
Hello. My name is Amanda, and I am a compulsive eater. Everyday for the past week I've made a recommitment to myself to eat right, stick to Induction, to try and make the scale move. Every night I have ended up eating things that were unhealthy for me because of impulse. Last night I ate a medium thin crust pizza (I will be heading over to the Binge Eating meeting after this).

I don't know what is wrong with me. I want to lose, but I keep myself from fulfilling what I need to do. I have completely given up on exercise for the last 30 days, I am unmotivated, talk myself out of sticking to program, and feel as though I should just give up.
But I am not going to! I think I have been putting way to much pressure on myself about this wedding. And like Doe or Erin said (I can't remember which one) no one will remember how much I weighed but they will remember that I was there and that is the important thing. I am going to take my own advice and when feeling overwhelmed I am going to make a list. I will continue the list at home but I thought I would start it here.
1) This weekend we will go buy running shoes no matter how much they cost and start training for the marathon.
2) I will begin working out, even if it is for a short walk. I may not always have the hour to dedicate to THE FIRM but I will work in a walk or some form of exercise every single day.
3) I will plan meals better, I will start preparing things in advance so I do not have an excuse when I get home in the evenings.
4) For 7 days if I stick to the above 3 goals I will reward myself with some bronzer that I've been wanting or with some nail polish.
Okay - now that all of that is off my chest here is my plan for today:
B: 1 fried egg and 1 slice of cheese (2 carbs)
L: Tuna Salad (2) and 5 Whole Wheat Crackers (9)
S: Sugar Free Jello (0)
D: Noodless Lasagna (??)
The lasagna takes 20 minutes to bake - while it is baking I am going to go for a short but brisk walk.
DH is coming home tonight! :happy2: I woke up at 5:30 this morning and couldn't get back to sleep I was so excited. LOL! I guess absence does make the heart grow fonder.

I just can't wait to see him and talk to him! DH isn't much of a phone talker so we really haven't even talked the last couple of nights.
Well I am off to start the day - I've got my water ready, I'm in an outfit that makes me feel self confident and in charge of my destiny, I am leaving work an hour early to pick up DH!!
~Amanda