Biggest Loser Princess and Tinker Bell 2011 and 2012 -- OLD please see NEW thread

[mikamah]

Rose-How did the hair come out!! Hope you're happy with it.

 

[mommyof2Pirates]

so excited for our Lisabelles You two looked amazing in your pic and I am so excited that you were able to meet up.

Nancy- I run alone! I ran one race with my friend. It was a 5.3mile and she wanted to stay with me because she never ran that far. She is tiny and petite and I knew she could go faster. I was worried about it the entire time. I really dont think she minded at all, honestly it was her choice but it is just my confidence thing. I ran with mike for a 1/2 mile at a race we did last st patty's day and he annoyed me too. He kept looking like something was wrong and I have anxiety about my loved ones dying so I was concerned he was having a heart attack. Im totally nuts but Im just giving you the honest truth here. So he ran ahead and I felt better being in my own little world. I did wish a few times at the princess that I would have had someone there to enjoy everything with. Instead I felt like I was running with a cheesy smile on wishing I had someone to talk to but otherwise I am very happy by myself.

Im so glad matthew is a good baby for you. He is such a doll and thomas is such a cutie too.

Rose- Hope the haircut went well. Im glad you are feeling much better and awesome job on the run. I have not tried Vit D yet. The sun shined for about 30 seconds while I was in my office with windows today. I am trying to beat the winter blahs with planning my trips for the summer and fall.

Kathy- I agree I will feel a bit sad that I am not at the princess too. It was just an amazing time. I hope you and I will both get back there for marathon wkend. Keep buying those tickets. I will get over to our team thread in the morning to catch up. Great Great Great Job on the weight loss this week. You are back on the wagon and on a roll lady.

Hi Maria. Hope your coaching finished up drama free for you. How are things going???

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The scale this morning showed a loss of 1.6 for a total of 11lbs lost so far this month. I am thrilled but still have that feeling of being fat. I keep telling myself in another month or so I will start to notice changes. I remember before it took close to 20lbs before I really noticed my clothes getting big. Im hanging in there and being patient but it really is hard. wah wah wah (thats my pity party)

The only not so good thing is I went to lunch with my dad and had a small cheese steak. it was at a resturaunt and not a greasy one and it really was small. Then we went out to dinner at perkins and I had a grilled chicken sandwich with veggies on it and a few fries. Not a horrible day but still went over my calories. I guess its ok to do that every now and again.

I am annoyed beyond belief that ryans bball schedule said he played at 9 tomorrow but the coach told mike on thur that the schedule was wrong and we play at 10. I really wish I could just pull him out of the league but I am not a quitter and I wont show he its ok to just quit either. Its one of the things I strongly believe in.....so sorry but I will just have to complain on here until march when its over. The reason I am so annoyed is because I wont make it to zumba at 1030.

My parents signed us up to go here a disney presentation at AAA in the afternoon. I told my mom I probably know about everything they are going to tell us but she insists we go because the TA goes to disney 3X a year. So even if its all stuff I know at least it will be an hour about disney so who can complain. Plus maybe my mom and dad will learn something too because Im sure by now they just tune me out.

I got ryans report card tonight and overall he did well. All average grades which I guess I should just be happy with. Of course everyone wants there kids to be above average right. I will just accept that he does well in school and is above average in sports....nothing wrong with that. The only thing that is still bothering me is that there are comments again about him having focus issues. Not really paying attention stuff but things like some days he is focused and does amazing but other days he doesnt want to be bothered. She said he is very inconsistent. So as a parent what else can I do about this? I was also irritated because last marking period he got a plus in homework and this time he got a check. I am taking it personally because I have him do his homework everynight and I check it. We read every night and we study spelling words every night. So I will talk with her about that at our teachers conf on the 6th.

Ok you deserve an award if you made it this far. I guess Im a bit wordy tonight.

OK I will leave you with a gross but its so ridiculous your probably going to laugh MIL story. Nancy I almost wonder if our in laws are related.

yesterday my in laws got the boys from school. I didnt get out of work until 645 so I stopped at the gym to pick up nick so he didnt have to sit through ryans bball practice. He gets in the car and I asked how he was and how his day was. I said how was grammy and pop pop. He tells me grammy pooped. Im like ok nick thats gross why do I need to know about that. He said no, she pooped in her pants. I was like what???? He said yep she pooped in her pants and had to borrow your underwear. I called mike and he said apparently after they ate dinner at a pizza place she had a GI issue and didnt make it home to the bathroom. I was like well why the heck didnt she just wear her pants home without underwear. He said I dont know she went in your draw and got a pair of yours. I knew I had brand new ones in there with the tags on so I said well good thing I had new ones there for her. He said oh no she didnt want to use them on you so she just took an old pair.

I mean that story right there just sums up what I have to deal with. Its so freakin ridiculous.

Ok well I am off to bed.

 

[mikamah]

Oh, Lindsay, that mil story had me rolling. I hope she doesn't return the underpants next time she visits.
11 pounds in a month is truly awesome. Congratulations! Too bad it can't come off magically. I feel like the more times I've lost and regained the slower it comes off when i try again, and am thrilled with 5 pounds a month. If I could lose 15-20 pounds by summer, and maintain over the summer, I will be thrilled. I think it takes a good 20 pounds for me to really notice it too. I lost 40 pounds before I went down a size in scrubs, so when I lose 10-15 more pounds I'll pull out my old scrubs.
I'd be aggravated with the bb coach too. You deserve to go to zumba too.
Have fun at the disney thing. It will be good for your parents to get more involved in planning the trip too.

