Amy's Journal: Comments Welcome!

[Amy&Dan]

Thank you Amy, I hope your trip to the UK goes quickly and that you don't have anything else for awhile. Except for WDW of course!
Alyss, thank you for stopping by my journal and welcome to WISH!

I am so glad last week is over. It was not a good one! Coming home from vacation, all of us being sick, my mom's complete downturn and then I found out a dear friend of the family I have known since age 7 who had very serious cancer awhile back is not doing well. I am not sure what her prognosis is. If you could please pray for my mom Tricia and our friend "G", I would really appreciate it. I talked with G last night and just hung up and burst into tears. It was just the last thing from a very stressful week. She has been so much a source of comfort and info (she is a nurse) during this illness with my mom and was calling not for herself but because she is so worried about my mom. It just really touched me and of course the worry for her made me go a bit weepy. Also, ds got a horrible weekly report at school. When I saw the teacher I just wanted to hide because I knew she had bad news and I wasn't up for it. I told him to get his act together, I don't need that stress. I got a bit hateful and had him near tears which really only made me feel worse! Dd ended the day yesterday when I tucked her in saying "grammy's dying isn't she?". Had no idea what to say so I just said lets pray she gets better. But today has been better, I think the first decent night's sleep I have had all week helped.

Food yesterday: great
Food today: awful.

I am hopeful to have a better week and get my work outs in. Oh, and I went to Curves today only to find out they now close at 10:30 not 11:00 on Saturday's. I was miffed, their already short hours don't need to be shortened anymore imho. So I grocery shopped instead since I got there at 10:20, plenty of time to do my workout for an 11:00 closing but not enough at all for a 10:30 one. Major bummer. I just need to get off my duff and get this going again. Life is apparently not going to calm down, my mother quite frankly will never get "better" and I need to stop whining I guess and just do what I know I need to do. I did step on the scale today and another pound is gone. However, today I have eaten everything that is not nailed down so that probably didn't help matters much.

I am worried about surviving the holidays emotionally with my mom, financially (dh tells me he probably won't get the bonus I really thought we would get) and not putting a boatload on cc's. It will all work out. I am amazed at how much better I feel today. Last night, I really felt like I was coming apart at the seams. I made a plan to go from two days to four of going over to my mom's. They need the help, end of story.

So after a week from He**, I am feeling better. I think I will go to WW on either Tuesday or Wednesday this week. Speech meets at school are over after this week and I am glad that will be done. Its been fun but with what's going on with my parent's time is getting short during my days.

Time to catch up with all of you, hope everyone is having a nice weekend!

 

[toystoryduo]

Amy,

I'm so sorry that your week has been so rough. I'm sending lots of prayers and for a great week ahead!

Take good care of you and have a great Sunday.

 

[traceycooper]

Hi Amy
sorry you have had such a tough week!
It proberbly did you good to have that cry after speaking to your friend, gets it all out of your system!
Sending lots of prayers for 'G' & your mom & lots of too!
You have so much to cope with on top off normal 'family' stuff, feel free to 'whine' away, you have to get things out, bottling up is the worst thing you can do

I NEED to try Turtle Crawls & Lapu Lapu's!!! they sound delish!! can you get them anywhere in WDW??

Hope you have a much better week

 

[postesf]

Hi Amy! Sorry to hear how stressful things have been!!! Having a relative or friend that is seriously ill and can really add stress to the everyday life stresses! Hope you find a way to work through it! I know it can be tough, but you can do it!

Sending sunshine and happy vibes!

Stacie

 

[AlyssinWonderland]

I agree the cry probably helped alot more than it hurt! I'm glad you are feeling a bit better after it! I hope all goes well for you tonight!

 

[toystoryduo]

Amy.....How's your week going? Hope it's been going well for you!

 

[MIdanceMom]

AMy,

I am sorry. You have had so much to deal with in the recent past. You have handled it with so much grace and poise. You have been so unselfish. (Stop shaking your head no. That is an order.) Emotionally, you provide support to so many people, and yet take so little. It is no wonder that things got to you the other night. Honestly, I am amazed you have been so on track for so long.

You are one of my inspirations, woman. I am sending you a PM.

Take care,
Beth

 

[Amy&Dan]

Thank you so much everyone. My kids finally went back to school today. They were really sick, finally got put on antibiotics as did dh (first time in the sixteen years I have known him he's been on antibiotics or any other prescription). We all had the flu and we are all just wiped out. Now the kids have a ton of make up homework to do but the teachers are being great about letting them do it slowly. I finally got the house caught up today and actually feel almost back to normal.

My mom is no better. I refuse to give up yet. I pleaded with stepdad today when I took them dinner to make an appointment with the Gerintologist but he is worried that will just set her off. I give up. I guess if this is the way she wants it who am I to argue. In some ways I don't really blame her. She did eat the dinner I took so at least she got something in her stomach.

