Oh please it was just something I had to go and do. It was a strange feeling, not knowing what to feel really, do you want to find her or not so that there would still be hope. Well we know how it turned out. At one point while we were out in a field and it was raining and we were tired, hot, thirsty, frustrated, and just about everything else you can imagine, I just stopped and looked at the women I had gone with and screamed. I was so mad at who ever had done it, because they knew where she was and had us all out there looking. I can honestly say I cursed who ever did it and said some not nice things, but I needed a release at that moment. I still get angry, and upset when I think about it. I have watched so much news and have seen so much of this on TV, but until now it didn't hit home. I can not begin to imagine what the family is feeling if I feel like this.
WOW that post was way too long!!
Thanks for sharing! I have never looked for anyone, so it is interesting to hear it from your perspective. I never thought of it that way.