Happy saturday!! Off to the Donald thread.

 

[dumbo_buddy]

sooooo, I decided to get bangs cut into my hair today. I know you girls will understand this. I don't want bangs. They are too much work. They look craptastically awful when you get hot and sweaty. They don't do humidity well. They don't work well with a bondi band.

Having said all that I have so much hair growing back in it looks like I have inch long bangs anyhow! It is really very unattractive. It won't stay pushed back and it looks like a fringe across my forehead. Lovely! And more little hairs are popping up all the time! Which is a really good thing, but it is driving me crazy! I really lost a lot of hair last year. Crazy!

I'll let you know how it goes....[/QUOTE

pics please! i bet bangs would look faboo on you i feel like bangs make thing hair look much more full and thick. i like bangs! how will you style them? straight across? side swept? you have a nice face for bangs. my mother (ready for this?) told me that i HAVE to have bangs because my forehead is too big. nice.

I was down 2.8 pounds today!!! For 5 pounds this month. I haven't been this low since last feb before the princess. I am at 206.6, and for the princess I was 204, so getting close to new territory again. I really want to in Onderland when Maria and Rose are running the princess this year. I think I'm going to have a hard time not being there. It was such an amazing weekend last year, and I would love to be able to do it every year, but know I just can't do that. So I want to at least be thinner than I was last year, to help me get over it.

5 lbs in a month is great! down is down, right?? that's what i'm telling myself! and you're this close to being in the 100s you'll be there very soon. i know what you mean about the princess. i wish i was going down this year too. i'm pretty sad that i'm not. of course i know there's a 10 lb reason why i'm not there (baby matt) but still, i wish i was there and i think if i was at least thinner i'd feel better about not being there. i get it. i was 140 at the princess last year. this year? notsomuch.

Rose-Sorry for the sucky day at work, but glad it ended with an awesome run!! It is amazing how good those endorphins make us feel. I have been eating really good this month, and wonder if part of it is the fact that I'm getting out every day and exercising. I read an article about having a dog, and how it is good for your health and just patting a dog will bring your blood pressure and stress levels way down. I believe it. I am still amazed at how much I am loving having Poko.

dogs are awesome. i miss fiona. isn't it great how close you can feel to a dog? they just want to make you proud all the time! wait til poko goes out and brings you back a hunting souvenir! and i bet poko can take some credit for your weight loss too since you HAVE to get out to walk her everyday! did i already ask you - what are you feeding her?

Nancy-I have run with my friend Karen. She ran with me on most of my long runs before the princess, and when we started running together, I made sure she knew how slow I was, and felt a little awkward at first, but realized I needed to do my training at my speed, and she really, truly didn't mind going at my speed and run/walk intervals, and was happy to have the company. We used to laugh, because she would chat away, and if I was running, I wouldn't be able to talk and answer til we were walking again. I did find I would push myself harder on short runs with her, than if I was alone, and that probably helped my speed and endurance. We did the wicked half together, and she thought she was going to run/walk with me, and I told her, I didnt' think she should, that she should go for her own time, but she really thought she would stay with me, but when we started, I knew I needed to go slow and pace myself, and she was trying to get me to run faster, and I just couldn't if i wanted to finish, so she went on ahead. She finished an hour ahead of me, and her and another girl I knew were waiting for me to finish. I really did love having her company on the long runs especially. I think if you talked up front about it with your friend, about your speed, and needing to go at that, and be frank about what kind of encouragement you were in the mood for, it might be nice to have company for some of your runs, especially for marathon training. Those will be some long runs, I"m sure.

great response, thanks. i'm going to plan to mostly run by myself since that's what i'm used to. the reason i prefer to run on my own i guess is that running for me is so mental. sure, my body hurts but it's all in my head usually. only i can get myself across the finish like, kwim? my friend tends to a little flaky and i don't want to depend my long runs on her. during the super long runs though having someone around might be good just to kill some time. plus, if i go downtown we can run around central park. she's just SO fast. but you know, she talks NONSTOP so maybe just having her blah blah blah would be good...or maybe i'd scream at her to shut up!

Have a great night Princesses!! In just 4 weeks we'll be checking facebook frantically looking for pics from the princess expo, and whatever fun dinner you all plan. Ahhhhhh, heaven!

4 weeks! wow! i can't believe it's almost been a year since the princess!

so excited for our Lisabelles You two looked amazing in your pic and I am so excited that you were able to meet up.

i loved that pic too! i want to copy and paste a pic of myself next to you two. there's a little room to stick my head in there, right??

Nancy- I run alone! I ran one race with my friend. It was a 5.3mile and she wanted to stay with me because she never ran that far. She is tiny and petite and I knew she could go faster. I was worried about it the entire time. I really dont think she minded at all, honestly it was her choice but it is just my confidence thing. I ran with mike for a 1/2 mile at a race we did last st patty's day and he annoyed me too. He kept looking like something was wrong and I have anxiety about my loved ones dying so I was concerned he was having a heart attack. Im totally nuts but Im just giving you the honest truth here. So he ran ahead and I felt better being in my own little world. I did wish a few times at the princess that I would have had someone there to enjoy everything with. Instead I felt like I was running with a cheesy smile on wishing I had someone to talk to but otherwise I am very happy by myself.

i had the goofball smile on my face the whole time too. when i finished i got all choked up i kinda sorta wanted someone there to hug. but instead i got my medal and said, "i did it!" to the lady who gave me the medal. and maybe less than 30 seconds after i finished my cell phone rang and it was my friend lauren (the friend i'm thinking of running with) calling to congratulate me. those texts they send people really are real-time! so it was nice to have someone i know immediately tell me i rocked that race.
Im so glad matthew is a good baby for you. He is such a doll and thomas is such a cutie too.


