Wow, not a typical day...

[BabyPiglet]

You should really see a school counselor, they'll listen to your problems and believe what you say, even if your mom doesn't.
Seriously, if you're having thoughts like that, you need to reach out and get help, by whatever means possible.

And WOW, that day was like an emotional roller coaster!
I'm glad it all ended up okay.

Yeah, go talk to your couselor. Just spill it all out to her, everything. She'll know what to do to help you.

 

[Ms.Squeakers]

You should really see a school counselor, they'll listen to your problems and believe what you say, even if your mom doesn't.
Seriously, if you're having thoughts like that, you need to reach out and get help, by whatever means possible.

And WOW, that day was like an emotional roller coaster!
I'm glad it all ended up okay.

Yeah, go talk to your couselor. Just spill it all out to her, everything. She'll know what to do to help you.

I think its just school,
hopefully!,
Maybe...

Eeek.
Well, Our school counselor's minds..are.. off somewhere.
Definitely somewhere.
The way my school works is,
If you visit the counselor for ANYTHING
EVERYONE knows.
Plus,
They try and mess with your mind.

Example :

Last year, I had a talk with my schools counselor about being unhappy about how my teacher treated me and she said "change yourself" "if you are bothered by her, then by all means, change yourself for her"


All I want to do was say "but why? I am who I am, Why should I change for her? Im not doing anything except all the work plus more!"


I feel that its the same now.
Even though its different counselor's, I just get this overwhelming feeling of..
horridness from there.


Besides,
If my mom EVER found out I went to the counselor it would be "here it goes again" because in the elementary school area..I was there a lot.
She also does this thing where she turns everything I say against me, WHEN IM TRYING TO VENT, NOT HER, ME
For once in my life..
I have never gone through a real life conversation without it being turned around on my against me to make me feel WORSE and then we talk about what I haven't been doing


"Mom I'm unhappy"
"Im unhappy that you never pick up your room!"


Uhm..
Thanks a lot mom?


See what I mean?
If i bring the school systems into this it can only go downhill.
Its better to just.. make sure I see my friends often so I don't get these thoughts in my head.

 

[Ampris]

Aw, man, I know how you feel. I really, really wish I could give you some advice, but all I can do now is keep hoping that you feel better. I'm sorry.

 

[Ms.Squeakers]

Aw, man, I know how you feel. I really, really wish I could give you some advice, but all I can do now is keep hoping that you feel better. I'm sorry.

That's the thing.
I do feel better.
I feel amazing.
I just hope the feeling lasts.

 

[Ms.Squeakers]

UGLY DUCKLING


Well,
That's what one of my FRIENDS called me today.
He wasn't angry,
Not upset,
very happy

but he called me the ugly duckling.

At first it didn't upset me,
but with the thoughts Ive been having lately it made it REALLY upset later on.

I feel so messed up, everyone in my school is so pretty and Im the ugly one walking around TRYING to have a good time, when all I get is crushed to the bottom of the earth.
AND THEN,
People wonder why Im upset.

I dont understand it.
Its not my fault Im so hideous,
I try to make myself look presentable..but its just not working.
I promised myself never to wear makeup, unless im on stage.

 

[Cassidy]

I understand it.
But afraid to say something stupid, you know?
So, I'll try..lol.

" If I had a day like that, I would probably rush out of the room and run home. I dont care if I get into trouble. The worst schoolday of my life was when this girl, Joy told EVERYBODY inthe school I gave her a blackeye. The principal said I had a week of detention.
Then Joy's mom CAME TO THE SCHOOl and yelled at me. Then Her mom talked to joy and asked what day I hit her. She said Like tuesday or something. THEN H ER MOM SAID,
" Joy, dont you have theater practice?"
The joy reacted stupidly and said
" OOPS! I forgot. I hit my face on a pole. "

The principal imediately apologized.
I didnt have detention anymore.
IT was the worst day of my life!




Retard.

 

[Ms.Squeakers]

Wow.
I hate people like that.
Or once I said "And.. if you dont.. im gonna kill you ;D" and then they sent me into the office for threatening to murder.

Uhm.
Yeah.
Sure.
I would really murder one of my best friends.
Yeah. I can see it right now "crazy white chick murders innocent little girl who is OLDER then her by 5 months" because thats how random my schools news paper titles are.
It sucks. xD
ANYWAY.

