Any other DISers trying to concieve? Reread OP for the QOTD!

[helenabear]

Awww Michelle I was thinking of you when I woke up this morning wondering if you had a BFP or AF yet. I am so sorry that this one was a bust as well I'll keep my fingers crossed for you with talking to your grandpa. It's so sad to me to hear that becoming a parent can be so costly for some. It really gets heartbreaking when I think about what people like you go through.

Oh and no, don't think I am *that* strong. I didn't make it through church this morning w/o leaving to cry. The priest was talking about lost loved ones. They usually do that this time of year (due to All Saint's & Soul's day being this month,t hey talk about the loved ones lost often before the Christmas season starts)... anyway, usually that tears me up thinking of my mom, but of course it hit me harder today. During communion the song we wer singing got to me and I left. We do two services in one day so I will see how I do tonight... we'll see I guess.

Doing laundry for our trip tomorrow. Luis is going to tell his mom what happened and tell her to shut her mouth, but to get the guys to not ask a thing about us getting pregnant. His brother has zero tact and I do not want to deal with it. I definitely do NOT want to talk about it with them and especially his brother. So hopefully we'll have a peaceful Thanksgiving there.

 

[skuttle]

Oh Michelle, I'm so sorry. I can't even imagine. I hope your grandpa is feeling generous. I can't imagine how hard it must be to get BFN's on top of having to pay for fertility treatments. That's one thing I don't think I'd do. Since we are lucky to have DS already, if we can't get pregnant for some reason, I don't think I'd take the next step with treatment. to you. It must be so hard.

Elaine, I hope you are able to enjoy your trip. Hopefully they can have at least a little tact this time.

I'm not sure if I'll see my cousins for Christmas, so I think I may be done until after the babies are born (Both due in January, the twins may come earlier, in late December). Normally, my mom's side of the family spends Christmas with the inlaws, so I normally don't see them. My grandma used to have a big party for everyone, but my grandparents are getting older and it's just too hard to find a day for everyone to get together now that we grandchildren are all married and have families of our own. For Thanksgiving day it'll be with my inlaws. My SIL may mention it, but that doesn't bother me too much. I think I'll be fine once the babies in the family are born...I think pregnant women upset me more than seeing babies. Not sure why, but that's how it goes with me.

Getting ready for Christmas and the trip will help me this month. I've also been temping, so at least I feel like I'm doing something. Plus, now, if I get pregnant I'll have all my appt's and delivery in the same calendar year. I have a high-deductible insurance plan, so that'll help.

 

[ashjohnson80]

Well back to CD1 for me. AF showed up this morning.

Michelle, I'm so sorry, I was really hoping she wouldn't show this month and you would get a BFP.

 

[helenabear]

Ash, I am so sorry that the old hag showed up! I hope you all can have a great TG all the same. My fingers are crossed for better luck next time.

Skuttle, I think I am with you on seeing pregnant ladies. I have one friend who is due in Jan and I might have to see her for a party (if she does it this year) though I might bow out. Of course this is the same one who just blurted it out and asked if I could watch her baby for a month since I would have nothing to do (she knows we had been trying). She also called her baby a parasite *sigh* But, seeing a pregnant woman bugs me a little... seeing a baby never really did. Though believe it or not, after the scares I have had, my anger about it all has vanished. I'm just sad now it didn't work out this time. We have a "book of the dead" at church where we put names in of lost loved ones to be remembered... Sunday we put a few family members in and the baby too.
I do hope that you can get pregnant shortly, if anything, for that that insurance break you'll get. I do hope it happens for you soon.

How are the new moms to be? I hope everyone is doing well!

We do leave today for the in-laws, so I will be able to check in just a little now and then while gone! I hope everyone has a wonderful Thanksgiving

 

[kellyf2626]

Ash...sorry to hear AF showed up.

Elaine...hope you have a good trip.

Well, I am sitting home sick today from work. I have had a bad intestinal bug for the last 24 hours. I haven't been able to move very far from the bathroom! I am starting to feel a bit better, but haven't eaten anything - that is the real test!! Hopefully we will be able to bd tonight - I know I am due to O any day now!!

