Angelrose's Journey

[reelmom]

I haven't checked on you in a few weeks but wanted to let you know that I think of you often. I hope you are having a great day.

 

[Angelrose]

I had a great time last night. I went over to the kid's house around 4:15 and Chuck wasn't home yet. So I just sat on the porch for a few minutes to relax. Chuck pulled in and Jesse was waving to me and laughing. He got out of the van so excited to see me. They went to the mailbox to get the mail and Jesse kept looking back and saying grandmom. We went inside and he gave me a big hug and was showing me his basketball. We talked for a while and I played with Jesse. Karen came home and we all talked for a while and Karen told me this story about Jesse. He was in his car seat and looked over to where I usually sit and said Grandmom chair. Karen said yes that's Grandmom's chair. He lifted up his hands and said Grandmom? As if to say well, there's her chair, where's Grandmom? Isn't that cute? He's putting lots of words together. Chuck distracted Jesse and Karen and I left to pick up her cousin, aunt and grandmom. We went to this really tiny Italian restaurant. But the food was fabulous! We all devoured our dinner. Karen and I were the only ones to get dessert. I got a conolli and she got the chocolate, hazelnut cake. Both were so good. We sat around and talked for a while. Our waiter was great. Very funny and he put up with us. I don't think we will be allowed in there again. LOL We left and went to Grandmoms house and talked for another hour. We left and I stopped in to say goodnight to Chuck and Karen and drove home. I didn't get home until 10:15. I was really tired but for some reason I couldn't get to sleep last night.

This morning I went to the dentist and everything is fine for now, but sooner, rather than later I will need to get caps on my two front teeth. Oh Goody. Maybe next year. I stopped at my dr's office to show him my new insurance card and they are out of network. That means I will have to pay something more than the copay. I will try it and see how much more I will have to pay. I would really hate to leave him since I've been with him forever. I got the last flu shot they had. Someone had cancelled and I got it. My arm aches a bit, but not too bad. Chuck called when I got home and said he would be right over. He bought me two new florescent bulbs, but I need a whole new fixture. So we talked for a while and he gave me a couple of pictures of Jesse. I will try and post them in the couple of days. After he left I was going to take a walk. But I was feeling a little light headed. Maybe from the shot? So I decided to lay down for a few minutes. The next thing I know the phone is ringing and it's some $%@*& politician wanting me to vote for him. I looked at the clock and I had been asleep for over two hours! I felt better when I got up.

So I had a really good day yesterday and today.

Thank you reelmom. It's good to know so many people are thinking good thoughts for me.

 

[lovingthemouse]

Angelrose - so good to see that it is getting a little easier. Two weeks ago, was the first anniversary of my DH's death. My daughters, grandson and I got through the week with some difficulty, but we did it!!! I feel his presence always within me, and that is most comforting.
My hope for you is continued calm and warmth within!!! Caroline

 

[minnie56]

Hi Angelrose

Just wanted to stop by and I see that amongst the not so good days there are some that are not so bad Hoping that soon, they will be more often than the heavy-heart ones. Gosh, we all have them and it's part of the journey isn't it. Sets us back when they happen upon us though.

I am just back from Disney and have been feeling kind of poorly since my return. Guess that's the trade off for some fun in the sun? I am off to Quebec City this Sunday so hoping I feel ALL better before then!!

Keep doing what you are doing, you are amazing you know.
Thinking of you...always

 

[sunnyday123]

Angelrose, sounds like you had a fabulous time out! And good for you for getting the flu shot, that's one less think you'll have to worry about!

 

[chell]

Sorry you had soem rough times over these past few days. But I'm glad to hear you had some good times too. Glad the gyno visit is over and it went well. Have you scheduled the mamo yet?

Y'all were so bad at dinner they won't let you back?

 

[Angelrose]

chell, about that dinner. I refuse to answer on the grounds that we are all very guilty of being very silly.

minnie56, I hope you had a great time at Disney! But hope you are feeling better soon. Only 68 more days until I go!

Today was a pretty good day. I went to the Octoberfest at Smithville today. It's a big craft fair. I love to go and look at all the things people make. But lately it seems like it's the same stuff year after year. There is one lady that I have been buying her soft sculptures for years. I have 16 of her witches, bunnies, angels and fairies. They are really beautiful. I had to tell her about Ron today. She was so shocked. I knew she was going to ask where he was, so I had to tell her. But I managed to keep it together pretty much. I didn't want to spoil her day by breaking down. I walked around for about an hour and the only thing I bought was a loaf of cherry/pineapple bread. OMG I could have eaten the whole loaf at once. Not going to buy any more of that!

I thought you would like to see some pictures of Jesse.

