Amy's Journal: Comments Welcome!

[lovinaz]

That really stinks that you are still sick! Make sure you keep hydrated, that kind of illness can really suck all the water out of your body. Do you have a fever or anything? Get better soon!

 

[traceycooper]

Hi Amy
Sorry your still not feeling great
I'm so glad your DS is settling in well to his new school, that must lift a big weight off your shoulders
Take good care of yourself - or even better let somebody else take good care of you

 

[toystoryduo]

I hope you are feeling better soon, Amy. Please be sure and take it easy this weekend.

I am so glad to hear that your DS loves his new school! Praise the Lord! I know that is such a huge relief for you and Dan.

Sending you a PM soon....

 

[Amy&Dan]

Thank you everyone! I am feeling much better today, a bit wiped out but on the definite mend. I am skipping church tonight and am actually looking forward to a couple of hours home alone at night. Something I hardly ever get to do! I still think it was food related since nobody else has gotten sick thank goodness.

Not much to report on what I am eating. I got some rice pudding that is tasting pretty good, not too sure dairy is the right thing but its stayed put and made me feel better. Mostly I am just thirsty which tells me that in spite of my best efforts I am dehydrated. So I am pushing the water and that should take care of that. God only knows what I weigh, I was up a couple of pounds last time I checked and decided who needs the aggravation of worrying about the scale when I feel like this? I am weighing on Wed., if it kills me. I am paying for WW whether I go or not so it really stinks I missed two weeks in a row.

Ds has been so happy this weekend! He woke up yesterday excited to go to school instead of crying! Forgotten what that was like. I have been really supported by all of our friends and family. It is such a weight lifted off my shoulders. Bummer to pay for private when I supposedly live in the "best" district in CO but its money well spent. I am hoping the honeymoon at school continues for him, he really deserves to be happier.

Thanks so much for all your good thoughts and wishes for not only my sick tummy but ds. I think they hit the mark as we are both doing much better! Happy weekend everyone!

 

[traceycooper]

Hi Amy
Glad your feeling better
Hope you managed to get some piece & quite last night!!

 

[lovinaz]

So glad to hear you are finally feeling better! And that money spent on tuition will be so worth it in the end, don't ever doubt that!

That's great that you will be able to make time for WW this week, I bet you will be happy you did!

Right now Buckley just got sent to his crate. He was helping himself to egg shells and a grocery receipt in the trash (the kiddie lock broke and DH hasn't fixed it yet!). Hopefully Daisy is being a better member of the beagle society!!

 

[CACruisin']

So glad you are feeling better now. I hope you enjoyed your evening to yourself.

 

[toystoryduo]

Morning WISH sis,

I'm glad to hear that you are feeling better. That's great that you had some time to yourself too.

What a blessing to hear that your DS is excited about school again! I know that is such a huge weight off of your shoulders.

I hope you have a great week ahead!

 

[Amy&Dan]

Thank you all! I did enjoy my Saturday evening at home. I cleaned out my closet then watched some HGTV. Saw somebody I used to know through my brother on one of the shows, she's a well known decorator now. It was funny to see her. And depressing, she has not changed one bit since I met her almost 19 years ago. I on the other hand am not even recognizeable. I realized that when I met Barb I weighed almost 70 pounds less than I do now. How depressing! Of course she's rich ( I can imagine what she spends at the salon etc.) and she has never had kids but still .

Sunday (yesterday) we went and saw Bridge to Terabithia (sp?). Okay, that was not exactly what I thought it was. It was wonderful but we went with our friends that have the very sick little boy (who is doing really well but still a scary situation) and I was sorry in a way they went to given the plot line. I of course being on the verge of TOM was sobbing as was my friend. Great cry fest at the Disney flick!