Kathy- I agree I will feel a bit sad that I am not at the princess too. It was just an amazing time. I hope you and I will both get back there for marathon wkend.

yes! yes! you have to come next year!

Hi Maria. Hope your coaching finished up drama free for you. How are things going???

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The scale this morning showed a loss of 1.6 for a total of 11lbs lost so far this month.

huzzah!!!! 11 lbs in a month!!! OMG!!!! that's fabulous! you just keep that right up girly!

OK I will leave you with a gross but its so ridiculous your probably going to laugh MIL story. Nancy I almost wonder if our in laws are related.

yesterday my in laws got the boys from school. I didnt get out of work until 645 so I stopped at the gym to pick up nick so he didnt have to sit through ryans bball practice. He gets in the car and I asked how he was and how his day was. I said how was grammy and pop pop. He tells me grammy pooped. Im like ok nick thats gross why do I need to know about that. He said no, she pooped in her pants. I was like what???? He said yep she pooped in her pants and had to borrow your underwear. I called mike and he said apparently after they ate dinner at a pizza place she had a GI issue and didnt make it home to the bathroom. I was like well why the heck didnt she just wear her pants home without underwear. He said I dont know she went in your draw and got a pair of yours. I knew I had brand new ones in there with the tags on so I said well good thing I had new ones there for her. He said oh no she didnt want to use them on you so she just took an old pair.

I mean that story right there just sums up what I have to deal with. Its so freakin ridiculous.

Ok well I am off to bed.

ok well i totally would write back about ryan's bball coach and grades and all that but after the MIL underwear story how can i even go there? lol! omg! she is nuts! old underwear?? i would DIE if anyone saw my undies! and she wore them?? who goes into someone's drawers like that!?!? the BEST is going to be when she tries to give them back!!!

Oh, Lindsay, that mil story had me rolling. I hope she doesn't return the underpants next time she visits.
11 pounds in a month is truly awesome. Congratulations! Too bad it can't come off magically. I feel like the more times I've lost and regained the slower it comes off when i try again, and am thrilled with 5 pounds a month. If I could lose 15-20 pounds by summer, and maintain over the summer, I will be thrilled. I think it takes a good 20 pounds for me to really notice it too. I lost 40 pounds before I went down a size in scrubs, so when I lose 10-15 more pounds I'll pull out my old scrubs.
I'd be aggravated with the bb coach too. You deserve to go to zumba too.
Have fun at the disney thing. It will be good for your parents to get more involved in planning the trip too.

Happy saturday!! Off to the Donald thread.

imagine if the weight COULD just come off magically! wow! that would be so great!

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oh sheesh i've run out of time. that's lucky for you b/c i can't write a novel! i managed to have a loss this week. it may or may not have been solely because i was stuck on the bowl practically all day yesterday that only puts me at a 4.5 lb loss for the month. better than a 4.5 lb gain! so much for that breastfeeding burns 500 calories a day nonsense. phooey.

thomas has swimming today then i'm getting new running shoes today. after that john's going to queens to see his sister who had a mastectomy on wedesday. MIL and FIL are staying with her but i'm not going over there and not taking the kids there. 1) i don't want to see them (duh) and 2) it's not really appropriate for little kids to be around a healing woman. thomas has a cold and i'm sure kathleen doesn't need the extra cooties around.

so, i'm down this week. 158. trying to just be happy about being down and trying not to think about how i was 140 at the princess and 135 a month later when i found out i was pregnant. if i could just get to 145 when we go to disney in may i'd feel ok. i think.

running yesterday was CRAZY! i only went 3.2 miles but it took me FIFTY minutes to do it - THAT'S how strong the wind gusts were. i was practically sprinting but barely moving forward!

have a great day everyone! thomas is sitting on top of me and i can't even see the screen to type more!

 

[Worfiedoodles]

Good Morning and !

Sigh. I should be on the TM right now. Yesterday I starting seeing signs of approaching TOM -- I'm tender and bloated and I feel cruddy. I have a date this afternoon, so I just want to rest up. I decided the 10, 8, 5 I have left for the next three weeks will be sufficient.

I know this is not the attitude of Champions, I think everything just sort of wore me out yesterday. I had to go in for an 8:30 meeting about the merger. It wasn't anything bad for me, but of course it was stressful. Then I had to leave it early to walk downtown (in the pouring rain) for another, tense meeting. Again, not affecting me personally, but just being in a room where people are that angry...

Dennis did the grocery shopping by himself last night. I seem to be in read and recover mode. Oh! Yeah. Another SMIL issue weighing on me -- this woman does not have the memory of an elephant, but Ben has convinced himself she will remember she wants to go to his next Improv show, which is next month. I want nothing to do with her. And honestly -- this is a very diverse school. I've seen the photos of Ben's friends on FB -- when I say they are every nationality and religion you can imagine, I am not kidding. Dennis said it's like he has his own UN going The odds of her showing up and making an inappropriate remark are off the scale. So, it's not just about me, I don't want her to embarrass him, and say something he can't take back. Dennis thinks she will remember and I should suck it up so Ben can invite her. It's actually 2 shows the same day, so perhaps I could go to one and Dennis could take her to the other one. We haven't had a real talk about it yet -- but I know I'm going to come off as selfish if I say I don't want her invited. They take such little interest in Ben, it does seem a shame to keep them away when they actually want to see him. But I'm not imagining the probability of her saying something vaguely evil. She once asked my dad (who is a Mason -- the grand poobah kind, not the bricks and mortar variety), what is was like to be in a cult, and asked him to tell her where the Holy Grail is hidden. Completely seriously. Yeah, I think we've found the root of why I'm feeling out of sorts....

