Why is it so difficult? (Long and sad - sorry) - Updated

[Mom-to-3]

I'd like to recommend www.petloss.com -- but have some tissues ready! Also, it has music (if someone is online at work).

As you scroll down the first page, you'll think you are at the bottom of the page but just keep going. There is a site index and summaries of the various areas.

May I share two things that seemed to help me a little?

You did the best that you could. Don't torture yourself with 'what ifs'.

Kelly knew you loved him until the moment he passed away.


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[Feralpeg]

I'm so sorry. Your baby is at peace now.

 

[chell]

Originally posted by Mom-to-3
Don't torture yourself with 'what ifs'.

Have you been inside my head this evening? I'm really trying not to.

Thanks everyone! I'm sorry to come on here in such a mess. I usually don't like to open up, but I just needed something to help me through this.

Someone said they thought he was waiting to be back in my arms before he passed on. He might have. I had been holding him a lot. The past few nights he had been sleeping with me and last night I just couldn't let go of him. He would sleep with is head on my shoulder and his face snuggled up against mine.

The very first moment I saw him I fell in love with him. He was limping through the church parking lot behind my house. As soon as I called him he came right to me. I picked him up and brought him into my home and my heart. I only had 8 short months with my baby, but he will always be a part of me and always live inside of me.

Within a week of taking him in he could walk normal again and was just as happy as could be. He was the most loving cat I had ever seen. He was my baby.

 

[luvmydogs]

I'm so very, very sorry, Michelle. It must have been a comfort for him to have you there as he found his peace. You couldn't have done anymore.

I know as I type this your sweet baby is having a good old time with my babies--Boo, Murphy, Misha and Mandy--they were a hoot and I'm sure they still are.

I'm sorry you're feeling so sad. It will take time to heal--the loss of a loved is so very painful. Take heart in the fact that you loved and cared for one of God's creatures--I bet Kelly lead a life of luxury!

A prayer said for your strength and peace. May you soon remember Kelly with smiles instead of tears.

 

[mickey65]

I'm so sorry Michelle I lost my baby 3 months ago, I know how very difficult it is. I also reccommend www.petloss.com
There is a chat room there that has people 24/7. They are the people that saved me in my deepest times of sorrow. You will be in my thoughts. May you find peace in knowing that Kelly was met at the bridge by all the other bridge kids, and that she is free of pain now.

 

[4greatboys]

Im so sorry for your loss Chell

 

[minniecarousel]

...hang in there....

{{{{{{HUGS}}}}}}

 

[theSurlyMermaid]

Oh, chell! I am so sorry! I am actually stunned here.



I don't know what to say. I'm truly shocked.

We're all here for you. If you need to talk, I'm only a PM away.

*speechless*

 

[shelbyjosh]

Hugs, hugs, and more hugs. I am so sorry you are going thru this. I know my day is coming. My little Mittens is 15 this month. He seems to be in good health, even though I can tell he has lost some weight. I can't imagine what it will be like without him. He is the first pet I have ever owned. I hope the next few days will be better for you. He is in a better place now and looking down on you.

 

[lynetteSC]

I am so sorry! Lots of hugs coming your way!!!! I will be thinking about you guys!

 

[mickeyboat]

chell -

I am so very sorry for your loss. I am sending hugs.

Denae

 

[browneyes]

I'm sorry about your furbaby, Chell. They give us so much pleasure, so much happiness in the time we have with them. When they're gone, we have so much sadness.

 

[Dan Murphy]

So saorry to read this, Michelle, so very sad. You did little Kelly so much good, he did so much for you right back. 8 months of a better life, 8 months of sharing life together, a lifetime, really. Good wishes for you, Michelle, know that little Kelly is there, waiting, just like he was wating for you to come home, one more time.......

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<h1 align="center"><img hspace="5" src="http://www.petloss.com/poems/maingrp/rbowx.gif" width="74" height="37">Rainbow Bridge <img src="http://www.petloss.com/poems/maingrp/rbowx.gif" width="74" height="37"></h1>
</font>
<center><p><font size="+1" face="Comic Sans MS">Just this side of heaven is a place
called Rainbow Bridge.<br>
When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet
goes to Rainbow Bridge.<br>
There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and
play together.<br>
There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and
comfortable.<br>
All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor; those
who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember
them in our dreams of days and times gone by.<br>
The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss
someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.<br>
They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and
looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent; His eager body quivers.
Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs
carrying him faster and faster.<br>
You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you
cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses
rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once
more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never
absent from your heart.<br>
Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together....<br>
Author unknown...</font></p></center>

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[avdeane]

chell,

I am so sorry for your loss. Your kitty is now free of pain and knew a very much loved life while he was with you. Take some comfort in your sweet memories of him. Give your pup a hug from me too.

 

[J&D]

 

[wishuponastarforever]

 

[AuroraluvsPhillip]

I am crying too...I am so sorry for your loss. It was wonderful that you and Kelly could snuggle at the end. She knows how much you cared for her. Take care of yourself and your doggie...you need each other for support now.

 

[Breezy_Carol]

I am very sorry for the loss of your beloved Kelly.

 

[chell]

Thank you everyone. I really appreciate all of the kind words and the very nice PM's too. This has been much more difficult than I ever thought it could be, but I know I will get through.

To those who have cried with me thank you and I'm sorry that I made you cry.

At times last night was difficult because I could hear him meowing and I could "feel" him jump up on the bed and crawl up on me. I know my mind was playing tricks on me.