After the movie we went for a ride in the mountains, ds has a cold and was asleep in the car, dd was listening to her music. Dh and I actually got to have a conversation for once! Then we went and bought Disney dollars for June. I was really, really hungry. I had had Sonic before the movie a small amt. of popcorn and when we hit the food court it was all I could do to not lunge over the counters like a looting Hun and pillage. My appetite is back like gangbusters. I resisted however. Then we passed our favorite Mexican and again I was wanting to go in (dh was game of course) but I resisted again. I have four months until our June trip and 20 pounds to lose. January lost three pounds, gained back one. February have not weighed once so no idea. My scale says up two more but its not reliable. Probably from many years of frustrated abuse by me in post weigh in fits of rage. Not too good on all those resolutions I set. I can't give up or give in!

Yesterday's food:
Sonic burger and tater tots: 16
Popcorn: 3
Soup: 3
Crackers: 4
Total: 26
Came under but not exactly a stellar day.

Today:
Oatmeal: 3
Yogurt: 2
Lean Cuisine: 5
Crackers: 4
Protein Bar: 3
Subway sandwich: 5
Chips: 5
Total: 25 Under again
Resisted pizza for Subway

I NEED to grocery shop. Both kids are home for Pres Day, ds is sick and didn't want to be alone so I didn't make it. I am hoping maybe dh can work from home until about 8:00 tomorrow so I can make an early run. I am too tired tonight.

The sick thing is behind me and I need and want to get in gear. If I could be at 40-45 total by our trip that would be so awesome. I am so tired of setting goals and not making them! I have been at a total standstill since June. Good news is that I am still down around 25 if not my orginal 30. This is so hard and I know it is. The constant temptations. Like I was really not thinking about food until I hit that foodcourt. The smells just got me. But I hung in there and felt very good about that. Today I chose Subway for dh to bring me home for dinner. I skipped the cheese on the sandwich and didn't really miss it like I thought I would. I just start to think about the last eight months and my total lack of progress and it literally hurts inside me. I just have to dig inside and get back on track. Somehow the first six weeks of the new year have gotten away from me and all of the sudden I panic thinking I can't lose anything by summer. But then I realize its still early on, I have had some serious stress and been sick and haven't gone off the deep end yet. So I feel a bit better. Sorry for long winded rant and thanks for listening!

Anna: I did enjoy my down time. Its amazing how quiet my house is at night when I am home alone!

Amy: Daisy chewed through the vacum cleaner cord (my $800 Oreck no less). She is overall good and so darn cute but she has her moments. She is getting so big. We start puppy training on March 17, I hope she learns something!

Tracy: Thanks for the pm, it was just what I needed to hear!

Tracey: I did get my peace and quiet. I told dh I may never return to church again if I can stay home alone on a Sat. nite!

 

[toystoryduo]

Amy,

I hear you and understand what you are saying WISH sis. I have set many goals for myself and have not reached them either. I want this weight loss to happen right now and with minimal effort on my part.... See where that thinking has gotten me?

You have been through a lot in the past couple of years. You are a strong woman, Amy! You will accomplish your goals.... Remember, baby steps are the key and practice good eating habits. I KNOW that you CAN and you WILL do this! I believe in you, Amy!

I was reading a book the other day about eating and weight loss and this statement jumped out at me.... "There are no failures, only slow successes." You know Amy... you and I may have to try many times before we get this. The great thing is that we can rely on God and each other to make our goals a reality! Remember, no failures just slow successes.

Have a wonderful day tomorrow!

 

[lovinaz]

I like Tracy's quote! That is definitely something to remember. It takes time to retrain your mind. For so many years you were using food for all the wrong reasons and it is going to take a lot of mental effort to change it. But you WILL get there!

I always try to pep talk myself. For example, my password at work is the first letters of the words of a very motivating phrase. Every time I have to change my password, I change my phrase. And everytime I type it in, I have to think of that phrase. It'd be something along the lines of "Do you NEED to snack at night or just WANT to?" or something similar.

You did a lot of great things this weekend, like skipping pizza and getting a Subway with no cheese!! And bypassing the Mexican restaurant. Those are great accomplishments, be proud of them! Just worry about 1 day, or even 1 hour at a time. Plan out your entire day of food before the day starts, and make yourself stick to it. YOU CAN DO IT!!!!!!!!