Im gonna now post what I posted on the random thread :



I think my mom has caught on my feelings.
I came home and right away I came up here and started DISing and then about an hour later I decided to go take a nap,
My mom didn't know that so about 30 minutes into my nap I was awaken and my brother screamed "MOM WANTS TO TALK TO YOU" and I asked "what is so important to disturb my sleep pattern?" and he said "she said she just needs to 'TALK' to you"
So then I said "well can you tell her Im really tired?" and then about 14 minutes later she came up and this is what happened :

Hey
Ugh
How are you?
Not so great.. I mean.. I am tired, but Im not. Maybe some coffee will change that.
I was hoping we could talk because I never got a change to talk to you yesterday and we REALLY need to talk, but I see that your napping so I will only wake you up when its dinner time. I know you are probably really tired all around.
Mmkay thanks Mom.


2 Hours later...

Mouse, dinner is ready
Okay, I will be right down

- After chowing down -

aren't you going to eat any chicken or meat?
Nah
Are you sure? It gives you proteins
nah Im sure.
Okay then..
Well... I have to go take a shower
That's probably a good idea it will make yuh feel better
Im praying that it does
-long silence-
okay then... im gonna go now



It feels weird
I cant tell weather shes angry at me or not.
Its just.. Ive never seen her this way NEVER.

 

[BabyPiglet]

This actually reminds me...

When I was in 6th grade I had a friend who was put in foster care over the summer () and me and this other girl were the only people who knew about it because we were her closest friends. Well a couple weeks after school started she got it in her head that I told a bunch of people about her summer. I didn't of course, but she didn't believe me. One day at recess I went to go talk with my friends (they were all in a big group) and next thing I know they're all running away from me because she told everyone I lied about her summer.

So I was super upset and ran back in the school basically sobbing to my teacher and so we went to see the principal and she YELLED at me for telling everyone about the foster care stuff, even though I didn't. The mom was also there after school and YELLED at me again.

Anyways my mom pulled me out of that school because she disgusted at the way the principal handled it. Sadly, that was actually one of the best schools of my life. The year before was wonderful. The whole class was friends, the teachers and principals loved me, it was a small school so everyone was just friends.

I had to switch elementary schools two more times that year! Mostly because of opening issues, I was just shuffled around schools like a freaking soccer ball. I ended up at a pretty good school for the rest of the year though...

Well, so there ya have it. 1 year of my life, and you didn't even ask for it!

 

[Ms.Squeakers]

Aw, thats really upsetting.
Not that you told me one year of your life xD but that your friend was put into a foster home.
I hate when people misunderstand things like that.



Woah,
Switching schools sounds like loads of fun.
Well,
Its not that I hate my friends.
I adore them.
Ive grown to love them, but...
there's something about my school itself that...just...scares me.
The only teachers I feel safe with are the ones that teach the easiest curriculum and isn't hard to get an A in the class.

Im seriously considering home school for 8th grade until high school.
I know my mom would NEVER let me, but I can dream cant I? *sigh*

 

[BabyPiglet]

Aw, thats really upsetting.
Not that you told me one year of your life xD but that your friend was put into a foster home.
I hate when people misunderstand things like that.



Woah,
Switching schools sounds like loads of fun.
Well,
Its not that I hate my friends.
I adore them.
Ive grown to love them, but...
there's something about my school itself that...just...scares me.
The only teachers I feel safe with are the ones that teach the easiest curriculum and isn't hard to get an A in the class.

Im seriously considering home school for 8th grade until high school.
I know my mom would NEVER let me, but I can dream cant I? *sigh*

Yeah, it was. It was honestly really upsetting to me because she had hinted at abuse the whole school year before but I have never caught on. I was so upset with myself after that.

 

[disneydance]

Today at school my social studys teacher threatened to call my mom and my friends mom she was som mad at us because we were being what she calls "Social Bugs" and I almost aways get in trouble in band but amazingly not today because we werent talking instead we were writing notes all period and he didnt catch us lol. Ive been moved 2 times in science for chatting with the person who sits next to me actually one time i wasnt talking the other person was but she wanted to talk to me so my teacher moved me in other words I get in trouble all the time for talking and you know whats amazing?? Ive never been sent to ISS before or got detention lol well see how long that lasts

 

[marypops!]

I hate my school too much. I've just stopped going. Right now, we're trying to figure things out with the school, like how i'm going to do my GCSEs, how i'm going to learn (the last couple of days, i've been going to a friend's house because they're homeschooled) etc.

