First, thanks for letting me share. I've told you before, I have a few IRL good friends, but putting all this out there for them is tough. They know a little bit about our finances, b/c I told them why I started selling PC, and I have to tell them why I can't go to all the girls' night outs, Miche bag parties, stella and dot parties, etc. they are having. Some of them, one in particular, are struggling a bit right now, but struggling to them is kinda relative, ya' know? (Buying wal mart brand food instead of national brand or fast food so they can go to the movies or buy a 2011 car. For us, it's buying less food, always wal-mart brand, so we can pay as many bills as possible)
Anyway, a few things have being stewing in my mind, and I need to get them out.
I am seeing some huge blessings come my way, and I wanted to share them, because I know a lot of you are sending ppd my way.
My first month with PC was a huge hit, and I almost doubled what I needed for sales. I have a little money to spend on the girls' for Christmas now. I am VERY concerned, b/c I got everyone I can think of in that first month, and now I have all the months ahead to keep it going. I have 2 shows in Dec. and about 4 people that say that want to have one in Jan, but won't commit to a date. My goal is 5 a month to make what I need to get us all caught up and on the right track. So, that's a huge concern. The company is so great to reward you for a great first 30 days, that I'll get half of the kit cost back, got $200 to spend on supplies/products to show, an apron, grill pan and press, and $490 in commission!
BUT - these things seem little, but they all add up:
1 - FIL gave us venison. Sorry all you vegetarians, hope that doesn't gross you out or offend you. BUT, we have some meat in the freezer for winter.

2. FIL went fishing, gave us fish. Again, a meal we didn't have to fund.

3. AK had a great report card, got money from her grandparents, we didn't have to give her souvenir money for her trip. She's been hoarding her birthday money, we over paid, and they got some back. She came home with $25!

4. People at work have been giving me clothes. I've gotten almost a full winter wardrobe (meaning I can go about 2 weeks without wearing the same outfit

) from people that have outgrown their 6 and 8's.

5. While Ak quitting team rocked us emotionally, we are saving at least $200/mo. in gas and tuition. Not to mention the 6 weekends of 5+ hour trips for meets/hotel rooms/food/gas.

6. WHile Dh is not working at all this week, the past 3 he's gotten his overtime in, so we could buy groceries and he could help me w/gas money, and a couple of bills,and buy AK a yearbook. I know, not a necessity, but artwork she drew was chosen for the cover, and I would have hated for her not to have one.

7. Dh's work gave him a turkey, which was our responsiblity for Thanksgiving dinner.
But, here's a kicker for me. The stress of life is showing on my body. My hair looks AWFUL! Thin, straggly, a MESS! The last time I went to the hairdresser (Aug) she said it was healthy, just falling out due to weight loss. My face has gotten really thin looking, wrinkles and unfortunately some acne don't help matters. I almost, honestly, look like someone on drugs. People are commenting CONSTANTLY that I have lost too much weight. (Like at least 3 or 4 a day) Mom guessed me at 125. When I told her 150, she didn't believe me until I got on the scale to show her. A dear friend wants me to go to the dr. I told her that unless the dr. could pay my bills for me, it wouldn't help.
I want to be healthy looking, not sick looking. Any advice on how to reverse this? I don't want to gain any weight, that's for sure. I am trying to get more sleep on the weekends, to take away the dark circles and sunken eyes, I do have some face creams, etc. in the cabinet that I am trying to use to brighten that up. I drink tons of water. I do eat, this week, too much! Despite not doing formal workouts, I've been active enough that I am maintaining my muscle def. in arms and legs. Stomach will never happen.
So sorry for the book. If anyone actually read any of it -


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This all seems so PETTY after reading P's post. Sending prayers her way.
Have a great Sunday everyone! ENJOY!

You will all never know what you mean to me!
Taryn