 

[traceycooper]

Hi Amy
I'm glad you enjoyed your quite time
Your not alone with feeling frustrated, i think many of us are, its spooky how we all seem to be up or down roughly at the same times & like you mentioned on my journal - when TOM arrives!!!!
sending a big to cheer you up
I'm trying to be good food wise but am also trying to be happy with the way i am now & any loss is a bonus....works in theory
Well done for resisiting at the food court your food doesnt look bad, so maybe its not as bad as you thought
whats the disney movie about, we will proberbly have to wait ages for it to come out over here!!

 

[Amy&Dan]

Thanks all. Today was a bit of a disaster. My dd had a friend sleepover (she had no school today). This little girl has my dd over and they always have all kinds of goodies. So dd asked if we could get donuts for today. Donuts are a major, major thing for me. But I said yes. I don't think we have had donuts in this house in maybe two years. So I sent dh to the store to get them, told him to get 6 total. Two for each kid (ds is home with his cold but thought donuts sounded peachy). So what does he come home with? A DOZEN freakin donuts. Who eats three of these babies? Me. I threw out the last three. It was that thing where I kept taking little hunks of certain donuts and pretty soon I had downed three of them. I never learn. Dh said it was cheaper to get 12 since they had a special on a dozen. Natch, the evil donut people want us all to eat their fried dough heart killers and stay fat.

Breakfast was oatmeal (I ate while dh was out scouting for donuts thinking this would keep me from eating any)Lunch was lean cuisine, snack was an orange and I did manage to drink 8 glasses of water. I also downed a nice serving of wheat thins. Can you say carb fest? And with TOM imminent the last thing I needed was a donut day to up my weight. I will be the first person in the history of this planet to be up the week after I had stomach flu. The sad thing is that I am starving since I had very little in the way of protein today. But eating is cut off until tomorrow.

i weigh in tomorrow and I am ready. I hope ds can go back to school, if not he is going to have to stay home alone for 45 minutes. I need to weigh in, its been three weeks and my motivation is rotten right now. I also need to grocery shop badly. I think if I had some better food in the house I might have stood a better chance with the donuts. Oh well, my new week starts tomorrow. I did have some successes this past week. I just don't have it in me yet to resist things like donuts!

Tracy: I am definitely in the slow success category! But slow and steady is what I wanted so that is what I am apparently getting in a big way! Thanks for the words of encouragement, I know I can do it to!

Tracey: I do see a lot of frustration on the WISH with others besides me. This is one hard process and it does validate me to see that I am not the only one struggling to stay focused.

Amy: Thanks for the pep talk! I like your little password reminder. I have seen people at WW who wear bracelets that remind them of what they are trying to accomplish. I know that resisting the pizza and Mexican happened via me visualizing the old "nothing tastes as good as being thin feels" mantra they teach us at WW. Too bad I wasn't listening to that today when the donuts arrived.

 

[toystoryduo]

Dh said it was cheaper to get 12 since they had a special on a dozen.

Are our DH's related? (I guess since we are WISH sisters, that would make our DHs WISH brothers! )My DH said the very same thing to me on Friday night! "Well, Tracy.... if I bought just one donut for myself, it would cost me $.79. By buying an entire dozen, I am saving us money!" Thanks a million, honey. I knew there was a "frugal" side to you! Anyways, the donuts are over and done with. You know what, Amy? You threw the last few donuts away. I am so proud of you for that! That is success!

I hope you have a wonderful Wednesday! A PM is on the way!

 

[traceycooper]

Oh dear i bet your DH is suffering
At least you got straight back on track & drank lots of water
At least the donuts are out now & i hope you enjoyed them! If your gonna eat them, at least enjoy it, eh

 

[lovinaz]

My DH did that ONCE with the donuts. After my wrath, that was the last time, now he buys 3 when he goes out on every other Sunday (donut day for the kids). Yes, your DH saved a couple bucks, but you wasted 3 of them by throwing them out! Men...