In my last year of Primary School, nearly everyone bullied me in my year. Someone even tried strangling me with my tie on my birthday -_- My mum went to the teacher and the principal and they didn't do anything to stop it. I got bullied in yr 7 at Secondary school. They managed to stop it, but it carried on in yr 8. I kept trying to get off school, so I went to a psychiatrist about it but it didn't help much and she moved to Africa... I kept asking to be homeschooled but my parents wouldn't let me. Yr 9 was OK but I was still annoyed at it and still wanted homeschool but no...

In yr 10 it started again and got worse because in Drama, I was being silly with everyone and started to dance, then I went to a group of them at lunch to ask for a sheet so I could scan it, but they wouldn't give it to me unless I danced -_- but I took it off them and made my way back but they took my bag. I got it back but they took it again and made me dance so one of the them could record it on their mobile. I said to them if I find it on YouTube, I would do something about it and she said she wouldn't do anything. About 6 months later, people were taunting me because they had got it on their mobiles and she "didn't know how they got them". Then about a week later people were saying it was on YouTube. The person who put it on there didn't know what had happened so he took it off. It was put up again by someone who wanted it on there. The school made him take it off. The girl who then said she wouldn't put it on there did it on purpose and put another video of me on there. Soon the police had to get involved and she went to the police station for questioning. My friends kept yelling at me because they're also friends with her. Made me feel sad inside.

Yr 11, I couldn't even be in school for a week and sometimes I just wouldn't get out of bed to go. Everyone still makes fun of me for the dancing, they make fun of me for singing, one of them twists my words and spreads rumours about me that everyone taunts me for, my friends won't help me since they taunt me for not coming into school. It's a circle. People taunt me so I don't come into school, so because I don't come into school, people taunt me. They also taunt me for not doing PE and always exagerate the fact i'm in school, or i'm doing PE like it's the first time. I'm pretty shy about some things and when I ask my friends to come and see a teacher with me, they yell at me saying I should just go and so on -_-

Then I've had to go to more psychiatrists and now it's gotten so much for me, i'm just not setting foot in that school again, never.

Glad that's out...

Sorry to rant about my school on your thread about your school Mouse, just wanted to get it out and it's related to the thread kinda...

 

[BabyPiglet]

I hate my school too much. I've just stopped going. Right now, we're trying to figure things out with the school, like how i'm going to do my GCSEs, how i'm going to learn (the last couple of days, i've been going to a friend's house because they're homeschooled) etc.

In my last year of Primary School, nearly everyone bullied me in my year. Someone even tried strangling me with my tie on my birthday -_- My mum went to the teacher and the principal and they didn't do anything to stop it. I got bullied in yr 7 at Secondary school. They managed to stop it, but it carried on in yr 8. I kept trying to get off school, so I went to a psychiatrist about it but it didn't help much and she moved to Africa... I kept asking to be homeschooled but my parents wouldn't let me. Yr 9 was OK but I was still annoyed at it and still wanted homeschool but no...

In yr 10 it started again and got worse because in Drama, I was being silly with everyone and started to dance, then I went to a group of them at lunch to ask for a sheet so I could scan it, but they wouldn't give it to me unless I danced -_- but I took it off them and made my way back but they took my bag. I got it back but they took it again and made me dance so one of the them could record it on their mobile. I said to them if I find it on YouTube, I would do something about it and she said she wouldn't do anything. About 6 months later, people were taunting me because they had got it on their mobiles and she "didn't know how they got them". Then about a week later people were saying it was on YouTube. The person who put it on there didn't know what had happened so he took it off. It was put up again by someone who wanted it on there. The school made him take it off. The girl who then said she wouldn't put it on there did it on purpose and put another video of me on there. Soon the police had to get involved and she went to the police station for questioning. My friends kept yelling at me because they're also friends with her. Made me feel sad inside.

Yr 11, I couldn't even be in school for a week and sometimes I just wouldn't get out of bed to go. Everyone still makes fun of me for the dancing, they make fun of me for singing, one of them twists my words and spreads rumours about me that everyone taunts me for, my friends won't help me since they taunt me for not coming into school. It's a circle. People taunt me so I don't come into school, so because I don't come into school, people taunt me. They also taunt me for not doing PE and always exagerate the fact i'm in school, or i'm doing PE like it's the first time. I'm pretty shy about some things and when I ask my friends to come and see a teacher with me, they yell at me saying I should just go and so on -_-

Then I've had to go to more psychiatrists and now it's gotten so much for me, i'm just not setting foot in that school again, never.

