Amy's Journal: Comments Welcome!

[Amy&Dan]

I have no idea why that post would not go through, luckily I copied into my word processer since it was obvious something was up!

Last night went okay food wise. I did eat some chips and garlic bread and I did have one small piece of dh's bday cake. I stuck with the chicken and shrimp for the fondue which was good. And I had only one small taset of the chocolate fondue. I had two rum and diet cokes and then stuck with water. I just felt so fat and bloated all night. Really uncomfortable. This TOM has been the worse for that. I hope I can shed some of this water over the weekend. So far I just keeping pushing the water and it keeps not coming off! When it finally does, I may just need to hang out in the potty all day! Today has been so so. I had a small piece of dh's cake for breakfast. I told everyone what is still here this afternoon goes in the trash. So far other than my small taste this morning I haven't been tempted. And I did toss the leftover bread and chips before I went to bed which was a good thing. I enjoyed last night but again, was so overwhelmed with how much I hated the way I felt it just sort of soured things for me. I am so sick of feeling this way and yet not doing what I need to do to get it off or doing what I need to do with little or no results! Also, my jeans were so tight I finally put some knit yoga pants on later. Thats what is good about having really good friends over, nobody cares when you make a mid night wardrobe adjustment! I am hoping for a really good week this week and a loss on Wednesday providing I can shed some of this water. I can't even get my wedding ring on this morning so something needs to get going with that or I'll be up 5 pounds instead of down.

 

[lovinaz]

Sounds like the party was a success! You had a plan and you stuck to it. I can totally relate to how you are feeling right now, some months I am so bloated I feel like I will pop. Clothes don't fit, rings cut off circulation, etc. Just try to get through it though, you know it is temporary and it will go away soon! Don't make the mistake I always do and give upon your eating healthy because you feel so big. It's hard to not eat whatever you want since you are so bloated already, but believe me, you will regret it later!

Spring will be here before you know it, hang in there!

 

[goldcupmom]

I missed WI due to my DS, too, Amy! It was a bummer, but life goes on. WI next week will hopefully be good for both of us.

Sounds like the party went well. You did GREAT with your eating!

Hope you're having an AWESOME weekend!

 

[toystoryduo]

A gentle for you WISH sis... It sounds like TOM is really doing a number on you this month.... Please be extra good to yourself this week. Do something just for you!

Happy Birthday to your DH! It sounds like the party went quite well!

I hear you about the weather! It is freezing here too! As a matter of fact, at 6:00 p.m. there were 245 school districts closed in our area due to the frigid temps. I really hope the groundhog is right for his sake!

Amy, keep on keeping on.... I know the last few days have been tough, but I bet once TOM leaves, you'll be feeling much better!

Take good care of you!

 

[Amy&Dan]

Don't make the mistake I always do and give upon your eating healthy because you feel so big. It's hard to not eat whatever you want since you are so bloated already, but believe me, you will regret it later!

Spring will be here before you know it, hang in there!

Too late, I already made that mistake! I just continue to feel like the girl in Willie Wonka who blows up into a blueberry ball. My hairstylist cut my hair too short (partly because I took the scissors to some of it myself in a pms fit of hair trauma), my clothes are tight and I have a big zit in the middle of my face that looks like a tumor. Also, I have had fondue chocolate, cheesecake squares, chips, bread, birthday cake and God knows what else in my house. I threw some of it out but not all, didn't even know the cheesecake was here until I discovered it tonight. Two squares at 190 calories apiece. And I also went to see a movie and ate movie popcorn. Oh and dh's cousin and aunt very nicely sent us a large thing of Harry and David that had Moose Munch, cookies, truffles, chocolates and pears. So sweet, so not what I need in the house right now. And my kids and husband hate chocolate. I did also have lunch at Panda Express and printed out Dottie's list for that one so I could pick healthy choices. Even though it meant waiting 10 minutes while they made up more fresh veggies for my meal to sub for rice. I am so glad this weekend is over! We had a great weekend but a special occasion mixed with TOM from He** is not a good combo. I am ready for Monday and I can safely say all contraband food is gone, dh and I found it all. Part of the problem is that my friends cleaned up my kitchen for me on Friday night and they put some leftovers in places I didn't know about! But I found it and its gone. I will catch up with you all tomorrow morning. I am going to bed to dream about spring and being thin.

Also, thanks Julie and Tracey. The party did go well it was the following two days that did not! I bet I gained five pounds of water and fat to show for it!

 

[toystoryduo]

Amy,

I had some struggles with food this weekend too. The good thing is that Monday starts a new week where we can make new and better choices for our bodies. We can do this, Amy!

Have a great Monday!