Ok, and one more thing. I know this is a good thing, but...I've had 2 different people ask me in the last 2 days if I am losing weight. This just freaks me out, and then I eat too much and don't move. I know it's crazy. I like the praise (I think), but it's like I don't want anyone to notice me, and if I lose weight I seem to stand out, and I don't like that...the way my body works, when I'm hanging around getting to the 180s one of the layers of fat around my midsection retreats, and all of a sudden I look like I have more of a waist, and the girls are more prominent. I'm still big, so it's not like they're sitting on a stick, but I do look more feminine. And it freaks me out to have that noticed. This happened last Spring, and I reacted poorly and just put the weight back on and more. I am determined not to do that. So I really do have to get moving and not descend into poor eating. I'm going to give myself today, since I have a date later with lunch and a movie, but then I'm going to go back to doing what I know I really want to do. I am determined to meet Rose and Mike at a lower weight than last year The best I can hope for is a maintain for this week. I woke up yesterday 2.5 lbs heavier, but at least I can feel confident that was TOM approaching. I don't usually gain that much in a day!

Thanks for bearing with me while I kind of worked that out by typing it...

Guess I could chat a little, since I've rambled along about me

Nancy -- Congratulations ! I know you are proud of that weight loss I know you are frustrated it isn't coming off quicker, but my goodness, your body is still healing, and is nourishing another human. I think your body is doing an amazing job! I can't wait to hear about the new running shoes. And I'm so glad Matthew is a good baby. He's just happy to be here with his wonderful Mommy!

Kathy -- Good Luck coaching this week! I know you will be fun, encouraging, and supportive -- all the elements of a great coach! Please help yourself to any of my QOTDs you'd like It is going to be a nice weekend for us! Today Dennis and I are going to lunch and to see "One for the Money". I'm going to start the conversation about summer vactioning. The only problem is, I haven't quite decided what I want to talk him into yet I'm wavering between a week in DC, or short trips to Niagara Falls in summer and then NYC next autumn...then there's the issue of should we go to FL, because my SIL may be moving and this could be our last summer to hang by her pool, and honestly, they are the best hosts ever...Anyway, then we're dropping Ben at a practice for tomorrow's youth-led worship service, and shopping for him. My former baby will be 14 tomorrow! Since he has the church service and studying for some big tests to do tomorrow, he wants to celebrate today. We'll still do cake and presents tomorrow, but he wants to spend his day on the couch, watching Harry Potter movies in his pajamas. Hey, if that's what he really wants...

Lindsay -- 11 lbs?! You are on a "Lisah" streak! Great job! My coaching ended up being uneventful, which was good. I hope people had some fun with the questions. I sort of gave up on the "healthy" part and focused on flights of fancy. That story about the underpants -- oh my goodness, my mouth is still hanging open. I can't believe she went into your drawers and helped herself...

Rose -- We are all atwitter waiting to hear about those bangs! Do you like them? Sometimes it takes me a week or so to "grow into" a hair style. I am still processing that we are getting so close to our race, but not as close as two other ladies!

Lisah and Lisa -- I hope you are enjoying today, getting plenty of rest, and relaxing. I am eager to follow along, so glad we have the bib numbers! I am so excited for you, our Lisabelles are going to shine!

Ok, I'd better at least get up and do a few things before I start getting ready for my big event. We don't do regular dates, unless you count the weekly grocery shopping I pretty much have to announce we are going to have one, unless it's a date he can't possibly miss, like Valentine's Day or our anniversary....

It feels weird to leave Ben alone to celebrate his birthday, but it's what he wants

Maria

 

[Rose&Mike]

Ok, let's talk food here. I am coming clean. I am eating too much. Period. Stress eating, over eating, mindless eating. You get the picture. I am up ~6 pounds since Princess last year, 4 pounds since December. My clothes are all getting too tight and I don't have anything else that fits. I do not want to go down this road again, so after just over eating again, I am coming clean. I moved from being a loser to being a maintainer, thinking just taking the mental pressure off would help, but we came home from our run today and I have eaten to the point where I feel a little ill. I just don't know why I am doing this??? The foot is doing really well in the big scheme of things, the sun is shining, life is good. I don't want to go down this road again, but I am feeling very unmotivated to deal with it either. I don't want to track my food, I don't want to watch my calories. I sound like a 2 year old, but now I'm a 2 yo with a stomach ache.....

I think one of the biggest issues I am having is that we eat every single stinking thing at home. In theory, that should make things better, right. But if it means I want any junky food at all I am having it at home. French fries--at home. Potato chips at home. Desserts at home, etc. Before I just didn't eat junk at home, period. That and I just feel this underlying chronic stress that I just can't seem to kick. I think it is just leftover from spending 2011 worrying about everything, but I can't seem to get rid of it.

Ok, I am going to think about this a bit and see if I can come up with a plan. I know 6 pounds is not 50 pounds. And I know this is fixable--and it shouldn't even be that hard. I just have zero motivation to fix it......

BBL with replies....thanks for letting me ramble.

 

[dumbo_buddy]

Good Morning and !