Glad that's out...

Sorry to rant about my school on your thread about your school Mouse, just wanted to get it out and it's related to the thread kinda...

So are your parents thinking about homeschool now?

 

[marypops!]

There really is no point since I have about 2-3 months until the end of school and then I can go to a 6th form college. Next week, my parents are going to my school to talk to the head of year. I was supposed to go but my parents don't want me going.

 

[BabyPiglet]

There really is no point since I have about 2-3 months until the end of school and then I can go to a 6th form college. Next week, my parents are going to my school to talk to the head of year. I was supposed to go but my parents don't want me going.

Oh, so are you gonna have to go back to school for the next 2 months?

 

[Ms.Squeakers]

I hate my school too much. I've just stopped going. Right now, we're trying to figure things out with the school, like how i'm going to do my GCSEs, how i'm going to learn (the last couple of days, i've been going to a friend's house because they're homeschooled) etc.

In my last year of Primary School, nearly everyone bullied me in my year. Someone even tried strangling me with my tie on my birthday -_- My mum went to the teacher and the principal and they didn't do anything to stop it. I got bullied in yr 7 at Secondary school. They managed to stop it, but it carried on in yr 8. I kept trying to get off school, so I went to a psychiatrist about it but it didn't help much and she moved to Africa... I kept asking to be homeschooled but my parents wouldn't let me. Yr 9 was OK but I was still annoyed at it and still wanted homeschool but no...

In yr 10 it started again and got worse because in Drama, I was being silly with everyone and started to dance, then I went to a group of them at lunch to ask for a sheet so I could scan it, but they wouldn't give it to me unless I danced -_- but I took it off them and made my way back but they took my bag. I got it back but they took it again and made me dance so one of the them could record it on their mobile. I said to them if I find it on YouTube, I would do something about it and she said she wouldn't do anything. About 6 months later, people were taunting me because they had got it on their mobiles and she "didn't know how they got them". Then about a week later people were saying it was on YouTube. The person who put it on there didn't know what had happened so he took it off. It was put up again by someone who wanted it on there. The school made him take it off. The girl who then said she wouldn't put it on there did it on purpose and put another video of me on there. Soon the police had to get involved and she went to the police station for questioning. My friends kept yelling at me because they're also friends with her. Made me feel sad inside.

Yr 11, I couldn't even be in school for a week and sometimes I just wouldn't get out of bed to go. Everyone still makes fun of me for the dancing, they make fun of me for singing, one of them twists my words and spreads rumours about me that everyone taunts me for, my friends won't help me since they taunt me for not coming into school. It's a circle. People taunt me so I don't come into school, so because I don't come into school, people taunt me. They also taunt me for not doing PE and always exagerate the fact i'm in school, or i'm doing PE like it's the first time. I'm pretty shy about some things and when I ask my friends to come and see a teacher with me, they yell at me saying I should just go and so on -_-

Then I've had to go to more psychiatrists and now it's gotten so much for me, i'm just not setting foot in that school again, never.

Glad that's out...

Sorry to rant about my school on your thread about your school Mouse, just wanted to get it out and it's related to the thread kinda...

Oh no!
Not at all.
Go right ahead.
I got through with my mom last night.
We spent a lot of time crying, I skipped my first class today, only to find out the girl who was saying things about me switched up the story and told it like this :


She started crying for no reason at all, and so I looked back at her and she started yelling at me and threatened to kill me (edit: I didnt ACTUALLY threaten to kill her, I threatened to punch or slap, but not kill) then the teacher asked her to go to AIA and she REFUSED and stormed off to the bathroom.

What will her punishment be!?
Expulsion?
PLEASEEEE

-----
I am glad I didnt go,
Otherwise I WOULD have killed her. Now that I think of it....
Shes a yuckypoop and she ticks me off!

My mom really understands me now, I have never felt so much better in my life,
All I have ever wanted was my moms approval and I finally got it.

THEN
She said she doesnt care if I get suspended because it wasnt my fault,
she said she has no care in the world if she has to go up to the principal and talk this through.
I dont care.
I honestly would love that.
I just hate her so much.
I already figured out home school plans that im praying I can have for "Christmas" ;D
8th grade in home school, then high school high school.


