I'm having a really hard time with this at the minute.
I've been twice before, both times with my mum. So she's been before, but the first time she was in the process off divorcing my dad, and the second the hotel was awful, so can understand why she didn't have the best time.
I've not been abroad since 2002, and not been to Florida since 2000. I don't get to do yearly holidays, or even one every 8 years! lol. So this trip means a lot to me. Not only are we going to the best place in the world, but it's the first holiday I've been on where I've been the grown up not the child/teenager, my childrens first holiday, and the first time staying onsite.
I don't have much money but I know what I can afford. I've made up a plan of how much needs saving and I'm sticking to it.
Every time I bring it up or mention it to my family, I get rolled eyes, looks between each other, change of subject or a straight forward 'you'll never do it'. They're starting to ruin the holiday for me already, as I can't show them how excited I am, or show them pictures of where we're going, basically, I can't do what they do when they go on holiday.
They've been to Africa in March, Athens in April, Spain next month, and Africa again in October! And that's just the places they have to get a plane to. I have to sit, bored, listening to their plans, and looking at the brochures, when I'm not the least bit interested (well, maybe the safari, but I get to do that in Florida!) but I don't say a word because it's what they want to do.
It's really bringing us all down now and not sure how to tell them nicely to shut up! lol. My mum has been before so I can't even say 'if you've not been, you don'y know'. It might be she had a bad experience before, or it just might not be her thing. Fair enough. But it is mine, and I want to talk to them about all the things we're going to do, like most people do when they go on holida.
I've not even told her I've booked, and probably won't until late next year because I know I'd get a lecture or she'd ruin the excitement. I feel bad that I'm going and it's daft!
I get the 'how can you afford it' too. Look at her listof holidays this year! lol I priced up a holiday to spain and it cost more!!!!! A holiday to Florida doesn't have to be expensive.
It's a shame, because she's a star in every other aspect of my life. I just wish she'd be excited for me.
Sorry for the rant, but this is really getting to me.
