say a prayer together and we did - what a special moment!! I'm so proud of her!! Thank you all for thinking of her, I believe that eveyone's prayers helped provide her with peace during a very difficult time

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The funeral today was very difficult. I decided a couple of days ago to say a Eulagy (sp?) at the funeral and I was very nervous that I wasn't going to be able to hold it together while saying it. But, I prayed to Grandma for strength, and she gave it to me. I spoke about my childhood with Grandma, my adult memories with Grandma, and her time spent with Stephanie. Many people complimented me and that made me feel really good. I didn't want Grandma to have a funeral w/o anyone saying something personal about her. When we went to the cemetary I decided that I wanted to stay with the casket until it was in the ground and the lid of the vault was sealed. So, Kevin, my brother, his wife and myself went to the plot and watched Grandma lowered down - and as we were standing there a HUGE gust of wind came and made me come off balance. I told my brother that was Grandma saying to us, "What are you doing standing out here in the cold. Go in where it's warm, I'm okay." Then we went to a luncheon with my family and then made it home - I feel so tired. Emotional stress is so draining.
grannywishes - You are so sweet to be there for all of us

Please come by often and visit, I would love to see you more often!!
eeyoresmountainpals - Kathy, I am so sorry to hear about Grandpa

I remember if it were yesterday when you talked about him being sick. I understand how you feel, and I send my deepest sympathies along with many many hugs!!! I'll be keeping you all in my prayers
Idroveallnight - thank you for your thoughts. I truly felt like you were all with me these last couple of days
Mom2Ashli - How have you been? Thank you for your thoughts, it really means alot.
Mad4Mickey - How are you and DH doing? I've been thinking of you!! I'll be saying lots of prayers for peace during a time of great sadness.

Well, I should be going and get a bite to eat. I decided to go back to work tomorrow and have Stephanie go back to school. I felt that it would be good to get our schedules back in order - Grandma would have wanted it that way.
Have a good night
