Thank you so much Tracey, Tracy, Jennifer and Jamie.
I did make weigh in on Wednesday, I was down 1.8 so all but .2 of my 2 pound gain is gone. I have done really well until yesterday. Total diet disaster. I had Burger King for lunch then we had friends over for a bbq and I ended up having way too many cocktails, a bunch of chips and salsa and peanuts. I ate very little dinner, a few bites of steak, a few roasted potatoes and some salad because by then I was so full of salt and rum and diet cokes I had no room left. Woke up this morning and the scale is saying I am up four pounds. I have so far drunk a bunch of water and did have two small brownies (leftover from last night) which I have now thrown out along with all the leftover chips and peanuts.
These weekends just kill me. I do very well all week and then blow it on the weekend. I know I used up all my flex points plus more (alot more probably) so that means no loss very likely this week. And I have not exercised but once. Just totally mad at myself. I have three days counting today to get back on track before weigh in. I just don't know how I can do so well so often then totally lose it other times. I resisted pizza this week and all kinds of other things but yesterday just had no willpower whatsoever. I have to do better with surviving these weekends.
We are planning on taking a hike up in the foothills today so that will be good. I just really wanted to be at 45 total (12 pounds to go) by June 16 and see no way that can happen now. I cannot live through another six month long plateau like I started last summer. I basically lost six months to that which really deflates me now even though I got off of it, lost the 8 pounds I gained back etc. Just can't let that happen again.
I think one of the things that is really wreaking havoc is my perimenopausal state. Which I think may now be all out menopause. I am only 42 but have been doing this for 9 years now, and this is by far the worse I have felt. Its getting better, I am taking some different vitamins but dr. won't put me on hormone therapy due to the breast cancer thing in my family. But some days I want to scream, pig out and bust dh's chops to the point I hate myself. Dr. said rub this progesterone cream on thighs which did nothing at all. So I am giving this a few more months and then I will be going back in to say I need something done. The last week has been better on that front, so hopefully things are settling down a bit. OMG if its not one female problem making me crazy, its another!
Thanks for reading my longwinded rant.