I love this plan, its brilliant.

---------------


Basic Idea :

We all need to stick together.
Worldwide.

I knew deep down inside I wasnt the only one.

 

[StitchfansJr]

I hate my school too much. I've just stopped going. Right now, we're trying to figure things out with the school, like how i'm going to do my GCSEs, how i'm going to learn (the last couple of days, i've been going to a friend's house because they're homeschooled) etc.

In my last year of Primary School, nearly everyone bullied me in my year. Someone even tried strangling me with my tie on my birthday -_- My mum went to the teacher and the principal and they didn't do anything to stop it. I got bullied in yr 7 at Secondary school. They managed to stop it, but it carried on in yr 8. I kept trying to get off school, so I went to a psychiatrist about it but it didn't help much and she moved to Africa... I kept asking to be homeschooled but my parents wouldn't let me. Yr 9 was OK but I was still annoyed at it and still wanted homeschool but no...

In yr 10 it started again and got worse because in Drama, I was being silly with everyone and started to dance, then I went to a group of them at lunch to ask for a sheet so I could scan it, but they wouldn't give it to me unless I danced -_- but I took it off them and made my way back but they took my bag. I got it back but they took it again and made me dance so one of the them could record it on their mobile. I said to them if I find it on YouTube, I would do something about it and she said she wouldn't do anything. About 6 months later, people were taunting me because they had got it on their mobiles and she "didn't know how they got them". Then about a week later people were saying it was on YouTube. The person who put it on there didn't know what had happened so he took it off. It was put up again by someone who wanted it on there. The school made him take it off. The girl who then said she wouldn't put it on there did it on purpose and put another video of me on there. Soon the police had to get involved and she went to the police station for questioning. My friends kept yelling at me because they're also friends with her. Made me feel sad inside.

Yr 11, I couldn't even be in school for a week and sometimes I just wouldn't get out of bed to go. Everyone still makes fun of me for the dancing, they make fun of me for singing, one of them twists my words and spreads rumours about me that everyone taunts me for, my friends won't help me since they taunt me for not coming into school. It's a circle. People taunt me so I don't come into school, so because I don't come into school, people taunt me. They also taunt me for not doing PE and always exagerate the fact i'm in school, or i'm doing PE like it's the first time. I'm pretty shy about some things and when I ask my friends to come and see a teacher with me, they yell at me saying I should just go and so on -_-

Then I've had to go to more psychiatrists and now it's gotten so much for me, i'm just not setting foot in that school again, never.

Glad that's out...

Sorry to rant about my school on your thread about your school Mouse, just wanted to get it out and it's related to the thread kinda...

That sucks, George. I know that some other teenagers can be really cruel. I've been made fun of and teased for the stupidest things. I got made fun of because I wore Winnie the Pooh socks. Or sometimes just because I have small feet, I wear velcro shoes..I get teased because of that. I just try to ignore it, but sometimes it still really gets to me, too.

 

[Saintzgurl]

Something like that sort of happened to me, I was already having a rotten day, and at lunch some girl I barely knew reached over into my plate and took a handful of fries. It was the last straw. So...i bit her...

 

[Ms.Squeakers]

I would like to honestly know why Im the kid that always gets picked on.
I do NOTHING to harm anyone and yet people still pick on me, call me hippie, say I smell bad (which, I dont.. I dont think so, I shower every day, I wear perfume on special occasions..)and its always me.
Its never anyone else.
Just me.
I will be sitting there doing nothing but my school work, and I get yelled at for cheating.
Was I?
No. I was not, I was minding my own buisness FURTHER then everyone else in the packet and I get the blame.
I also got YELLED at for crying because I wanted to commit suicide.
Yes.
Thank you for that school systems.
Thank you so much for that.
I hate school.




Does anyone else ever get picked on? Just randomly?
I feel so weird, and left out...yet brought into the conversation ONLY to say bad things...

 

[Babyjustrun]

I'm really really sorry you're getting picked on =/
I really hope that someone does start paying attention.

I'd love to tell you things will get better when you get older because things did for me. Those people who made my life hell (who were supposedly my friends), who made me hate myself, grew up and matured and now they're my best friends ever. High school has been so good for me. I feel so detached from those people who I was forced to see all day everyday in middle school. I hated middle school for that reason, I hated having to spend every single waking moment of school with the same 24 people.