Big cheesy smile

He woke up like this one morning

Official picture taken at the mall in his Halloween costume

he hated wearing any costume. So for Halloween he's wearing a t shirt that says I'm afraid of my costume so I'm wearing this t shirt. LOL


Here's one that Chuck took at home where he is in a better mood

 

[minnie56]

Awww...he's so cute!! He looks mischievous
Is he?

Thanks Angelrose...today it seems to be turning to a cold after pretty much running the gamut! This too shall pass right?

Wish I was going back to WDW..that's the bad thing about going there..you miss it all over again when you come home!

I am off and away for a couple of days...hope you all have a great Sunday and Monday to follow..

 

[Angelrose]

oh yes, he is a typical boy! His mom will tell him not to do something and he will look at her and do it anyway! Then he wonders why he gets a time out! LOL But all in all he is a good boy.

 

[chell]

He is completely adorable!!! Makes me want to hug him too! I would ask how they wake up like that but I've woken up with my nightgown on weird. At least you know he is sleeping good.

We have our almost 7 year old nephew tonight. His birthday is this Thursday. Earlier he told us when he turns 7 he is going to start inventing things. The first thing he is going to work on is a flying boat. In the car on the way home he said "Mommy will let me build it in the garage as long as there are no explosions." Out of the mouths of babes.

Yesterday I got my biopsy results back. Everything was clear and there were no signs of cancer. There was some irritation, but thankfully no cancer. I have to go see her on the 22nd to figure out where we go next. Now we know the pain and nausea isn't from ulcers or cancer. Thank you all for your support.

Octoberfest craft fairs are fun. Ours is next weekend. I'm hoping that we have a good turn out this year. Some big event in Charlotte that a friend of mine went to a few weeks ago didn't have a good turn out from the vendors and she was disappointed. There was a vendor she wanted to buy something from who wasn't there. We figured they weren't there because of the economy; they probably couldn't afford to go. I hope we don't see that at Octoberfest.

Anyway, I'm glad you went today. I'm sorry you are running into so many people right now that you have to tell about Ron. It does say a lot about you and Ron for all of these people to notice he isn't with you and to ask about him. It says how much people think of both of you and how wonderful you both are; how much they care for you both.

Do you have any special plans this week?

 

[chell]

Minnie56 sorry you are feeling bad. Do you always get sick when you go? I saw a thread earlier today where someone was saying they do. I didn't read it though. Every time I fly I get bronchitis. Now I just ask my doctor for some antibiotics to start a few days before a trip. It worked last time.

Hope you get plenty of rest and start feeling great soon!!!

 

[minnie56]

My Mum would say he is 'spirited' Angelrose..lol

SO GLAD to hear that your biopsy results were all good Chell!! What are they thinking of doing next to see what's up? I imagine they have looked at Gallbladder and all the obvious?

I have had tummy woes for the past year on and off....me who used to be able to wolf down anything and everything. No more..

 

[minnie56]

No Chell..not usually
This trip tho about 5 days in my tummy was so upset..and then when I came home it morphed to Laryngitis and now, a cold and still no voice..or very little. My hubby is delighted!

I am so weary..I really want to do nothing and I am up at 5 and off yet again..but only until Monday nite. I could happily do with just staying home!!!

 

[Angelrose]

oh chell, I'm so glad and relieved that there is no cancer!

Yes it is hard to tell everyone about Ron. Earlier at the fest one of the shop owners at Smithville wanted to know where Ron was too. She was so shocked too. She gave me a big hug and gave me her condolences. It seems everyone would see us walking together there every day. Now it will be just me. I was talking to another woman who works for my friends at the beanie store. She lost her husband 9 years ago and still starts to talk to him. She says the hurt never goes away. I knew that from other friends. She said IT STINKS. And that just about sums it up. IT STINKS. You just have to survive one day at a time.

This week, I'm hoping to hear from the hospital about volunteering. Nothing major planned. Just housecleaning and taking walks.

 

[minniecarousel]

ugh - I think this "first year" must be the roughest, ya think? I remember the year after my Dad passed away, every holiday seemed tough. But we all stuck together and Mom got through it. I'm so glad you're going to Disney with your family. It'll be bittersweet, no doubt.

Jesse is such a cutie. I can't wait to have "grands"!

 

[Angelrose]

Oh I like that minnie56. He's spirited! The way he is putting together words is amazing, too. He is way ahead of the rest of the babies his age. (Proud Grandmom speaking here) I'm not in the least prejudiced either.

 

[Angelrose]

minniecarousel, it's only been three months since Ron passed. It seems like forever. I try not to think about being alone for the rest of my life. It still doesn't seem real to me. He should be here. I know I say that all the time. He loved our Halloween decorations. Maybe he is still seeing them. But his favorite time was Christmas. We had so many lights on the tree and all over the house. It is going to be very difficult. Our DW trip will be difficult too. I'm dreading telling all the CM we know about it. Seeing everything without him will be so hard. But I have the kids and Jesse to lift my spirits. I just have to dwell on that.

