Yesterday was a total free-for-all since I knew I'd be back on BFL starting today...  I'm not even going to write all the junk I ate.  
  Today I have not strayed once (so far) and I will definitely be using the Mind-Mouth-Muscle journals from the BFLW book to stay on track.  As long as I am in shape and healthy, I am happy.  On the cruise, there were women who were much thinner than me, but there were also some that were much heavier.  That will always be the case and I am OK with that.  So I will do my best, follow the healthy BFL way of eating, continue working out and see what happens!  I'll start journalling my food again starting tomorrow (so I can have all of today's totals).  I also need to put together some kind of trip report.  I'll have all kinds of time on Wednesday before surgery.  I have to fast after midnight on Tuesday and my surgery is not until 1:30pm on Wednesday.  What kind of sick joke is that?!?!?  I'm gonna be STARVING!!!!!!!  I can't even have water...
				
			
  Today I have not strayed once (so far) and I will definitely be using the Mind-Mouth-Muscle journals from the BFLW book to stay on track.  As long as I am in shape and healthy, I am happy.  On the cruise, there were women who were much thinner than me, but there were also some that were much heavier.  That will always be the case and I am OK with that.  So I will do my best, follow the healthy BFL way of eating, continue working out and see what happens!  I'll start journalling my food again starting tomorrow (so I can have all of today's totals).  I also need to put together some kind of trip report.  I'll have all kinds of time on Wednesday before surgery.  I have to fast after midnight on Tuesday and my surgery is not until 1:30pm on Wednesday.  What kind of sick joke is that?!?!?  I'm gonna be STARVING!!!!!!!  I can't even have water...
 
 
 Oh well, there are 16 more games I should be able to attend...
 
 ).  Today's official Wednesday weigh-in was 139.  I was hoping I'd be less, but oh well, it will come off when I get back to working out.  I leave in 15 minutes for my surgery,  I am STARVING!  Even worse, I am SO thirsty.  It's torture!  But I guess it's better than throwing up from the anesthesia...  I drank 80oz of water, 2 cups green tea, 10oz iced tea and a DC:
  
  
  Now you can start recuperating.  There's nothing like doing without water for a whole day to really appreciate it.  Going from 80oz  to 0 must've been tough!
 ).  I'm not going to worry about it too much.  Today is much better, instead of feeling like I got stabbed in my stomach, I just feel like I got punched by Mike Tyson in the stomach...  I drank 100oz of water; 8oz FF Chai; 10oz iced green tea:
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  What the heck is going on?  
  Part of me wants to just eat everything in sight since my weight keeps increasing, but thankfully I still have some common sense and keep telling myself that I need to eat normally and not make it worse.  If it is all water retention and swelling it will go away on its own.  I didn't even weigh myself this morning - I don't want to know!  
 Thanks for all of your well wishes. 
 I might even go to the new gym today and get signed up for my free 5-day trial so I am all set to start working out on Monday.  We'll see, there is tons we plan to do around the house today...  Yesterday I drank 80oz of water; 12oz iced tea; 16oz FF Chai; a DC:
 