OK....I cannot believe this.
DH and I vowed to get 'financially healthy' this year.
We have kept a budget spreadsheet for about a year and half. It's been helpful...but not the best. We have just spent the last
6 hours 
working on our 2009 budget.
Step 1. So I started out with a clean slate and detailed every single $$ that we spend each month (bills,food,gas etc..)and then matched it up with our monthly income..I was really scared to do this..It actually kept me up all last night worrying about what it would look like!

. I was
SHOCKED. After we pay everything...including a nice deposit into savings, we should have almost 1K extra! So why are we struggling so much?

WHERE IS MY MONEY????
Step #2 We spent a few hours going through all our bank statements for the past few months...we itemized everything and added it all up.This was painful.

I considered us pretty good with money...not eating out a lot, being carefull grocery shopping, not spending a lot on extras, only buying things on sale at Target

and the Dollar Store. And we have NO credit card debt....REALITY CHECK: Are you sitting down. Here is one of our months and if I am being honest, it is pretty typical..
WARNING...what you are about to see is not pretty.:

And I am embarrassed to post this here...
Groceries: $857.39
Walmart/Target/Craft stores: $529.31
eating out: $290.24
and (the ugliest #) The Dollar Tree: $99.00
The thing with these numbers is that there were rarely any LARGE expenses in any of the categories...there were LOTS of little ones (ie..8 trips to McDonalds in one month).
So I spent a good half hour crying at my ignorance, wastefulness and denial.

Got over it...and moved on to:
Step #3 We completely re-vamped our spreadsheet. We didn't have nearly enough detailed categories. It's focus was really just on bills and didn't include the 'real' budget-buster categories like 'entertainment' etc. We are also moving the to the 'envelope' system for groceries and entertainment.
Sorry for the LONG winded post...But I thought it might be helpful to those of you who are afraid to look at your financial reality

. It can be ugly and painful but you MUST DO IT!!! DH and I now feel 100% confident that we will be MUCH healthier financially in 2009.

We both feel like a huge weight has been lifted from us and we can move forward with a
realistic and positive financial plan.