Angelrose's Journey

[wickey's friend]

My thoughts and prayers continue to be with you.

 

[4nana]

Angelrose, I thought about you a lot this week-end. My heart and continued prayers go out to you and your family sweetie. May God grant you strength and courage as you face your new life one breath and one step at a time. May Ron's loving spirit and warm memories tucked safely in your heart help carry you during this difficult time. You're forunate to be blessed with such a loving family, your sweet little DGS, and good friends. Please take care of yourself and know your Dis friends keep you in their prayers.

 

[CookieGVB]

So sorry to hear about this. Ron sounds like he was a very special man, but it also sounds like he was very lucky to have you and your family in his life. Take each day as it comes, accept offers of comfort and assistance with whatever you need to do in the coming days. Remember the happiness and love you shared, and laugh when you are able - without guilt.

 

[ChrizJen]

Angelrose, I just read his obituary and saw his picture. What an extremely handsome man! Thank you for sharing that with us, and for telling us all the wonderful stories of your love and life with your DH. It's truly an inspiration.
Keep all of these things you've typed, and every time you have another memory about your dear husband, write it down! Maybe someday you can make a collection of all of these stories and have a book to pass down to your grandchildren. It would be another wonderful way for his memory to live on.
For now, though, just take it all one day at a time and remember to take care of yourself. And know that our prayers are still with you.

 

[Piglets Mommy]

Angelrose,
I have no words, just
I have been thinking about and praying for you. I'm glad you have Chuck and Karen there to help you through this.

 

[Lovely2CU]

Thank you for the updates, Angelrose. You are in my thoughts.

 

[Big V]

This whole thread is such a loving tribute from a wife to her husband. Ron must have been a great husband to you Angelrose. I only hope that I am at least half as good as he was to my wife. Thank you for sharing Ron with us and I'm sure he is looking down from heaven and will take care of you.
Scott

 

[Tigger2252]

I'm so terribly sorry for your loss.

 

[sunnyday123]

I am so sorry to hear of your loss

 

[veraletta]

Your in my prayers.

 

[reelmom]

Prayers for you this morning. I'm sure today will be a hard day but the Lord is with you. Lean on Him for peace, strength and understanding. And please know that we are always here for you.

 

[Kitty 34]

I'm so sorry.

 

[Angelrose]

Today was Ron's 74th birthday. To say I miss him seems so inadequate. Right now I have things to keep me busy during the day. But what happens when all that stuff is done? How do I go on every day without him? I know I have my son and daughter in law and my little angel Jesse, but they have their own lives to lead too. I guess it will be better in the fall when I can get out and take my walks. But then we used to take those walks together. It's going to be hard to walk without my sweetheart by my side.

I keep hoping to have a dream about him so that I know he is alright. But there are still no dreams. I found some things that he wrote for me. He did love me so much.

On Saturday Chuck will bring over the page Ron wrote that Karen read at the viewing. I will post that.

This thread is my lifeline right now. I can post things that I can't talk about to Chuck or my family. I don't want to make them feel any worse. I know Chuck gets upset when I cry and Karen will start to cry too. I can't have that anymore. They have been through enough and are doing everything else for me. I hate to be so useless. But Ron used to take care of all those things for me. He even had a notebook listing all the things I have to do. But I can't do them. If I start to call about something I start to cry and can't get through it. Then I shake for a half an hour.

Thank you all for being here for me.

 

[mickeyboat]

I know that I don't have the right words to heal your pain, but know that I am here and I am listening.

 

[pixie dust 112]

Oh AngelRose Thanks for checking in with us. I know that I for one think about you an awful lot. This is going to take time, probably alot of time, but it will get easier and you will learn how to cope and go on. I am an estate attorney and I know that this is so common, when a client is dealing with the loss of a loved one and especially when that loved one was the survivor's "soulmate" , for want of a better term. Believe me I have a huge supply of tissues in my office! The pain may never go away completely (after all sounds like Ron was 1 in a million!) but it will ease with time. My advise is that you take a few weeks or a month to yourself, of you need to, but then try to get out and socialize with friends. It will help so much to keep busy!

 

[ReneeA]

I am so sorry for your loss.

 

[AnnaS]

Angelrose,

We are all here for you. We are listening and so is Ron. Right now you probably feel like a robot going through the motions - one day at a time, slowly.

Please smile for Ron once in a while.

 

[wdwiala]

Thank you for letting us be here for you. I will pray for some sign for you, something that will help bring some closure. A friend of mine passed away and her daughter told me that she dreamed of music for 30 days until the last dream where her mother told her that she was whole and fine now. I hope for something like that for you.

When my grandparents passed last year, I had just read 90 minutes in heaven. The first few chapters detail the author's 90 minutes where he died (car accident) and what happened before they brought him back to life. The vision that the book paints of heaven and its wonder really helped me.

It was very hard for my grandmother when my grandfather passed. What do you do after 60 years with a person? She began to start seeing her friends more and attending church events for seniors. I think that it helped. Perhaps there is a way that you can volunteer somewhere. A group that you can join. Maybe there is a small project that you could do that would be a sort of tribute to your husband.

It's early. He hasn't been gone that long. Allow yourself to grieve. You have that right.

I will be thinking of you.

 

[PrincessSuzanne]

Today was Ron's 74th birthday. To say I miss him seems so inadequate. Right now I have things to keep me busy during the day. But what happens when all that stuff is done? How do I go on every day without him? I know I have my son and daughter in law and my little angel Jesse, but they have their own lives to lead too. I guess it will be better in the fall when I can get out and take my walks. But then we used to take those walks together. It's going to be hard to walk without my sweetheart by my side.

I keep hoping to have a dream about him so that I know he is alright. But there are still no dreams. I found some things that he wrote for me. He did love me so much.

On Saturday Chuck will bring over the page Ron wrote that Karen read at the viewing. I will post that.

This thread is my lifeline right now. I can post things that I can't talk about to Chuck or my family. I don't want to make them feel any worse. I know Chuck gets upset when I cry and Karen will start to cry too. I can't have that anymore. They have been through enough and are doing everything else for me. I hate to be so useless. But Ron used to take care of all those things for me. He even had a notebook listing all the things I have to do. But I can't do them. If I start to call about something I start to cry and can't get through it. Then I shake for a half an hour.

Thank you all for being here for me.

All that will help is to do whatever you feel you need to do. I lost my mom in Aug 2008 and I felt exactly how you poseted thta you feel. It has taken a long time to get past it and I still have really bad days. Cry if you need to, laugh, don't hold any emotions back, that certainly won't help.

Some people didn't understand how close my mom and I were and didn't understnad why it has taken so long, but we were much closer than most mothers and daughters were, she was my best friend and we spent most of our waking hours together, except when I was at work. Now that she is gone, DH understands why she went everywhere with us and we did everything together, even living in the same house.

It will get easier, but not for a long time. Give yourself ample time to grieve. I am still waiting for my mom to come to me in a dream and I feel that it won't happen, but I do know that she saved me from a horrible car crash in February. I didn't see her, but I am 100% sure she and God, of course stopped me that day.

Don't rush this process, that won't help anybody, especially you.

I have a dear friend that gave me some very helpful booklets about grieving, I think I still have them, if you would like, I would love to pass them on to you, they were very reassuring. Just PM me and let me know.

Suzanne

 

[kacaju]

((HUGS)) This year of firsts is going to be the hardest!! I am so sorry you are going through this.
Please come here any time you need to talk. We will all be here for you.