I think reality hit me as I realized that it is only 9 more days before our trip. I was counting on my days off to get last minute things done. Then work got in the way.
Our schedule came out and YaY! I am officially off my requested days.
But look closer...
Ut-Oh... I work all this weekend then scheduled overtime and only 1 day off (Tues) before my vacation starts (Fri). And I work 12.5 -13 hour shifts!

So I have 1 day to get all my last minute stuff done, plus the usual day off housework (laundry and such) and still have to return to work 2 more long shifts. I'll be tired and exhausted before I even get to Disneyworld! Waaaaah.
Then talking to Mom a while ago, and she mentioned how nice it was that I was handling everything and she didn't have to do anything or have any worries except how much spending money would she need... that is when reality hit me and I realized all the responsibility I had taken on - and I felt very overwhelmed. I am so used to traveling with my hubby. He handles everything including the money so all I have to do is go, have fun, and he takes care of everything, and now he wasn't going to be there and I panicked in trying to make a list and in trying to remember every detail.
I was used to it as a single parent/mother, but after being married all these years, I forgot what it was like, and I am very rusty but I think it is starting to come back to me. I think I am just trying too hard and getting overwhelmed with it all in worrying about the details.
Well, that and I have a huge test that I have to get re-certified for at work and it's a tough one, the testing alone takes 12 hours of written/clinical skills and then hands on clinical skills which is scheduled after you pass part I and II and I have been trying to study for that as well as plan for Disney, and then spend time with my husband, and work has been hellabusy, hence the scheduled overtime for everyone.
Oh yeah, and then right now I'm waiting on the plumbers to show up. Our drainage water pipes from the house to the city collapsed so I can't really use the bathrooms as the water runs right into the front yard when you flush. Ummm yes, you heard right it is raw sewage right in our front yard, Ewwww gross. But hubby just called and they will be out this afternoon so I wait and wait and try to study for my test some, organize my vacation some, do some housework, and hopefully in there, just some "ME" time and a bubble bath after the plumbers finish! (OH and flush the toilets too, I just can't, when I know it is dumping out on our front flowerbed.)
I am definitely in need of a vacation right now, but WOW, I've soooo much do still, I'm just not ready, and it's only 9 days away!