 

[traceycooper]

Hi Amy
Glad the party was a success
Sorry TOM is being a pain & your feeling low
Try to just write the weekend off & start a fresh, spring will be here before you know it
Have a super weekend
Tracey

 

[Amy&Dan]

Today was much better with food thank goodness. I stayed out of the Harry and David (those guys are evil with their truffles and moose munch) and only ate one cheesecake square. 4 pts, I figured it in. Also had a low carb wrap for lunch with a bunch of romaine lettuce and shredded carrot and some grilled chicken. Dinner was Subway since I could not be bothered to cook. I was too busy talking on the phone to my brother catching up with him. I did not exercise today but my goal was to drink water (did that) eat my high fiber cereal I have not eaten in about five days (did that) get my veggies in (did it) and eat MUCH better (did it). So I was happy with myself. Its amazing what being off program for three or four days can do to my mood and outlook. I was feeling so depressed today it was unbelievable. I felt like I have just completely blown it for weeks on end which is not even close to being true. TOM always makes my ability to have good judgement go south! Tomorrow my plan is to stay on track with food again and get back on the treadmill. I haven't walked since Thursday, way too long. I think another problem today was that I did not get enough sleep. One of our stupid smoke alarms went off several times beginning about 2:00 a.m. It scared me to death of course, woke up the kids, dogs went beserk. This happened three times, dh finally got it to shut off once and for all. I took ds to school late, he woke up with a headache and was exhausted and I was afraid he was coming down with something but I think it was just all the excitement between 2-4 a.m.! I am hoping for a good nights sleep and that TOM will be gone and I can get back to myself.

Thanks for reading!

 

[toystoryduo]

I think another problem today was that I did not get enough sleep. One of our stupid smoke alarms went off several times beginning about 2:00 a.m. It scared me to death of course, woke up the kids, dogs went beserk. This happened three times, dh finally got it to shut off once and for all.

Oh my goodness, Amy! This happened to us once awhile back... It was so scary! Everyone had a hard time falling back asleep. Another time, we heard someone pounding on our door at 5:00 a.m.! Our dogs were barking, my DD was crying... It was the local police looking for the former owner of our house. We've lived in this house for almost 10 years now.... Not sure why they would think the former owner was here. My DH and I couldn't go back to sleep and turned the TV on to find out they (not our local police ) had captured Sadaam Hussein (NOT the former owner of our house! )... Weird huh? (Sorry, didn't mean to make the stories sound more related than they were. )

Are Harry and David any relation to Ben and Jerry? Great job on staying out of the store!

TOM is a real pain isn't it? I know that I feel the same way during TOM... Please know that you have been doing a great job! A couple of days off program are okay as long as we jump back on the healthy band wagon as quickly as possible. You took that step yesterday by staying away from Harry and David. You and I CAN do this, Amy! Baby step your way through the day today and take extra special good care of you.

 

[lovinaz]

Boy, that really stinks about the smoke alarms! What a rude awakening!

Great job getting back on track after a few days of straying. It really is hard sometimes, but you did it! DS is getting his teeth pulled tomorrow(FINALLY!). It's always harder to behave with my food when I am home all day... So for you to have a good day when you are home is pretty darn impressive!

Did you get on the treadmill today?

 

[traceycooper]

Hi Amy
The smoke alarm must have given you a real scare!!
Please make sure its working properly though, i read a story once in our paper that a family had taken the battery out of theirs cos it was beeping - didnt replace it...you can guess what happened

Glad your feeling more positive & back on track today

 

[traceycooper]

Oh my goodness, Amy! This happened to us once awhile back... It was so scary! Everyone had a hard time falling back asleep. Another time, we heard someone pounding on our door at 5:00 a.m.! Our dogs were barking, my DD was crying... It was the local police looking for the former owner of our house. We've lived in this house for almost 10 years now.... Not sure why they would think the former owner was here. My DH and I couldn't go back to sleep and turned the TV on to find out they (not our local police ) had captured Sadaam Hussein (NOT the former owner of our house! )... Weird huh? (Sorry, didn't mean to make the stories sound more related than they were.

Tracy...what is that cleanse doing to you?????

 

[Amy&Dan]

Today was a good food day. I stayed within points, drank my water and deep cleaned the whole house. It sparkles and that helped my mood, I literally scrubbed every surface and didn't stop until it was done. I was on a mission! I didn't cook dinner again, we had Taco Bell, but I did pick two things and stayed within my points. Still not the best choice. I was just so beat to cook and too lazy to as well. I also didn't want to mess up my super clean kitchen! I had a burrito with no sour cream or cheese and a soft taco. Lunch was a southbeach diet pizza and a salad. Breakfast (working backwards here, sorry) was a shake. I had an orange and some popcorn for snacks. I hope to weigh in tomorrow, Daisy has a vet appt. so if they are running on time I can just make it. If not, I will have to go Thursday.

I need to get back to my treadmill routine, I am baffled at myself for not bothering to keep up my daily short (no excuses not to) walk. Sometimes I get very disgusted with me. I am hoping dd going back to school on Thursday will help me get back to my routine. For some reason when she is home or ds is, I get off a bit. Add to that the fact I hate the treadmill and am hopelessly bored with exercising inside and it spells disaster. I can't wait for warm weather and clean sidewalks to walk on.

My brother is flying my parents out in April for a week. I can already taste the break I am going to have! Awful I know but I can't help myself.

Thanks for reading!



