Any other DISers trying to concieve? Reread OP for the QOTD!

[AllyandJack]

Lisa, the SHG is sort of like an HSG but it gives a better view of the uterus to see if there is anything funny in there preventing implantation. Whatever it is must be small since it hasn't shown up on anything, but I hear even small things can cause problems. My RE doesn't expect to find anything and I think she's doing it to appease me since I demanded every test in the book and she (and everyone else) is telling me I'd be wasting my time and money since my insurance won't pay for the tests because I'm not presenting with anything indicating I need them and W&I won't even authorize my RE to do the testing since they don't think I need it. Have you ever met Dr. Plosker? We spoke to him yesterday - I guess so HE could tell me to stop thinking I'm broken and looking for things to test.

Wait until work finds out I'm taking another 2 weeks off in August. You may see me on the unemployment line.

ETA: Lisa, I'm not sure about Gonal-F, but Follistim cartridges are overloaded, so if you have more than you think you should, don't panic. I thought my cartridge should be empty and went to take it out and there was still 100iu in there. I thought I wasn't getting it all in, but then Freedom Drug told me they overfill them and not to worry. Whew.

 

[LisaB]

I have never met Dr Polsker just my doctor Dr Jurema. When can you start the ivf again

 

[AllyandJack]

I started the birth control pills last night. I go in for my cleaning out/observation/whatever the heck they're calling it tomorrow. SHG Thursday. Lupron most likely on the 18th. Suppression check and Follistim on the 28th. Retrieval and transfer the week of 8/6 - still too late for the insurance, but I told my RE and my DH I wouldn't think about it, so I'm not. But, if someone messes this up either nobody is getting paid or my DH will have to get another job because my driveway is costing as much as an IVF cycle and I can't pay for both at the same time.

How can other people be so calm? Is it all men that have this "it'll be OK" attitude or just my DH??

 

[LisaB]

No my husband has the same problem If this doesn't work out I want to try a cycle of ivf but everyone is against me trying to have one at my age

 

[AllyandJack]

Ah, to heck with everyone. You're an adult and you don't need permission. My mother is dead set against me doing IVF, which is why I didn't tell her about #3 and don't plan to tell her about #4. Don't tell anyone. When you're 12 weeks along, say, "Oh, by the way, I'm pregnant."

 

[LisaB]

It is like they just don't understand.

 

[AllyandJack]

Nobody does. Even DHs, I think. If I hear, "It's OK...." one more time I'm going to scream. It's NOT OK. I don't believe God has a plan. If he had a plan, I'm pretty positive it wouldn't involve letting babies be born to people to kill them - did you hear all of the stories recently? Arm found at Deer Island. Baby in the toilet at the high school. Woman leaving her 8 month old alone to buy beer. Someone else hiding her drugs in the baby's pack 'n play. So, the God's Plan thing does nothing for me. I think it did a few months ago, but now....I'm so over that. There's no plan. It just is what it is.

I haven't seen my parents in over 2 months and I went for about 4 weeks without even talking to them. Sometimes you have to take a break from those people and do what you have to do.

 

[LisaB]

It is really tough with my Mom being gone most of the things I would tell her I tell my Aunt and she isn't crazy about out decision but she said he will support me either way she will just not babysit. Her daughter had a child in Nov and lives in Plymouth. My aunt lives in RI Smithfield and doesn't want to get roped into babysitting so many days per week

 

[LisaB]

Hey where is everyone??

 

[AllyandJack]

Probably out BBQing.

I'm at work for another 2.5 hours. After 2 weeks off and 2 weeks averaging 10 hours, I figured I should make an appearance. A whole 20 hours this week.

 

[connorsmom911]

Ok, I can't keep up with all of you...I'm off for 4 days at a time and don't usually have time to DIS until I'm back at work. I had to go back 10 pages to figure out where I left off and now I don't remember all the people I wanted to mention when I did reply, but here goes.

