Luv0fDisney
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I used to love life. Never questioned the small things and always had a positive out look on life...okay that's not 100% true because I had my share of disappointments but that feeling went away with another thing.
But now I don't feel anything...except paint. Aggitated because I don't know what's what any more. I feel light headed most of the time and sometimes dizzy. I feel like I just don't know how to live.
I recently lost a really good friend...at least I thought she was a friend. In December of 2015 she planned a trip to my state to visit me for 7 days. But she ended up cancelling 3 days prior to the trip only because she couldn't meet her other pen pal which made me feel that she was using me. I was upset because I trusted her. Now we're no longer friends.
Does anyone have any success about over the counter anti-depression or what ever I have? My parents are no help because they don't believe in taking drugs and I feel like I'm lost. I suffer from chronic pain and not sure what I am supposed to do. LIke I don't have a purpose. My mom makes me feel worse because I am over weight and all she thinks is that I have to wear modern clothes. I hate that she thinks being friends depends on people's looks. like no one can care for me about who I am rather than what I look like. But at the same time my parents are all the people i have
Anyway... I know this might not make much sense. But I really do need help. My mind is always blank. It feels like I feel no emotions what so ever like I'm sitting in a room all day in one spot just starring out into spare when all I feel is numb and all I have in my head is nothing..complete silence. Like i'm brain dead..
I feel like I'm wasting time. I never feel tired and no motivation what so ever to do anything. It's like I a brain dead because I feel numb.
But now I don't feel anything...except paint. Aggitated because I don't know what's what any more. I feel light headed most of the time and sometimes dizzy. I feel like I just don't know how to live.
I recently lost a really good friend...at least I thought she was a friend. In December of 2015 she planned a trip to my state to visit me for 7 days. But she ended up cancelling 3 days prior to the trip only because she couldn't meet her other pen pal which made me feel that she was using me. I was upset because I trusted her. Now we're no longer friends.
Does anyone have any success about over the counter anti-depression or what ever I have? My parents are no help because they don't believe in taking drugs and I feel like I'm lost. I suffer from chronic pain and not sure what I am supposed to do. LIke I don't have a purpose. My mom makes me feel worse because I am over weight and all she thinks is that I have to wear modern clothes. I hate that she thinks being friends depends on people's looks. like no one can care for me about who I am rather than what I look like. But at the same time my parents are all the people i have
Anyway... I know this might not make much sense. But I really do need help. My mind is always blank. It feels like I feel no emotions what so ever like I'm sitting in a room all day in one spot just starring out into spare when all I feel is numb and all I have in my head is nothing..complete silence. Like i'm brain dead..
I feel like I'm wasting time. I never feel tired and no motivation what so ever to do anything. It's like I a brain dead because I feel numb.