 

[exwdwcm]

hey ladies- thanks for all the thoughts. it is hard dishing out all this money and not getting results. the money is the least of it though, just not having success after so long and all the drugs, it just kills me!

but on to the next month. called the doc, he is on vacation, go figure! lol---probably on my dime! anyways- the nurse called back, one that i played soccer with who is super nice. we are going to try another month of the follistim shots with another IUI. this will be my fourth IUI!

the bad news:: Dh is out of town on my CD13 and CD14.

the good news:: the nurse had ANOTHER free cartridge of shots (worth at least $500) that i can have for this cycle.

so even if timing is off, i won't be out the $500 for the shots. I did have the IUI on CD12 last month. the shots make your O early. so we are hoping that is the case this month too, so I can get DH's sperm sample to take in before he leaves town. so here is hoping my follies mature in time to do the IUI on or before CD12.

Today is officially CD3. i go in for the first sono of this cycle tomorrow. probably starts the shots on CD4 or 5. i am so blessed to get the shots for free, this is my second month getting a free sample. this can usually cost $500-$1000 per month for these shots! my ins covers the IUI, bloodwork and sonos. i just have to pay the $65 for the trigger shot! i am so lucky in that regard (until dec 31st when my ins changes! ). now if i can just get lucky with a BFP one day.

it seems this weekend there was an abundance of babies everywhere i went. i couldn't help staring and wishing. i think DH caught me looking! lol

so bad news is AF is here, but good news is that it is time to just move on and try and be positive about this next cycle. i am going to inquire about IVF costs so we can start saving. the doc will only let me do one more shot cycle before sending me to IVF anyways.

 

[DisneyGirl4188]

Michelle, that's great that you get another round of shots for free. Tons of that this time does the trick.


This weekend DH and I went to visit friends. They just had a baby (he was a surprise; they weren't planning on ever having kids) a few months ago, so I got to see him. We did tell them that we are trying. They are the only ones IRL that know. It felt nice to actually tell someone our plans. Now, I just have to get a BFP so I can tell everyone.

 

[fanofdisney]

Hi everyone- I haven't posted in over 20 pages! I just can't read them all, I read the last 2.

Michelle- keep trying. It may happen when you least expect it. I've heard of people that quit trying, and bam it happens. So TRY (I know it's rough) to relax, it may have something to do with it. I hope it happens soon.

Any bfp news over the last few weeks I may have missed?

I've been picking up alot of hours at work the last few weeks to help out with our computer transition. I'm exhausted! I work M, Tu, W, this week, then off for 4 nights! We leave for WDW on Dec. 1!!! So sometime I need time to shop for our trip. I hope I have some luck finding capris and jackets this time of year.

I think my O date was the 15th this month. We bd on the 12th and the 15th, no thanks to my work schedule. I'm hoping I hit it on the right day. I think it's just a matter of getting in that right time, which is not easy! My bbs are sore, but they get that way right before aunt flo, too. I'm due the 28th, so it may be a tad early. I'm hoping it's due to bfp! I should know right before we leave. I've also had some cramping on and off the last week.

Here's to trying and all those miserable tww!

 

[kellyf2626]

I'm hoping I hit it on the right day. I think it's just a matter of getting in that right time, which is not easy!

Kelly - I totally agree!! DH and I were talking last night, and I swear the reason why I am not pg is that we have never bd'd on the actual day I have O'd. We always miss it by a day or so. I know that you should be ok if you bd the day before - but I really think that I need to actually hit it exactly for me to get pg!! My temps have been all over the place this month (no thanks to me taking them a different times on the weekend!!)....so it has been hard to track. I know that I usually O around the 18th....so I guess we will just keep our fingers crossed this month that we can hit it on the right day!!

 

[DisneyGirl4188]

I decided to go ahead and test this morning and nothing. The stupid test didn't work. DH told me not to get the equate brand, but get a name brand, maybe I should have listened. I may try again tomorrow. I really didn't want to see a BFN, but not seeing anything isn't very good either.

 

[Jen_in_NH]

Kelly - I totally agree!! DH and I were talking last night, and I swear the reason why I am not pg is that we have never bd'd on the actual day I have O'd. We always miss it by a day or so. I know that you should be ok if you bd the day before - but I really think that I need to actually hit it exactly for me to get pg!! My temps have been all over the place this month (no thanks to me taking them a different times on the weekend!!)....so it has been hard to track. I know that I usually O around the 18th....so I guess we will just keep our fingers crossed this month that we can hit it on the right day!!

