Beth's WW Journey. (Comments Welcome)

[Amy&Dan]

Hey girl, hope everything is going well this weekend. Just thinking about you and Kate and hoping its a nice, relaxing weekend.

 

[MIdanceMom]

Hi Everyone,

Well, let's see what has happened over the last few days....

I picked out my car Friday night. I was to drop off my leased car on Saturday. I was in the shower when my Dad backed his car into mine. It will be in the shop for at least 2 weeks. This means that I miss the pull ahead program, so I am keeping my car. Oh well, I will get the car in October. It wasn't meant to be right now. My dad feels awful. Me, I am finding the humor in it. Let's face it, who else but me would that happen to? Kate and I went on a baking frenzy with Renee and Liz. Liz is a minister's wife, and the baked goods were for a bake sale. We then went out to dinner, and back to my parents. Sunday was spent relaxing with my parents. Unfortunately, I did not exercise at all. I have been slacking the last few days.

I get a taste of single motherhood this week. Jon is off to Columbus to visit Darcy. The thing that upsets me is that I need a ride to the body shop and car rental place. He told me it would wait until Friday when he comes home. Grrrrr. 5 weeks and counting.

Tonight I need to take Kate to dance. While she is in class, I will do some sprint grocery shopping. Then we will hit the mall for Easter shoes. Home for dinner and homework. I will get on the treadmill when Kate is in bed. I work full time this week.

Okay, that is all that is happening with me.

I'm off to check what is up with you all.
Beth

 

[AmyBeth68]

Oh Beth . You need more hugs!

 

[Amy&Dan]

Beth, I am so sorry about the car thing, what next? YOu have an amazing attitude, you just amaze me with your strenght of character. Just keep hanging in there, you'll get used to the single mom thing, it takes time to make this adjustment. This week sounds busy, take some time for yourself when you can (easier said than done I am sure). I hope you make it on the treadmill, if you don't, that treadmill will probably still be there for another time! You aren't slacking off with exercise, you are just dealing with a very full plate right now. Hang in there and big hug out to you Wish Sis!

 

[disney-inspired]

Beth, I have just finished reading your entire W.I.S.H journal.

WOW. I cannot believe how strong you are to STILL exercise and eat healthy with all the crap you have to deal with.

You & your daughter seriously need a WDW trip.

I started my wish journal yesterday and you are a great inspiration!

 

[toystoryduo]

More for you, Beth. I'm sorry to hear about the car. You have a great attitude about it though and it goes to show what a wonderful person you are!

Please be sure and take good care of you. Have a good week!

 

[traceycooper]

Hi Beth
sorry about the car, you have a great attitude though
Dont worry about having a weekend off from the exercise - sometimes you just need to relax & if anyone deserves some relaxation its you!!

 

[MIdanceMom]

Thanks guys,

I am not so sure about the attitude thing, but I am trying. My mantra is "I can laugh, or I can try. I choose to laugh."

Yesterday was rough. I worked then took Kate straight to dance. While she was there, I signed her up for day camp next week, and got my haircut. I usually workout during dance on Tuesday, but the daycamp thing took so long, that I got a haircut instead. I was just going to jump on the treadmill when Kate went to bed. Notice the was. Jon is off with his girlfriend this week. Katie wanted to say goodnight to daddy. When we tried to call him, the phome was off. Kate went hysterical. I think she finally realized that daddy wasn't going to be there for her whenever she wanted. She was crying for well over an hour. All I could do was rock and hold her. I kept reassuring her that I was there for her. Her response was, "Mommy you will always be there. Right now, I want my Daddy." She kept calling for Daddy. It broke my heart. She didn't fall asleep until after 1030. She is a little zombie this morning. I sent an email to Jon. His phone is still off. I am hoping he will be available tonight.



On the schedule for today. We are slow at work, but I am still stuck here. I have to leave early, so I can take kate to the orthodontist. Her retainer came out, again. Then I am going to the gym for pilates. Dinner and homework. Collapse. I really need to work on laundry. I also need to pack up my child's clothes because she goes to my parent's tomorrow after dance.


Tomorrow is insane. I work, and we are swamped. Then Kate has dance. I drop Ak****kha off at home, and grab Wendy's for Kate. We then drive to Ann Arbor to meet my parents. They are taking Kate for Friday. No school, but I work. I get to drive home, and hopefully get on the treadmill. I will probably get home about 930. I know I won't make it to journals tomorrow.

I hope everyone has a good couple of days.

Take care,
Beth

 

[postesf]

Hey Beth. Sorry things are so tough right now.

I think you do have a good attitude. The pieces will fall where the will anyway and the only thing we can control is our attitude or outlook on the matter.

I hope things are not too insane tomorrow!

Stacie

 

[Amy&Dan]

Beth, I am so sorry that Kate has had to have this major dose of reality at such a young age. It is not fair to her and it must be sheer torture for you to have to see her that upset. I really wish I lived close by, I would love to give Jon a piece of my mind, not that it would do a bit of good. I was so touched (to tears in fact) about Kate knowing that you will always be there for her. What a gift you have given her and she gave right back with that sweet and true statement. Just hang in there. I hope Jon becomes available for his daughter in the next day or so. And I hope you get some time for yourself, you are so busy! Don't stress if you don't get to walk as much as you would like. Just do what you can, when you can. You are still doing so well with food and exercise. Take care of you sweetie and know that I am always an email away and thinking about you. I have faith in you Beth, you are one strong lady!