How did your meeting go? I hope it sparked some motivation in you. Like I've said before, I think you need to plan to succeed. I always make a weekly menu, including lunches and breakfasts, then shop for that every weekend. That way I know there will be healthy things available and I'm not tempted to get fast food or pizza or something. And I love the crockpot for those days when I know I won't have time to cook. Try it for 1 week and see how you do, I bet you will be amazed at how much easier it is to stay on track! It takes discipline at first, but now it's a habit for me.

 

[Amy&Dan]

Well I lost a pound! And since I am taking what I can get I was thrilled! Another lady at my meeting went into the bathroom, took off her jeans and put on these very lightweight shorts to weigh in. I had to laugh thinking of the things we women will do to lose an ounce! I was also glad that in my new mature, been there done this, kind of world, I no longer stress about how much my clothes weigh! I remember one time weighing my bras on my food scale to see if one of them could save me some oz's! Food today was good, I am too tired to list it, but the good news is that I ate a large salad tonight, first veggies I have had since I got sick. Something about too much ruffage didn't sound too promising given my recent bout of lower intestional problems!

My total loss for 2007 is just under 4 pounds, 3.8 to be exact. I am a little behind schedule since I want four pounds per month but better to lose half of what I want then gain twice that!

Amy: Dh will not make the donut mistake again. I was very nice when I basically laid the guilt trip on him! And the donut savings was lost in the trash. I saw them laying in there today and was glad I am not yet to the point when I will dig food out of the trash!

Tracy: I thought of your slow sucess thing (I love that saying, I wrote it down and put it on my frig, it has really somehow made me feel better about myself). I saw a lady at WW today who joined when I did, lost a bunch really quickly (something like 40 pounds in three months) then disappeared. She was back today, all of its back on, I felt so sorry for her. My slow success is better I think!

Tracey: The sad thing is I didn't enjoy the donuts. Which made it even worse. The good news is that i got it out of my system.

 

[goldcupmom]

Congrats on the pound, Amy! Down is Down!!!

Everytime I get the tummy bug I GAIN. For each of my 3 kids I left the hospital weighing MORE than when I came in before delivery! I think I have the weirdest metabolism on the planet!

Have a great rest of the week & weekend!!

 

[Amy&Dan]

How did your meeting go? I hope it sparked some motivation in you. Like I've said before, I think you need to plan to succeed. I always make a weekly menu, including lunches and breakfasts, then shop for that every weekend. That way I know there will be healthy things available and I'm not tempted to get fast food or pizza or something. And I love the crockpot for those days when I know I won't have time to cook. Try it for 1 week and see how you do, I bet you will be amazed at how much easier it is to stay on track! It takes discipline at first, but now it's a habit for me.

You are so right on this! I actually always planned when I was losing. And then like clockwork, when I stopped planning out menus I stopped losing. You are right, it takes discipline but I have done it before and I can do it again. I did plan out menus last week but then got sick and never did cook or shop all week long. So I went and shopped yesterday based on all my menus and I think it will really help. My WW leader told me yesterday that people who plan out their meals, journal what they eat and attend meeting almost always lose weight. She also told me quite nicely that when you have a total of 100 pounds to lose the amount of dedication it takes to do that given the amount of time it will take is tremendous. She reminded me I am over 1/4 of the way there and I can do it and not to give up or dwell on what I could have done. She really spent some time time with me yesterday which was so nice. So I did very much get some motivation from that meeting.

 

[Amy&Dan]

Congrats on the pound, Amy! Down is Down!!!

Everytime I get the tummy bug I GAIN. For each of my 3 kids I left the hospital weighing MORE than when I came in before delivery! I think I have the weirdest metabolism on the planet!

Have a great rest of the week & weekend!!

You and I are a lot alike! I remember weighing myself post birth of an eight pound baby and being something like 10 pounds heavier than I had been before she was born! And I never lose when I have stomach flu either. No fair!