I don't think we ever got it exactly on the day. The month I got pregnant, we bd'ed 2 days before, and the day after.

Don't you wish there was a magical formula - you bd on these days = you are pregnant. Could have saved me quite a few dr's appointments.

Jen

 

[exwdwcm]

just when i thought i caught a break with free shots........i have to sit this cycle out. i had a good cry already. it sucks cuz my ins covers my IUIs til 12/31, so sitting this month out means we lose a free IUI and also just sets me back and i am impatient and not getting any younger.

i have one cyst on the left and either 2 cysts or fastly growing follies early. either case, we have to sit it out. if they are follies growing early, the lining won't be thick enough for implantation, so either way, even cysts or not, no good. i hate this. i am at the end of my rope. 2 years trying, 7 months with drugs, IUIs and treatment.

i did get IVF costs today- about $10-$12K per cycle. i just don't know what to do- i might have to start looking at adoption costs. at least that is guaranteed for my money and IVF isn't. i so want a child of my own. why is it so hard? what did i do wrong? i'm a good person and would make a great mother. it is just so unfair!

 

[DisneyGirl4188]

Michelle, I am so sorry. You WILL be a great mom! Your child will be very loved and know that he/she was wanted very badly. It is unfair and you did nothing wrong; don't beat yourself up. If you decide to go the adoption route, it will still be your child (although I know what you mean).

 

[Minnesota!]

Elaine - I am very happy to hear that things went as well as possible and that you were well taken care of. ((((hugs))) as I am sure you are still very emotional. Enjoy your thanksgiving with the IL's - hope they are nice to you

Michelle - can you look into one of those IVF places that cuts you back a good portion of your money if you don't get pregnant after a certain amount of tries? I think they are called Shared Risk. Something to look into. I am sorry you have to sit this cycle out, too. What a bummer!!! Here's to a sweet 2007!!!

No Carla still, huh? I just hope all is ok with her and her sweet bean. She's been offline for almost a month now

As far as getting pg on O day - I know it's not golden for all, but I am pretty sure each time I got pg with these keeper babes, I bd on O day. I know 100000% for this pg it was on O day - probably during the O hour, LOL. Only time I let DH near me that month And with DS - well, we weren't keeping track, but I know when we bd and it would have lined up with my probable O day. I think my "environment" is hostile to anything longer term. A quick one when the eggie is there is best, for me.
Can you believe it's Thanksgiving already??? Where has 2006 gone?

Ash and Skuttle - I am so sorry that AF showed! The wiz-natch!

I need to go back and read more. Loosing my train of thought!

Also = best of luck tomorrow, Allison, on your u/s! Hope your little one is cooperative!

 

[skuttle]

Oh Michelle, I'm so sorry. You WILL be a great mom one day. You WILL have a beautiful baby one day. Please don't beat yourself up. You haven't done anything wrong and you're obviously doing everything you can. That's all you can do.

 

[scarlett873]

i did get IVF costs today- about $10-$12K per cycle. i just don't know what to do- i might have to start looking at adoption costs. at least that is guaranteed for my money and IVF isn't. i so want a child of my own. why is it so hard? what did i do wrong? i'm a good person and would make a great mother. it is just so unfair!

Pardon my posting here...I'm not sure if I've even posted here honestly...lol...but I saw this comment and had to share.

DH and I tried several cycles of clomid to get pregnant but for some reason or another, it didn't happen. I sounded exactly like you! Blamed myself, etc. My doctor told me that our next step would be invasive treatments and eventually, probably, IVF. I researched the costs for IVF and did a lot of soul searching with DH. We both want children badly...but we wanted the "guarantee" of a baby if we were going to fork over $10k, possibly more. I couldn't do it...We don't have that kind of money just laying around so it would be a one shot kind of thing for us and if it didn't work...well...I didn't want to face that. My jealousy of pregnant women and new mommies was insane.

That's when adoption entered our lives...

We did some research and realized that our daughter was waiting for us in China. We don't know who she is or where she is (in China) or when she'll be born, but we know that she'll be in China. Once I came to the realization of this, this heavy weight was lifted from my shoulders! I still have jealousy pangs every now and then, but it's mostly because I just want my daughter to come home...We have officially begun the adoption process and are knee-deep on what is affectionately known as "the paperchase". It's a long process with a potentially long wait for our referral, but we're thrilled and we can't wait to hold our Dorissa in our arms!