 

[traceycooper]

Beth that is so sad that Katie is starting to realise Dad isnt always around - it must have been very tough for you too.
At least she has an amazing mom!!
Take good care of yourself & DD

 

[toystoryduo]

Oh Beth,

Sweetie, I am so sorry for what you are going through. I feel so bad for you and Kate. I know that this has been so tough on both of you. You are doing an amazing job with everything, Beth.

Please be sure and take some time for you.

 

[kimwim8]

I'm so sorry, Beth, that you have to be the one to explain Jon's shortcomings to Kate. But in the future, when Kate looks back at this time...she'll realize who was there for her and who wasn't. It's not something she'll forget. You are doing a great job with a bad situation, IMO. Hang in there, girl. We're all here for you.

 

[AmyBeth68]

Beth

I'm so sorry you had such a rough night. I'd like to say a lot of things right now but I think the mods might not be too pleased so I'll just say that you handled things the best way you could, continually amazing me. Parenting is a lifelong responsibility that Jon has conveniently forgotten . Sending some PD that your week gets better and some extra for Katie.

 

[MIdanceMom]

Okay, I am done. I can't take anymore. What exactly have I done to piss off God or karma, or fate, or whatever? I got in a car accident on my way home from dropping Kate off. I am fine, no one was injured. A jerk pulled into my lane and crunched my passenger door and headlight. then I get home and Jon is there. He feels bad that he let Katie down. They were in a cabin with no landline and no cell service. That is supposed to be enough. He is also upset because he doesn't think that things will work with Darcy. Uh, do you really expect sympathy from me? Is everything ok now that you said you are sorry? I don't think so. Ugh, I am spoiling for a major fight, but I just don't have the energy. I just want to cry. How am I supposed to handle all of this, and my daughter, and my job, and the house, and keep my sanity? When is this going to end, and I get to report good news?

Beth

 

[larry's girl]

Beth - I know I haven't been around much lately because of stuff going on in my life right now, and I am so sorry for going MIA, but I feel the pain in your last post and I am near tears here. So I have a couple of things to say:

First, take a deep breath. Take another one. One more. Okay, now - don't try to handle everything at once. It is so overwhelming you will be tempted to just give up and stop trying. You know that can't happen, nor will it - you are too strong to let it. Still, it's hard to stay strong when you feel like the world around you is falling down and all the work and worry is on your shoulders. So take it one day at a time - or even one hour at a time if that's what it takes. Don't stress or get anxious about what will happen tomorrow or next week or next month - easier said than done, I know, but it's important to try to focus on RIGHT NOW. Just handle what is going on right now - this minute. If Kate is having a difficult night, then she is what you focus on (like you did earlier this week - and how fortunate she is to have you as her rock). If the car issues are what is most important at a particular point in time, that is what you focus on (so glad no one was hurt, but very sorry you are having to deal with this extra stress, especially after the earlier fender bender your Dad caused). If the house or your job requires extra attention on a particular day, that is what you focus on. If Jon is being a donkey's butt and you have no choice, then deal with him. If you feel like you're losing it, then it's time to focus on you in whatever way you find most comforting - a cup of hot tea, a glass of wine, a good book, a favorite movie, a long nap, whatever you find relaxing - until you gather your strength and can once again face a new day. And crying is not always a bad thing. Sometimes the tears just need to come - so let them come. But don't feel that you have to deal with everything all at once all the time - you don't. One thing at a time. If it seems that several problems are all clamoring for your attention at once, then prioritize. What's the most urgent issue right now? That's what you deal with - and leave the rest alone for right then.

I wish I had more to offer, but that's my take on how to deal when you feel like life is slapping you around. Big hugs, my friend - - you WILL get through this!

Susan

 

[traceycooper]

and more Beth
OK Beth i wish i could come over & down a bottle of wine with you!
But as i cant i will try to hilight some positives for - as i told Amy i'm a big believer in positive thinking & i know its really hard for you right now

good news -
you were not injured in the car accident - it could have been so much worse AND Kate wasnt in the car with you.
Ex hubby is starting to have his doubts about the other woman - what comes around eh!! I can gaurantee he will want you back if it doesnt work out & i hope you have the strength to tell him where to go - payback
You have a beautiful health DD
good family & friends

Count your blessings Beth & hang in there
sending lots of good vibes your way

 

[kimwim8]

Oh Beth. Big big hugs to you. I sincerely wish I could do more for you and Kate.

Susan and Tracey's posts say it all. Definitely tackle one thing at a time, and don't forget the positives in your life.

I'm sending you a PM.

 

[Blueeyes101817]

o beth, im so sorry!
Im sorry i cannot do more to help--hang in there, vent here whenever you can!

 

[toystoryduo]

Oh Beth,

Sweetie, I am so sorry. I wish I could do more to help you as well. I agree with what Susan and Tracey have said. Try and take each day or each minute as it comes and try and focus on the positives. I know it's hard, but you are an amazing woman, Beth. You CAN do this!

Please, please, please be sure and take some time for you this weekend if you can. If you need anything at all, please let us know. We are here for you, Beth.