Sigh. I should be on the TM right now. Yesterday I starting seeing signs of approaching TOM -- I'm tender and bloated and I feel cruddy. I have a date this afternoon, so I just want to rest up. I decided the 10, 8, 5 I have left for the next three weeks will be sufficient.

you have done PLENTY to prepare for the princess.(ooo, see my alliteration??) just rest up! what are you going to see at the movies? and i shouldn't ask this on a BL thread but...what are you going to eat at the movie theater??

Another SMIL issue weighing on me -- this woman does not have the memory of an elephant, but Ben has convinced himself she will remember she wants to go to his next Improv show, which is next month. I want nothing to do with her. And honestly -- this is a very diverse school. I've seen the photos of Ben's friends on FB -- when I say they are every nationality and religion you can imagine, I am not kidding. Dennis said it's like he has his own UN going The odds of her showing up and making an inappropriate remark are off the scale. So, it's not just about me, I don't want her to embarrass him, and say something he can't take back. Dennis thinks she will remember and I should suck it up so Ben can invite her. It's actually 2 shows the same day, so perhaps I could go to one and Dennis could take her to the other one. We haven't had a real talk about it yet -- but I know I'm going to come off as selfish if I say I don't want her invited. They take such little interest in Ben, it does seem a shame to keep them away when they actually want to see him. But I'm not imagining the probability of her saying something vaguely evil. She once asked my dad (who is a Mason -- the grand poobah kind, not the bricks and mortar variety), what is was like to be in a cult, and asked him to tell her where the Holy Grail is hidden. Completely seriously. Yeah, I think we've found the root of why I'm feeling out of sorts....

our ILs all must be related. at least we know they are in their craziness. the holy grail? seriously? let me guess...the one book she's read in the last 5 year was the davinci code and believes every word of it. duh. i don't blame you for not wanting her around. my MIL was horrified when my friend tamika came to my baby shower with thomas. i was just waiting for her to say something nasty. she wound up ruining the day for another reason but that's a whole other story. if there are two shows maybe you going to one and she going to the other is a good idea so you don't have to see her.

Ok, and one more thing. I know this is a good thing, but...I've had 2 different people ask me in the last 2 days if I am losing weight. This just freaks me out, and then I eat too much and don't move. I know it's crazy. I like the praise (I think), but it's like I don't want anyone to notice me, and if I lose weight I seem to stand out, and I don't like that...the way my body works, when I'm hanging around getting to the 180s one of the layers of fat around my midsection retreats, and all of a sudden I look like I have more of a waist, and the girls are more prominent. I'm still big, so it's not like they're sitting on a stick, but I do look more feminine. And it freaks me out to have that noticed. This happened last Spring, and I reacted poorly and just put the weight back on and more. I am determined not to do that. So I really do have to get moving and not descend into poor eating. I'm going to give myself today, since I have a date later with lunch and a movie, but then I'm going to go back to doing what I know I really want to do. I am determined to meet Rose and Mike at a lower weight than last year The best I can hope for is a maintain for this week. I woke up yesterday 2.5 lbs heavier, but at least I can feel confident that was TOM approaching. I don't usually gain that much in a day!

hmm, this is a toughie. are you upset that people notice weight loss because they are looking at you and you're getting attention and you don't like attention? or because you feel like when someone notices your weight loss that you can slack off a little? hmm. how do we psychoanalyze this further?

Thanks for bearing with me while I kind of worked that out by typing it...

Guess I could chat a little, since I've rambled along about me

Nancy -- Congratulations ! I know you are proud of that weight loss I know you are frustrated it isn't coming off quicker, but my goodness, your body is still healing, and is nourishing another human. I think your body is doing an amazing job! I can't wait to hear about the new running shoes. And I'm so glad Matthew is a good baby. He's just happy to be here with his wonderful Mommy!

It feels weird to leave Ben alone to celebrate his birthday, but it's what he wants

Maria

just keep remembering that ben is 14 aka the time when boys are just really weird. hanging alone sounds cool to him! heck, it sounds cool to me. you know we only children treasure our alone time!

Ok, let's talk food here. I am coming clean. I am eating too much. Period. Stress eating, over eating, mindless eating. You get the picture. I am up ~6 pounds since Princess last year, 4 pounds since December. My clothes are all getting too tight and I don't have anything else that fits. I do not want to go down this road again, so after just over eating again, I am coming clean. I moved from being a loser to being a maintainer, thinking just taking the mental pressure off would help, but we came home from our run today and I have eaten to the point where I feel a little ill. I just don't know why I am doing this??? The foot is doing really well in the big scheme of things, the sun is shining, life is good. I don't want to go down this road again, but I am feeling very unmotivated to deal with it either. I don't want to track my food, I don't want to watch my calories. I sound like a 2 year old, but now I'm a 2 yo with a stomach ache.....

I think one of the biggest issues I am having is that we eat every single stinking thing at home. In theory, that should make things better, right. But if it means I want any junky food at all I am having it at home. French fries--at home. Potato chips at home. Desserts at home, etc. Before I just didn't eat junk at home, period. That and I just feel this underlying chronic stress that I just can't seem to kick. I think it is just leftover from spending 2011 worrying about everything, but I can't seem to get rid of it.

Ok, I am going to think about this a bit and see if I can come up with a plan. I know 6 pounds is not 50 pounds. And I know this is fixable--and it shouldn't even be that hard. I just have zero motivation to fix it......