Tracey, thanks I am feeling better. I think TOM just got me a bit out of whack. So for now its good, until the next TOM shows up.

Tracy: That alarm did scare me. We have them all over the house, in each room and hallway so when one in the basement goes off, it triggers the one outside my bedroom to go off too. Which is a good thing but very loud! Glad to know Saddam Hussein is not your former house occupant!

Amy: I did not get on the treadmill today, I took the day to clean like crazy and organize the basement. I worked up a sweat, according to Weight Watchers housecleaning counts but I don't think its the same. Still it beats nothing. I did take Daisy for a short walk, but only 10 minutes so I am not much able to count that. She did very well. Treadmill tomorrow so help me! It is hard to do good at home but I have to since I am home most days. I actually used to struggle more when I worked since ppl always seemed to be bringing junk in, plus the vending machine and eating lunch out many days. I guess I just struggle everywhere since I have no willpower! Good luck with ds' teeth!

 

[lovinaz]

Great job with the food yesterday! And yes, Taco Bell was not the best choice but you did the best you could and you stayed within your points!

I know what you mean about having your routine messed up. We are creatures of habit, that's for sure!

Did you make it to WI? Did you get your treadmill workout in?

I think Daisy needs a friend over, I will send Buckley for a couple weeks. I don't know what his fascination with tearing around the living room is. And when he gets like that (you can see the craziness in his eyes!), like DS said "he makes bad choices" - like attacking pillows off the couch, etc...

Keep up the good work!!!

 

[traceycooper]

Hi Amy
Well done for sticking within your points at Taco Bell
I dont think i would have had your willpower!
All that cleaning must have burnt off quite a few calories, so dont stress too much about the treadmill

 

[CJK]

We must be related somehow!! I had the same food difficulties last weekend, and it also had to do with cheesecake and parties! My exercise disappeared somehow too. The good news is that we're both on track again. I admire you for continuing with your journal though. I however, stopped journalling which is the worst thing I can do. I need to follow your lead!

Sorry to hear about the smoke alarm! It would've scared the daylights out of me!

Did you get back on that treadmill? Have a great weekend!

 

[Amy&Dan]

Thank you everyone. Yesterday was awful with food, today not much better. And no exercise. I am going through yet more stuff witih my kids. I know I updated you about my daughter and her struggles with school. I know I also have mentioned how my son gets bullied, has a hard time fitting in, etc. Its always been that way, he's 12. This has just gotten intolerable. There has been so much that has happened and the district and school do nothing. I am not the only parent I know going thorugh stuff like this, our district sucks. I found a very small Christian school recommended by my pediatrician with a very good curriculum. I have been on the phone with them all week and spent most of today over there. The tuition is not awful, I think we can manage, espcially if I go back to work. The current plan seems to be to move ds over there immediately and let dd start next year. For whatever reason ds just cannot hack it in a public school set up. Everyone says do it now before we get deeper into problems that can't be fixed. I feel good and relieved. Its scary but good to be proactive. He is excited but nervous, dd of course is going with the flow and excited too but will miss her friends. But I think being in class with only 12 kids as opposed to 26 kids will be better for her too.


Food wise/plan wise, I am just starting over AGAIN next week. My stress level should go down and with ds not crying himself to sleep I think one of the things that has been messing with me the last couple of weeks was that knowing that we needed to possibly find private school and how expensive that would be so I would likely have to drop out of WW. Its $40 a month and when we will be adding so much added expense I just thought I would drop that. But now I have decided not to do that. I barely have the motivation to lose weight on a program how can I do this alone now when I never have before? I know that if I have to give up that accountablity I will gain back all my weight and then some. So I am sticking with WW no matter what. And no Amy, I did not weigh in this week. I missed yesterday due to Daisy's appt. and missed today due to the school appt. Tomorrow I have to take my mom out so I likely won't make it then either. Although I might be able to at least swing by and weigh. But then again, given what I have been eating thats not such a great idea either. Dh's birthday for real is this weekend and I have planned a nice lowfat meal except for the cake. Which I will have one piece of and throw out the rest.

 

[SunFloridaDisney]

Amy,

You are going through a lot right now. Take a deep breath, and just focus on one thing at a time.

Good for you for sticking with your resolve for WW. There is a lot of support here and on the WW online boards as well. Taking care of yourself will help your family overall.

Good luck with the new school. It is so tough to see our kids go through difficulties. Hope this works out for all of you.

Enjoy your weekend!

 

[lovinaz]

That is so awful that your kids are having such a rough time at school. But you are doing your job as parents and correcting the situation. Yes, money will be tight, but getting the kids into a positive learning environment is 100% worth it.

And kudos to you for sticking with WW. And who cares if you are starting over again. At least you are starting over and not giving up! Good plan for the b-day cake. I don't think you're desperate enough to dig any out of the trash!!

 

[traceycooper]

Hi my
It is so sad that you & your kids are going through all this stress. Im sure the change will be for the better.
Wow only 12 kids in a class, your DD should get lots of one to one help their
Hope DH has a good birthday, is he like our queen & celebrates it twice??