Totally relate. We had our spring vacation canceled. At that time we still had another
Disney Cruise booked for next spring, and I felt confident that we would be able to go, but...I recently deleted the Disney Cruise app from my phone. I just don't see that happening for us for awhile. 2 months ago, I tentatively booked February vacation in FL, but Tuesday my husband and I agreed that we should plan on February vacation happening here in New England. And realistically, even that isn't totally a given. The uncertainty is a killer, and I can't get into trying to plan for any of these possibilities, because they're just too uncertain. And...they're not really what I want. They're placeholders.
I'm also someone who needs something to look forward to, so all of this uncertainty is definitely challenging. As an added bonus, I'm a school speech pathologist, waiting for another few weeks to find out what the school year will tentatively look like. No matter what it looks like, I think it will be a very difficult year, so not having something that I can count on to look forward to isn't really how I would like to be starting it.
I want to believe this will be behind us soon, but the more that comes out about the virus and potential future vaccines, the more I start to question that. At some point we are all going to just have to find a way forward, but the unknown is how long until we acknowledge that, and what that will look like. In the meantime, the uncertainty is taking a toll. It's definitely the uncertainty for me that is taking the fun out of things.