BBL with replies....thanks for letting me ramble.

ok well i gave hugs last time but this post deserves the tough love approach.

rose, i love ya but you MUST go back to tracking your food. 6 lbs isn't 50 but 6 lbs is enough to make you uncomfortable in your clothes and being uncomfortable in your clothes is SO depressing. (trust me, i know!) so this is what you're going to do. enjoy the rest of your weekend and have the snackies and junk that you want but today or tomorrow you're going to plan out the week. and you're going to get back on the horse. don't let it get out of hand. my aunt mary who lives across the street lost 30 lbs in the last few months. she is up about 5lbs right now and we just had this discussion. you have to just bite the bullet and cut the crap. (we speak harshly when it comes to our weight loss, seems to be the only thing that gets through our noggins)

this goes for all of us. it is SO easy to just keep eating once we start. i think a little tough love is what we all could use! well, at least i need the tough love. when i lost the weight before someone asked me what diet i went on. i told her, it's the get-the-donut-out-of-your-mouth-you-fatty diet.

oh...and... love you

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i got my running shoes! i went up a size! the running store guy actually thinks my shoes may have been to small to begin with, not really that my feet are bigger. he said i had waaaaaay too many miles on my shoes and that they were way over-worn. oopsies. no wonder my feet hurt so much. i got the same kind as last time. nike volero. i also got a pair of nike pegusus shoes because i do alot of walking and aerobics classes and want to have two different shoes.

john has TERRIBLE feet. he doesn't run or really exercise or anything but i had him get fitted for sneakers too since his feet are so flat and, ugh, just bad. he got some sauconies with extra support and the man is like a new person. he said they feel so good. maybe he might even start jogging? naaaahhhh.

he left about an hour ago to see his sister. thomas is snoozing after being a nightmare at the shoe store and matthew is snoozing away too. the poor baby hasn't pooped in going on SEVEN days. SEVEN! doesn't seem to bother him though. i'm not looking forward to THAT explosion.

and on that note, i'm going to zone out and watch bad tv until thomas wakes up

 

[dumbo_buddy]

duh, maria sorry. you said what movie you were going to and i forgot. i hope one for the money is good. now that i've read the book i'd like to see it!

 

[Rose&Mike]

Thanks Nancy. That is exactly what I needed to hear. I'm going to put together a plan over the next day to be ready to hit the ground running Monday. I'm still going to stay a maintainer, but I am going to get my weight back at the bottom to middle of my maintain rather than the tippy top where it is now. That would be the 4-6 extra pounds I am lugging around. I keep thinking of it in terms of butter sticks and it grosses me out!

Hopefully by the end of February there won't be a roll over my jeans! Mike and I talked about it a little, and if having things at home means we need to throw out some of it in order to not have the extras in the house, then so be it. I'm not a big fan of that, but I still have so little control sometimes. And maybe I will never feel completely in control. But I am doing the best I can. And that's all we can really do, right?

 

[Rose&Mike]

2Lisas! I am enjoying the pictures! Can't wait to congratulate you tomorrow!

Lindsay--oh wow, the underwear story. Holy cow. Too funny! Funny in a slightly horrifying kind of way--in that you know she will return them. And then I think about Mike's Mom--and the thought of her borrowing my uw. Even before she got sick that would have been a pretty awful thing! I would be frustrated about the coach too. That's the kind of stuff you deal with in high school (and it's aggravating then) not elementary school! I think if there are last minute changes that you don't know about, that it really is ok to miss....But that's just my opinion. I'm sure the coach is a volunteer position, but one of the coaches biggest jobs is to communicate.

As for the homework--is it getting turned in? Tom had a big problem with that. Mike and I have talked a lot about whether we would have rather known earlier that Tom had adhd, or not. We decided it would have been ok to learn, but based on what Tom tells us about the meds and the side effects, I'm glad we avoided it until now. He has told us that he would not have wanted to take it in ele/ms/hs. Part of why I think we avoided it--we were pretty consistent (aka strict) about stuff like homework, bedtime, no soda, no video games during the week, etc. But I think that is what helped him. Hang in there. Depending on what the teacher says, maybe there is someone you could talk to over the summer about what's going on. Sometimes too, it's the teacher and their expectations. So next year could be totally different.....

Maria--Happy Birthday to Ben! I think going to a different show than the SMIL is a good idea, and I think if there are issues Dennis should deal with them. The problem is, I know Tom would want to tell me and that would stress me out even if I wasn't there. How does Ben feel about it? Does he want her there? Mike's sister had mentioned she wanted to come to Tom's graduation along with one or two of my sisters. I'm not sure if they would have come anyhow, but Tom wanted it to just be us and our neighbors. That's who he considered family. So we told everyone that. My dad ended up dying right before Tom's graduation. His HS awards ceremony was on the day of the funeral. I did not go to the funeral. I didn't want to go anyhow, but that made it much easier. Anyhow, I'm not sure that anyone would have come anyhow after that. Family is important, and Mike and I might not do a great job keeping up with extended family. But, over the years with all the crazy stuff we have to deal with, we have learned to redefine what family means. Family should not make you unhappy. They might embarrass you occasionally, but they should not make you feel bad about yourself. So if you need a break from her, then I think that is perfectly ok. Hopefully you can find a solution that you all feel good about.

As for the weight, I did not like it at all when people started looking at me at the Y or at the ballpark. Not at all. Some guy at Disney this time told me I need to smile more--I wanted to point out where Mike was and ask him if he wanted to say it again. I was having a cranky moment over food of all things at that time. Anyhow, I know part of the reason I let myself carry more weight is so that I feel ugly and fat--it makes me feel safer. I feel crappy about myself, but I feel safe. No words of wisdom. I still struggle with it a little. But you need to keep telling yourself--you are reaching your goals! You are getting where you want to be! Don't think about the end result, just think about the fact that you are getting healthier and give your brain a little bit of time to figure things out.