Beck...I second (or third?) the morning sickness thing. You asked for it!! But it is supposed to be a sign of good things so Keep smiling! (It's easier to keep the chunks in that way too!!!

Carla, Lisa B...all I can say is . I feel so much for you guys!!!

See, that's all I can remember, so now I have to go back and reread again. I used to be able to blame this memory loss on "pregnant-brain" but not for 3 years now!!!

I'm just waiting for AF to subside and see if I O this month. Wouldn't that be awesome!!! I'm so used to not even having a period when I stop BCP but I'm on a different brand this time, supposedly really great chances of Oing as soon as you stop them. My doctor said to wait 3 months to get back to normal, but I'm not going to do anything drastic not to get preggers at this point. Odds aren't great anyway, so why not!

Anyways, just wanted to pop in and say hi! I'll try harder to keep up this week!

 

[2bemarried]

My RE draws the blood and does the u/s. It's just her. I just have bad veins. Plus, they're a bit worn out from everything I've been through over the last year. One year ago today, I started my first round of Clomid. I was so excited.

Kristy, DH didn't pass out when you injected? Hey, at least yours went through his own ordeal with the surgery. Mine thinks he has it rough because he has to GIVE me the injections.

Nope he didn't pass out. Needles don't bother him. I've been quite amazed at myself. This morning's shot went in like butter again. I'm just hoping the rest of them are this way. I'm waiting for AF to show up now so that I can call the triage nurse and find out when to start the Follistim. I know it'll be either Wednesday or Thursday..something to do with their office schedule and not having too many patients doing retrieval/transfer in the same week.

Carla I really am praying for you and for your sake I hope that the SHG will show them what is wrong and it can then be fixed. I had the same no plan God thoughts in January. I think we each have to go through a testing period. For now I'm trusting that he has a plan...we'll see where my thoughts are in a month from now.

Lisa...sweetie..do what you feel is right. Screw the rest of them

Andrea my fingers and toes are && for you!!!

Connor'smom..don't feel bad..just pop in and hello when you can and give us updates

DH and I have been cleaning the house today: okay I've been doing inside work like laundry and vacuuming, he's been outside cutting the grass and powerwashing the siding. One of the biggest downfalls of having a white house..it gets flithy when the pollen starts to fly around.

Off to watch the Daytona race in a little bit I'll check in again tomorrow.

Oh yah.....I do have to do a YAY ME!! Since last weekend I've lost ~10 pounds. Told ya I'm going to be the model patient..anything to get pregnant

 

[FlyingBelle]

Oh yah.....I do have to do a YAY ME!! Since last weekend I've lost ~10 pounds. Told ya I'm going to be the model patient..anything to get pregnant

Great job!! Congrats and keep it up!

 

[LisaB]

Good morning all Kristy how did you do it??? Congrats. Second day of glonal F. We went to visit friends in NH Nashua so i brought it along. We are leaving at 9:30 and the husband Mike goes did you take your medicine oh s*it I forgot. I pricked my finger and couldn't get the first dose in so I had to do it again. Yuk

 

[AllyandJack]

Hi. Like my new blinkie in my signature? I thought it was fitting.

Things went well today. We had three - yes, THREE - other doctors in there with me and my RE. They were all nice. I told them not to be fooled by my perserverence. I'm really only coming back for the cool hospital outfit and the anesthesia. I'm in that "feeling great" stage - still have some anesthesia left and got some codeine, too. I'm sure by tonight I'll be miserable. They didn't find much....not enough tissue to test.

Lisa, it's amazing how you can FORGET to give yourself a needle. You'd think it would be something you'd remember to do. There are many nights DH and I are hanging out like we're normal people and I'll pop up and yell that I forgot my needles. At least the pen travels well.

Kristy, congrats on the weight loss!

Connor'smom, keep popping in and letting us know how things are going.

 

[LisaB]

I know I can't beleive I would forget and then to pinch myself with the used needle. I love your ttc a 200? baby where did you get it

 

[AllyandJack]

I got it from someone on Fertility Friend. I guess it's easier than changing the blinkie every year. I have one that says, "Nobody told me getting pregnant would involve needles". But, the size restriction prevents me from using it.