Please don't blame yourself!! I've come to realize that in the end, it doesn't matter where the baby comes from or whether I've carried and delivered the baby from my body, the only thing that matters is the fact that I will be a mommy! Our daughter, Dorissa, will be "my own"...heaven knows I will have experienced the loooooooooongest pregnancy ever by the time we bring her home!

Sorry for the interruption ladies!! I do read your stories as I have the opportunity to! You all have my sincerest best wishes!!

 

[FlyingBelle]

Correct me if I'm wrong... but I'm guessing most of us have had the same thoughts as you Michelle. It's SO HARD! Everytime I hear of these "kids" who get pregnant it makes me soooo sad.

I'm 7 dpo - I go in next Tues for the pregnancy test. I feel exactly like I did when I got pregnant last time... but as I've said before, a bfp won't make me too excited - at least not until I see that heartbeat! If it's a bfn this month - I guess we go again next month!

 

[mickeyboat]

Pardon my posting here...I'm not sure if I've even posted here honestly...lol...but I saw this comment and had to share.

DH and I tried several cycles of clomid to get pregnant but for some reason or another, it didn't happen. I sounded exactly like you! Blamed myself, etc. My doctor told me that our next step would be invasive treatments and eventually, probably, IVF. I researched the costs for IVF and did a lot of soul searching with DH. We both want children badly...but we wanted the "guarantee" of a baby if we were going to fork over $10k, possibly more. I couldn't do it...We don't have that kind of money just laying around so it would be a one shot kind of thing for us and if it didn't work...well...I didn't want to face that. My jealousy of pregnant women and new mommies was insane.

That's when adoption entered our lives...

We did some research and realized that our daughter was waiting for us in China. We don't know who she is or where she is (in China) or when she'll be born, but we know that she'll be in China. Once I came to the realization of this, this heavy weight was lifted from my shoulders! I still have jealousy pangs every now and then, but it's mostly because I just want my daughter to come home...We have officially begun the adoption process and are knee-deep on what is affectionately known as "the paperchase". It's a long process with a potentially long wait for our referral, but we're thrilled and we can't wait to hold our Dorissa in our arms!

Please don't blame yourself!! I've come to realize that in the end, it doesn't matter where the baby comes from or whether I've carried and delivered the baby from my body, the only thing that matters is the fact that I will be a mommy! Our daughter, Dorissa, will be "my own"...heaven knows I will have experienced the loooooooooongest pregnancy ever by the time we bring her home!

Sorry for the interruption ladies!! I do read your stories as I have the opportunity to! You all have my sincerest best wishes!!

Brandie - thank you so much for sharing that with us. I loved the part when you said you have "experienced the longest pregnancy ever."

Denae

 

[ImarriedGrumpy]

Well, I'm on CD18, and have started using OPK's this month (cheap ones from BabyHopes.com - anything more is not in the budget yet). So far the OPK's are still negative, but yesterday and today my temps have been higher. CF is always all over the place for me, so I haven't yet found a pattern in that (although I keep charting it anyway). I always seem to O between days 21 and 28, so the temp spike in the last couple days is odd. I'm hoping it's just a blip on the screen, because we BD on CD13 & 14 (just for fun ) but not since then, so if I did O on CD16 by some strange twist of a cycle out to mess with me, our odds of getting a BFP are not so good.

AUGH! I wish this were straightforward and not so subject to all kinds of little details. I wish I were like my friend who a) always O's on the same day of her cycle every month and b) is one of those people who can actually feel herself O and which side. Every day I scrutinize my chart and every little symptom, and then I try to figure out how to time the BD and hope that DH's meds aren't messing with him this month and making that a problem.

I just want a baby. MY baby. DH's baby. I know we haven't been trying for very long, but I've been wanting this for years. I'm getting tired of waiting!

 

[kellyf2626]

I have a question for all you OPK users....

I am on CD 17 - and I usually O on CD 18. I have been using OPK's for the past 3 days, and I can barely see the second line. I mean....it is soooo faint. What is up with that? Now, another detail that is also confusing is that I have had a temp spike yesterday and today. Did I already O?? Does that second line get lighter and lighter after you O? I guess I am just really confused. I am trying not to stress out about it...but I really want to hit it on the right day!!!

Have a great Thanksgiving everyone!!!!