Kathy--how's coaching going? Woohoo on the great losses this week! Are you going to turn Poko into a runner?

Nancy--are new shoes not the bomb! I wish I could get new shoes every month! If I win the lottery I am buying new running shoes every month! I just decided that! Don't you think 15 pounds by May is totally doable? It sounds like a nice, steady, reasonable loss. I know as soon as the weather improves you will be pushing those boys all over the place!

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I wanted to throw this out there about the marathon. Just something to think about....Corinna, Jen and Tracey all stayed together for the whole thing. It was Tracey's first full and I think Corinna and Jen were doing Goofy. We could decide at some point, that we were going to try running together. Just a thought. I have absolutely no expectations other than to finish upright and smiling. I just thought I'd throw it out there. I am not going to take it personally if everyone thinks it's a really bad idea, but you all are my sister friends, and I think crossing the finish line together on my ONE and ONLY full would be fun!

I took a 3 hour nap--which I rarely do since going g-f, and I feel so much better! I still don't wanna track or deal with food, but I am going to! We ran at the Y this morning. I went 4 straight miles, which I was very happy about. My goal is to run the short runs without stopping and run/walk the long runs. It was a brutally, painful, slow 4 miles, but I did it! That makes 3 runs this week for the first time in a very long time! The foot is sore, but not bad. I am glad I gave up the 100 day challenge. I am happy with the 5 hard workouts I put in this week, and know that I really needed those rest days! So this week Sunday I ran 10, Monday I did strength, T&W I took off, Thurs I ran 3.1, Friday pool ran with weights (it was hard!!!!) for 45 min, Saturday ran 4 miles. Not too shabby!

Next weekend we are going 12 and then starting our long taper. I am praying it is warm enough to go outside!

Enjoy the rest of your Saturday!

 

[dumbo_buddy]

I wanted to throw this out there about the marathon. Just something to think about....Corinna, Jen and Tracey all stayed together for the whole thing. It was Tracey's first full and I think Corinna and Jen were doing Goofy. We could decide at some point, that we were going to try running together. Just a thought. I have absolutely no expectations other than to finish upright and smiling. I just thought I'd throw it out there. I am not going to take it personally if everyone thinks it's a really bad idea, but you all are my sister friends, and I think crossing the finish line together on my ONE and ONLY full would be fun!

first off, from what i hear it is awfully addicting to only stop at one mickey medal! so don't quite count out another one in the future.

i am in for the WDW full in '13. it will be my first marathon. it would be an honor to run with you. my only half was the princess and i did that in 2:22 which i think is fairly close to your times (if you don't mind slowing down a little). i think we could do it. though i'm fairly certain that running with a close friend, doing my first marathon, in disney world...shoo! you know i'll be crying the whole time! (where's the smilie icon for emotional basket case...maybe this one: )

ps - yeah i'm totally excited about my shoes. i have them on now walking around the house. my toe still hurts though. wah. and i think getting down to 145 by may is pretty doable since it's basically 1 lb a week. it won't be easy. but i will just tell myself that i want to look good in my disney pics!

 

[Worfiedoodles]

I actually did have some success today with my eating! I had a Kashi bar for breakfast, and tomato pasta curry from Uno Grill for lunch, and I brought blueberries (and dark chocolate raisinets) for my snack at the movies. I had soup for dinner, and now I'm going to have popcorn. For me, that's a pretty successful Saturday.

Nancy and Rose have given me a lot to think about, but I agree, I have to not do it quite so consciously all the time, instead focusing on what I'm doing, and letting some of that work get done unconsciously. I think that sounds weird, but I hope you know what I mean...

I replenished my soup supply, making sure I have plenty of the low-cal, heart healthy ones. I won't have time to run before church tomorrow, but I will run Monday morning. I'm definitely going to be doing laundry and housework tomorrow, so I will get some movement. I will also be pleasant and sing in church, I'm really hoping it isn't one continuous song...

Ok, off to read, relax and read some more of The Four Agreements books I bought. I think that will help with my "unconscious reasoning"...

Can you believe tomorrow is the Day?! I am so psyched to follow our ! I am so proud, I could burst! I know the Lisabelles feel all the excitement and support we are pouring their way!

Maria

 

[lisah0711]

Good evening Princesses and Belles!

Disboards still seem to be slow so this will be quick. Hydrating, pacing and trying to unwind and go to sleep. Still managing to keep my zen on for the most part.

Had a great time at the WISH meet. Met a lot of nice WISHers. Many are doing the Princess so Maria and Rose have something to look forward to.

Lisa I know you are going to totally rock it tomorrow! Can't wait for that big old frou frou drink in a souvenir tiki glass!

I can't say enough how much each and every one of you has helped me get to this point.

 

[mikamah]

GO LISABELLES, GO!!!!!
Have an absolutely, positively, amazing race today!! Can't wait to see the pictures of you with your tiki cups!!

Actually, this whole time change thing is too much. You won't even be starting for another hour and 45 minutes. I'm going to go crazy. Maybe you'll be posting on facebook from the bus and portapotty lines to entertain me.

Good morning!! Hmmmm, in 4 weeks Rose and Maria will probably running through the magic kingdom right now, depending on which corral you are in!! Thank goodness I'll be in the same timezone for that one.