I wonder if a finger-tip stick is a sub-q shot.... I hear some people do it in the thighs. I don't care how bruised my stomach gets, there is no way I'll ever stick it in my thighs. The very thought of it makes me want to pass out.

 

[Jen_in_NH]

Happy 4th of July Weekend to you all! I'm here at work for the next 72 hours of my life (which is pretty counter-productive for TTC since I'm cd11 now...... ) And I wonder why I'm not pregnant.....

Lisa - Whether you want to try IVF is no ones business but you and your DH. I'd love to know why people feel the need to offer advice on the subject of infertility when they've never dealt with it. If I hear one more "it will happen when you stop trying so hard" I may slap someone. I don't tell people what they should do about other health issues, why do they feel the need to comment on this one?

Carla - I hope they find something out with all of this testing. Good luck

Kristy - Congratulations on the weight loss! I need to, but with my jobs and hours right now, exercise is what I do running from place to place, nothing more.

Jen

 

[AllyandJack]

I often wonder if these same people would go up to a paralyzed person and tell them if they just relaxed, they'd be able to walk. I know not being able to have children isn't life threatening, but neither is being unable to walk. Many people live happy, full lives in wheelchairs. Yet, nobody tells them to "just relax" and "stop trying so hard to walk" and "I guess God just didn't want you to walk."

Jen, you're having the IUI this week, right? When is your first appointment?

My RE just called me to see how I'm doing. I told her I'm laying in bed, watching a Twilight Zone Marathon, and playing online. She said she'll call me tomorrow....and asked if I needed any more medication. Man, she loves to dole out the narcotics! I knew I liked her for a reason.

 

[connorsmom911]

OMG Carla!!!

I loved the comments about you and the narcotics!!! I was busting a gut laughing so hard...wish they would have offered that for some of my tests!! I remember the one (I always mix up HSG and SHG) where they insert the thing and shoot contrast dye through the fallopian tubes and watch it on the U/S to see if they are open (I did momentarily think it was cute...it looked like pixie dust on the screen) but they had to shoot so much dye in before they finally got the one fall. tube to open that it threw my system all off and shortly after I stood up I passed out, then of course when I came too I puked. No drugs offered to me...I had to suffer with only Tylenol and Advil!! Then for my other test where they look at the endometrium lining, well she didn't really warn me that she was grabbing the piece and then she tugged and tugged!!! I remember screaming at that one and bursting into tears. Ok, I know I have zero pain tolerance but that HURT!!! And I was totally in bed for a few days after that. I think I probably could have braced myself a little better had she warned me at least!!!

And I feel for you guys with the needles...my veins suck, so the blood drawing made me look like a total drug addict for months, and then when we were lucky enough to get preggers they determined that my prog levels were too low, suffered with suppositories for a while and then shots up to week 12 in the butt/hip. At first the nurse was like, "You'll have to have your husband come in so he can learn how to give these to you". I said NO WAY IS MY HUSBAND COMING ANYWHERE NEAR ME WITH A NEEDLE!! Luckily my sister is a nurse and could do it for me (except for the week I went on holidays to the US with my mom...what a fiasco that was going to the urgent care clinic and having to explain to a new person everyday what/why/where, plus paying $15 each time!!! At $1.50 exchange rate no less!! I don't know how you guys in the US do it without universal health care, my sympathies!!)

So, I already made the decision that we are not going through any of that again. We were able to luck out once, we'll just cross our fingers again. At least that's my feeling now...ask me in a year when we haven't gotten pregnant and I may be feeling different. But at least we're not ruling out adopting either. Just wish that wasn't so frickin' expensive!!! I would love to adopt from another country, like Haiti or China. Dh isn't crazy about the idea, but at least it's on the table.

Anyways, all around!! Just cause I felt in a huggy mood...you know, coming off the bcp and all, my moods are all over the place!!