Oh my goodness I HAVE SO MUCH TO TELL YOU ALL.
I'm not even sure to begin. It seems like I never have anything interesting to tell you all, and then BOOM. It all happens at once.
I feel like I am about to type a lot for this next part of my life adventure, so before I get into everything, here is a photo of me in front of the Castle, to start my story off with some Disney joy!
WARNING: This is going to be a word-y post, and a bit all over the place because its 4AM and I can't sleep!!!!!
As I mentioned last time, I have been stressing out about money. Well, I have been doing a lot of thinking and the stress has been growing more and more. The family I was staying with was concerned about my money situation, as I have paid them rent a few days late last month, and a day late this month. On top of that, the car I was using is still registered under them, and now we finally got all the paperwork in the mail to sign over to car me. (and just because I know someone is bound to bring it up, yes they were still insured on the car, and I still had insurance as well.) They have been nice enough to allow me to use their car this whole summer without me having paid anything to them for it. They had the means to help me out, and did so. I will forever appreciate that! However, I had a talk with them a week ago, and their situation is a bit different right now and it had come time for me to start to pay more rent& for the car if I am going to keep it. As I came closer to the time to sign the car over to my name I talked with the family about what price they would find acceptable for me to pay monthly for rent + a car payment. I also did the math on what it would cost for me to register the car, get my own insurance, and all that fun stuff. My Massachusetts drivers license also expires this month and I need a new photo, so that also means paying to transfer to a Florida license.
It is too much.
Don't get me wrong, it's not like I didn't see this coming. I have been trying and planning to save for registering the car and everything. I was told that for the summer time I would be getting 30-40 hour weeks, but the average has been about 15. However, I am struggling so much right now just to pay rent and make my monthly payments on my old car loan. I can't do it. I can't even see having enough just to register the car and get it on the road anytime soon. Nevermind, paying a higher rent/car payment, as well as my old payment and insurance. (Ew, this post sounds so boring and adult-y!! Is anyone even still reading this?! hahaha)
I can't do it. I can't fight this fight anymore. There are options, and ways to make this work. I would have to find a job I could walk to as either a second or full time job. I would have to find a way to work by taxi or just leave Disney in hopes of coming back. If I really wanted to stay in Florida that bad, I could do this... but I don't want to. I came here to make magic, and that is what I want to do. I don't want to want to walk to work in the heat every day. I don't want to work at a restaurant or supermarket for months. Even if I did, I am not sure how much I would make. I don't want to be carless on my days off and have no where to go. I can't handle the stress. Once again, I realize I am young and don't even have a lot of bills to pay, but like I said in my previous post, I can barely handle what I have right now.
(Just to clear this up for you all, I don't want it to sound like I just bummed off this random, nice family for the summer and I'm just peace-ing out, I have had open communication with them the whole time about how happy and thankful I was to be there, as well as the struggle I was having with money. They told me if I end up having to go back home after the summer and didn't buy the car that was fine.)
Many of you have PM'd me about setting up a page to send me money. As I was trying to decide what do to with my life, I was tempted. I was thinking of making a gofundme page with my story for friends and familiy and anyone willing to help me live out my dream, but that's just so not me. Some offers I have gotten are so temping, but I can't do it. If anyone is going to donate money, I want it going to Give Kids the World. But, thank you to everyone who has offered to help.
I have been sitting in my room, poor, and living off of ramen noodles. I think if one more ramen noodle enters my body, my heart will explode. I feel like crap and have been eating like crap. I have been staying up late nights, thinking, and making pro and con lists. I have been going insane, but I have made a decision. I am moving back to Boston.
There I am, sitting in my room snuggled up and sad. I don't want to give up on Disney, but its become too overwhelming.
I was going to use my final paycheck to book a flight home, but after telling the news to my mother she decided to take a road trip to come get me! Because I have been stressing out about not having a car or money, I already have myself set up with a job interview at a salon in Boston for next Thursday! I am writing to you all from the hotel room of Pop Century where my mother and I are staying for a night before hitting the road! I know! You all must be reading this like, "WHAT IS GOING ON!!!???!" Well, I kind of feel the same way. Everything has happened so fast. But, aren't you guys used to this yet?! My life is crazy, and always changing!!!! What could be next for me?!?!
I have had so many emotions this past week. I feel defeated. I went through so much already with my car situation, I just don't have much fight left in me. The thought of going back home to Boston in time for my favorite season didn't sound so bad either. But, what about all of you? All the encouragment? All the people I have inspired? What about all the families that would be missing out on a photoshoot with me, the best photographer in Magic Kingdom? ( LOL

) I was not sure what would happen with Disney. I just got promoted from seasonal to part time, but it did not take effect until the end of September. I assumed that I would have to go give my 2 week notice, and leave. I thought there may be a small possibility that since I wasn't technically part time yet, maybe I could stay seasonal and keep my job, but I wouldn't know until I spoke with a manager.
My mom arrived here, and after a night of sleep we went to Magic Kingdom for the day, and my last time.. for now. I ran into some friends and they were so shocked when I told them the news of my decision to move back to Boston. I can't believe this was happening. I was so sad as I walked down Main Street... but that is the thing I love about WDW, it's home. It's the only constant. It will always be there waiting for me. I thought this as I started to tear up. I know I would be back someday, but I was so scared. What I wasn't sure of, is would I be back on Main Street making magic again? Nothing beats that, and I wasn't sure I would experience it again. My mom and I stopped to take a classic MK photo to remember this quick visit.
After going on some of our favorite attractions, and getting a starbucks (WHICH I AM STILL UPSET THAT THEY ARE IN DISNEY BTW

), I decided it was time to go talk with a manger, talk about my options, and probably give my two week notice.
I told my mom to meet me by First Aid. She needed a band-aid and I realized I never have been into first aid before! It would be something that was a new Disney experience for me so I made her wait for me so I could go in with her! haahaha. That is so silly but it was excited to see a new place there! Do you guys think I am crazy or would you do the same thing !???!
ANWAYS....
I spoke with my manager and walked back over to first aid to meet my mom to tell her how it went.
I............
AM STILL A SEASONAL CAST MEMBER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I don't have to leave Disney after all!!







I was able to still decline my part-time position and remain a seasonal cast member! I am seriously the happiest girl in the world right now!
For those of you would may not be sure what this means I will explain it! I am still a little confused by it, but I will try to explain to the best of my ability. A seasonal cast member has to work 150 hours when they first get hired (I worked that this summer) and then have to make sure they work 150 hours by the next year in order to remain seasonal. So, I put my hours in this summer, so now by next September I have to work 150 hours again. This way I am still able to be a cast member and keep all the benefits.
This makes me feel so much better about everything. Sure, I didn't succeed in moving here on my own and living the Orlando lifestyle. I didn't succeed in working as Disney full time and becoming a trainer. But I am still a cast member. I get to go home, enjoy the beautiful fall weather and still say that this summer wasn't pointless! It was the beginning of my career with Disney and who knows where that will go!
I have no idea what is next for me in life, or what I will end up doing in Boston. For now, I will sleep tight, just happy to know that it seems wishes really do come true.
It is now 5:30 am and I am exhausted. I hope this story I just shared makes sense, it was so much information to share. Thank you all for following along and putting up with me.
Until next time, Magic Kingdom.