I haven't exerised all week. I just haven't had the strength and of course the kids were home sick. But tomorrow I intend to go to Curves. Food has not been very good either. I don't even want to venture on the scale. I am feeling strangely more optimistic about my weight, why I have no idea since I haven't exercised and my food intake is lousy. But I am feeling like I at least want to try again, which is something right?

I am really thinking that I will try the Core Plan on WW beginning next week or the week after. I like the idea of a high protein, low carb plan and doing something new and differnet may be a good thing.

My goal is to be at 215 pounds by the time I leave for Disneyland in two months. I cannot believe that is my goal, that should be my worst nightmare! Just writing that number makes me feel more ill than the flu made me! I need to catch up with all of you, thanks for visiting my journal.

I forgot to add, could you please remember my sister Lisa in your prayers. She was laid off this week (lovely timeing right here at the holidays). She is single and also has MS so its vital she find a new job with good benefits. I sometimes get a bit aggravated with her, but she is my sister and I love her dearly. I really want her to find something she enjoys that pays well. And maybe a man that isn't a total scumbag would be nice too! Thanks so much.

 

[toystoryduo]

Amy,

Oh sweetie....You have been through so much the past couple of weeks. I hope and pray that everyone gets healthy and that things get back into routine soon.

I'm so sorry to hear about your mom. That must be so hard for you. I will be praying for her and your stepdad and your sister as well.

Keep on keeping on WISH sis. If you need anything, please let me know.

 

[MIdanceMom]

Sent you a pm.

Beth

 

[Caitsmama]

Amy, i will keep your family in my prayers.. I can't imagine all you are going thru.. Remember, we are all here for you..

 

[postesf]

So sorry to hear you guys have been sick! yuk!!! Glad you are feeling better though!

I know things are tough, but they will get better! We're here for you!!!

Stacie

 

[traceycooper]

Hi Amy
Glad everyone is finally getting better.
Sending some for your sister Lisa
i'm impressed that your setting a goal weight & planning the new WW Core plan amongst all the stress you have at the moment! Way to go, you know we'll all be here with you to help you along
Thnaks for sticking with me during my 'move'

 

[postesf]

HI Amy. Just checking in to see how you were doing...

Stacie

 

[toystoryduo]

Hey WISH sis,

How ya doing today? I hope everyone is feeling 100% better. Post when you can.... We miss you!

 

[MIdanceMom]

Amy,

I'm just checking on you. Hope all is well.

Take care,
Beth

 

[Amy&Dan]

Thank you so much everyone. I am sorry I haven't been around lately. My mom is about the same, she has had some better moments and then slipped back again. Just keeping my fingers crossed for the holidays. I feel totally overwhelmed. I decided this is not the time to start back up with WW. Maybe in the New Year but for now, its just setting myself up for failure and more stress and guilt when I don't succeed. I am overwhelmed to say the least and doing the best I can which isn't saying much! I did Curves today and did well with food. First day in I don't know how long I can say that. I have a ton of stuff to do for Thanksgiving, and I am going to bake cookies tomorrow for dd's church bakesale. Hoping I can stay out of them. I baked stepdad a big carrot cake for his 83rd birthday yesterday, had a tiny piece and sent the rest home. And when I was over there today, I ignored it and didn't have any. So I have had some victories amongst the challenges.

Thank you all for your contineued support and prayers, you are all the best.

 

[traceycooper]

HI Amy
I think its a good idea to wait till the new year for WW, i think a lot of us are struggling this time of year, i plan to get back into things in the new year too
Well done for resisting the carrot cake remember - small steps, celebrate the victories, dont let the negatives get you down
sending lots of for your mum over thanksgiving
oh and belated to your stepdad for yesterday

 

[toystoryduo]

Amy,

I'm riding the wave until the New Year...Want to join me? With Disney and then the holidays coming up, I decided that losing weight probably wasn't going to happen so I will make my plans for the New Year and start fresh on January 1st.

I am so proud of you for seeing your victories among the challenges. Keep doing the best that you can do and remember that a victory is a victory, no matter how large or how small.

Sending our love and prayers....Take good care of you!

 

[lovinaz]

I think you might be on to something with the WW Core Plan, even if you do wait until the beginning of the year. Maybe you've gotten way too comfortable with the other plan and this will spice it up. Who knows, maybe it will be even easier to follow and you'll have better success!

I'm glad everyone is feeling better, hopefully your mom will snap out of it. It's got to be hard dealing with that all the time, but it's one of those "don't have a choice" things and you just have to do the best you can.

Way to go resisting the carrot cake, that is my FAVORITE!!! Good luck with the cookies. I'd tell you to make some that you don't like but who am I kidding?? Is there such a thing as a bad cookie??

Have a great Thanksgiving!!!