 

[chell]

Hopefully you will hear from them very soon. I can't wait to hear about your experiences as a cuddler. You are going to love being with those babies.

Minnie56 I had my gallbladder out 4 years ago so that isn't the problem. The only time it isn't bothering me is when I've had an injection of Phenergan for my migraines and when I had the medicine for the Endo that was for nausea. Both of those kept me from being nauseated for about 4 -5 days. This last time I had missed my Allegra. Since my throat was hurting from the biopsy in it I couldn't take that large of a pill for a few days. My stomach wasn't hurting so I thought maybe it was something in this "batch" of Allegra. But when the nausea and pain started back up I started the Allegra again. It is frustrating. My family doctor says they want to rule out a few things before they move towards a diagnosis of Irritable Bowel Syndrome. I have Fibromyalgia and IBS is fairly common in Fibro patients. So I won't be shocked if that is the case. But I would rather they be thorough, especially since I also have an auto-immune disease. Yeah, I'm a mess over here. You Ladies didn't know what you were getting into when you let me in the door.

Sorry to go on so long about myself here. Thank you all for your concern and support though.

Minnie I wonder if you picked up a bug. At least you didn't get hit with that nasty flu. Do you drink hot tea? It always helps my throat the best. Like I said earlier I get bronchitis and with it always come laryngitis. Hot tea feels so good and really does soothe the throat. Also drink extra water to help flush out the bad stuff. Those are your orders from Dr. Chell. I only play one to friends & family, not on tv.

 

[chell]

minniecarousel, it's only been three months since Ron passed. It seems like forever. I try not to think about being alone for the rest of my life. It still doesn't seem real to me. He should be here. I know I say that all the time. He loved our Halloween decorations. Maybe he is still seeing them. But his favorite time was Christmas. We had so many lights on the tree and all over the house. It is going to be very difficult. Our DW trip will be difficult too. I'm dreading telling all the CM we know about it. Seeing everything without him will be so hard. But I have the kids and Jesse to lift my spirits. I just have to dwell on that.

He is seeing them. The trip will be difficult but you know he wants you to go and have a good time. He is always with you, looking over you. You are always in my thoughts and prayers. When you go to Disney I'll say some extra prayers for you so that you can get through it without much difficulty and so that you can make some great new memories and so that you can have some good times and have a good time recalling the good memories you and Ron made there.

I don't think I ever asked you this before. What was your favorite park to visit as a couple? Favorite restaurant? Favorite ride? I really do love to hear you talk about your experiences. If you don't mind. If you don't feel like it now save it until you do. But I really do love to hear about you two.

 

[Minnie&Nana]

Oh, Angelrose, Jesse is sooo cute!!! Oh, I too want to hug him! What a great idea to take a formal picture each yr of him in his Halloween costume. I'm going to mention this to Mia (DD).

When I was little I did not like Halloween costumes either...my mother always dressed me as a Gypsy, but I hated it! Would not let her touch me with any make-up at all. My dad was in the Navy, they were young and no doubt money was very tight - so a Gypsy was an easy costume for my mother to put together.

I just LOVE feisty munchkins...my little 13 mo old grand daughter is definitely feisty...it was funny because I guess right after Sophia was born the midwife told my DD, "You've got a feisty one!"

Glad you were able to got to the Crafts Fair - ours are the same now too - same old stuff, not much new. Still fun to go though.

chell, wonderful news!! Hope they find what is going on soon.

I really need to find a doctor -do not have one and no insurance. Several months ago began bleeding again - 5 yrs after menopause....it has gotten worse...every day a little bit...have slight cramps and a little nausea off and on all day. We've lived here 3 yrs, but I lost my job over a yr ago, so no insurance... have only gone to Urgent Care when sick...no major medical center closer than an hour, but it's not like Boston where anyone can make an appointment and get excellent care. Please say a prayer for me, that something comes together or this passes and I feel better. Am tired all the time...but do not feel sick per se. Thank you! Sorry to go on about me...

Minnie56, aw, so sorry you are not feeling well. The same thing has been going around our house too. I've had it all week, as did Sophia - well, she had a little cough - yesterday they took her to the pediatrician and he gave her a prescription for a cough syrup, which has definitely helped. DD and SIL came down with it today.

My goodness, I have been babbling tonight! Rest well, my friends!

ETA:

chell wrote: What was your favorite park to visit as a couple? Favorite restaurant? Favorite ride? I really do love to hear you talk about your experiences. If you don't mind. If you don't feel like it now save it until you do. But I really do love to hear about you two.

Angelrose, I would love to hear about these things too. I also so enjoy hearing stories about you and Ron....If you are up to it.