Rose-Glad that you are feeling better and have a plan to get back on track. You are right 6 pounds is not 50, and I don't think you will ever give up this journey, but I know in the past most of us have and 6 can turn to 10 or 20, or 50, but you are not a quitter, and you are the one who got to goal, and is leading the way for the rest of us. Tracking is so helpful, and even if you don't worry about calories right away, I know for me tracking makes a big difference.
Coaching is going ok, I haven't killed the thread yet. It is quieter over there, so that makes it a little easier. I will be happy to be back with the Mickeys too, I miss seeing my old friends I don't see here.
And I'm going to try and make Poko a runner, but I think she's like us. One day she'll run just fine with me, and the next time when I start to run, she slows down and chews the leash. When I'm going to run, I try to bring treats for her.
and OMG, how did I miss that you are doing the 2013 full marathon!!!! That is awesome!! I so hope I will be there cheering you and Nancy on!!!! Looking at the Mickey medal on facebook I thought is was so much nicer than this years Donald medal, and I can totally see why someone would want to do a full. Not me, right now, but you never know when my boy is in college what could happen.

Nancy- You are doing great with the weight loss. I think a pound a week while nursing a baby is fabulous, and I bet you will get to 145 by may, that's 13 more pounds, and totally doable, especially as the weather gets better and you'll be out pushing 2 kids in the stroller.
I'm feeding Poko Blue Buffalo dog food because that is what they used at the shelter, so I figured I'd keep it the same til she adjusted and I bought the 50 pound bag with a coupon and sale, so we still have a bunch left. Funny, maybe the nurse in me, but it seems the milk bones made her too loose, so we've bought the old mother hubbard treats, and she is better. We just bought some soft biljac treats for training, and some other organic company treat. She was not the star pupil yesterday. We were doing "come" and the teacher had her on the long leash at one end of an aisle, and we were at the other end, and when we called her, she didn't want to come. The rabbit food and cages were more interesting than us. She did better the second time, but we need to do more practicing.
She already has a JW toy santa brought the holey cuz thing. That and the Kong are the only things she hasn't destroyed yet. Actually, she did destroy her first kong, but I think it lasted quite a while.
Good advice to Rose. You are going to be good with the tough love when you have 2 teenage boys.

Maria-I agree, and don't think you should go to the same show as Mil if she even comes. It's got to be hard and I hope you and Dennis can come to some agreement, and she doesn't mortify Ben if she comes.
Happy 14th to Ben too!! Wow, he's getting older. My nephew is 15 now, and really I'd say at 13-14 was when he kind of lost interest in playing with the little cousins and was more into hanging on the side walk with his buddies. Before he was awesome and would entertain the little ones for hours in the yard. He's still great with michael, but more video games and basketball than cops and robbers. The teen years are a barrel of fun, i am sure.
I sometime wonder why I haven't lost the weight and kept it off. I think is it because I don't want to be noticed by men and if I am, will I fall into a bad relationship like I have in the past. I try to reassure myself that I am a very different person than I was in my 20s, and I don't think that I would ever let someone manipulate or control me, but I think that is still a worry. I am feeling my head is in a good place right now, and I hope it will stay there. I know I could go to therapy, but honestly I don't think I'd want to delve into some things in the past. Try to take those compliments with a smile and thank you and realize your hard work is paying off, and you are a beautiful person, inside and out and deserve them.

Lindsay-Hello there!! Hope you are having a fabulous weekend!!!

Now I've finished with my replies, and there is still an hour and 13 minutes till the start of the race. And I wonder how many corrals there are, so they might not even be starting for an hour and 45 minutes. SHeesh, I'm right back where I started. Guess it's time to take Poko for her walk.

I'm on call today, and we have a graduation party for my friends son from 2-4. He graduated from Maine Maritime, and is really doing so well. I am getting filled up thinking about him. I did this when he graduated high school because he was the first baby I knew to graduate. But he's come through so much, his dad battled depression, and they divorced when Jeff was about 8, and a few years later his dad committed suicide, jeff was about 14, and really it is amazing how well he has done. I'm so proud of him, and my friend Jane. She is an awesome mom.

So that's what on the agenda. I was hoping my qotd would come to me while I posted here. I'm trying to think of something Tinkerbell related in honor of the race.

Have a wonderful sunday ladies!!

GO LISABELLES GO!!!

 

[Worfiedoodles]

Ok, I am so anxious, I looked up Lisa's kids' race results ...this is going to be fun tracking, but a little nervewracking, too. I am so glad Disney went to the bib chip, so we won't have any "foot" chip misfunctions...Lisah must have felt so bad for me when she thought I was done before 10K!

Feeling good this morning, and thanking everyone for all the great advice. It helps to know I'm not the only one who has "getting smaller" issues!

Gotta get ready for church, and make sure my 14 yr. old(!) is ready to do his reading...he's not happy to be spending his birthday this way. He had a mindmeld with HP yesterday though, so that should help.

Oh, and one more thing -- Gotta add some more for our Lisabelles! That was an extra little push to keep them going strong!

Maria

 

[dumbo_buddy]

poo!!! i didn't sign up for tracking in time! i totally forgot. can someone update on here??

gah!! i'm an idiot!

go lisas!!

 

[dumbo_buddy]

got a text from lisaH - she's on main street! woot!

 

[mikamah]

I didn't sign up for the tracking either, but their 5k times are up on the active website you can search results for the race by name or number.
http://live.xacte.com/tinkerbell/liveresults/

Go Lisas Go!!!

 

[dumbo_buddy]

got it. rose just directed me there too. thanks! this is exciting!

(by the way, isn't it AMAZING how advanced technology is? i'm sitting on my couch in the bronx and i know that lisaR just passed the 10k mark in california!)

 

[mikamah]

And Lisa just passed the 10k mark too!!

It really is so amazing to be able to watch so closely. Go Lisabelles!!!