Why is it so difficult? (Long and sad - sorry) - Updated

[chell]

Why does it have to be so difficult having fur babies? Some of you may remember my post about my sick kitty last week. Again, I would like to thank everyone for their hugs, prayers and thoughts.

Poor Kelly just isn't doing well at all. He has lost his vision in his right eye and can't move his right side. I don't know if he has had a stroke or what. We believe he was having seizures over the weekend.

He goes back to the vet on Wednesday. Honestly, I really dread taking him because I know what she is going to say. I don't want to hear it. I don't want to loose my baby. But how can I be sure that he isn't in pain and that he isn't suffering. Because I'll carry him around every single day and I'll feed him by hand every single day just to keep him in my life.

For the past hour he has been trying to eat his supper. He had been able to at least eat off of the plate, but not today. Today he scraped the food off and put it on his bad leg. He will take a few bites from it, and then lay his head back down and rest. Then he will eat a little more.

He doesn't act like he is in pain. He is making an effort to eat.

He still loves to be loved on too. He has been sleeping with me and last night he had his head on my shoulder and was snuggled up against my face.

I don't want to loose my baby. I want to know what happened to cause this. I want to know if someone hurt him.

I'm sorry for such a long post, but I guess I just needed to vent. Thanks for letting me do that.

 

[DisneyBug1995]

 

[HauntedMansionGeek]

It's nice to have a loving pet but sometimes it's just time to let them go. The poor dear.........

it is heartbreaking isn't it?
I hope you can find it in your heart to let go if/when you have to. Obviously it is impossible to know if our pets are actually "suffering" or not....so sometimes we just have to think of their comfort and not about our own hurting hearts.

My heart goes out to you. This stuff is NEVER easy. *hugs* as you walk along this sad path with your animal pal.

 

[DopeyRN]

I'm really sorry. It is such a balancing act...they are such a joy to have, add so much to our lives. But they just have such a short time with us and losing them is so hard. Personally, I cannot ever imagine not having fur babies. {{{Hugs}}}

 

[jx3smom]

I know what you are going through. Hugs to you. I lost 4 fur babies last year and am losing one now. I will not get any more! It hurts so much. Two brothers died last year, 9 days apart and their sister is failing big time. She is 17 and 1 month. She is deaf, and has lost her vision the last few days. She also has a tumor. So far she doesn't seem to be in pain and is eating but is very confused. Funny thing is I still have her mom. She's over 18 and doing well.

 

[luvmydogs]

I'm so sorry, Michelle. So many of us here feel that our pets are important members of our families, and it can hurt so much to see those we love not well or in pain.

You are doing the best you can for your sweet Kelly. All he needs from you is your love and care and I'm sure he's getting tons!

I do hope your vet appt. on Wed. goes well and that you receive some hopeful news. Prayers for you both, and some extra chin-tickles for sweet Kelly.

 

[KristaTX]

I'm so sorry to hear about your poor little Kelly. I have 2 kitties myself, and I know just how much we all love our little furbabies. Sounds like you are being a great mama to your little guy.

Krista

 

[two4ruff]

I wish I knew something wise and comforting to say...I've had my heartbroken too by my pets and know words don't make it hurt less.

Saying a prayer...

 

[sissybells]

I just wanted to say I'm Sorry. I hope everything is OK.

 

[chell]

Thanks everyone. You are all so sweet.

 

[wishuponastarforever]

My heart breaks for you - I've been where you are - May the below poem help. No fur baby takes the place of another. We love them for themselves. I'm not implying there is a replacement.

Trust me there is another in need who needs love if you have to make the ultimate loving sacrifice for Kelly.

Stray Cat
by Francis Witham

Oh, what uphappy twist of fate
Has brought you homeless to my gate?
The gate where once another stood
To beg for shelter, warmth and food
For from that day I ceased to be
The master of my destiny.

While he, with purr and velvet paw
became within my house the law
He scrated the furniture and shed
and claimed the middle of my bed

He ruled in arrogance and pride
and broke my heart the day he died
So if you really think, oh cat
I'd willingly relive all that
Because you come forlorn and thin
Well, don't just stand there....come on in!





Each wonderful creature is worth the love!!

 

[chell]

Originally posted by wishuponastarforever
My heart breaks for you - I've been where you are - May the below poem help. No fur baby takes the place of another. We love them for themselves. I'm not implying there is a replacement.

Trust me there is another in need who needs love if you have to make the ultimate loving sacrifice for Kelly.

Stray Cat
by Francis Witham

Oh, what uphappy twist of fate
Has brought you homeless to my gate?
The gate where once another stood
To beg for shelter, warmth and food
For from that day I ceased to be
The master of my destiny.

While he, with purr and velvet paw
became within my house the law
He scrated the furniture and shed
and claimed the middle of my bed

He ruled in arrogance and pride
and broke my heart the day he died
So if you really think, oh cat
I'd willingly relive all that
Because you come forlorn and thin
Well, don't just stand there....come on in!





Each wonderful creature is worth the love!!

Thank you for this. I'm going to print it out. My Kelly was a stray. Poor thing was starving when I found him and was having trouble walking. But in no time I nursed him back to health.

I can't believe this has hit me so hard.

Again, thanks everyone! It means so much to me.

 

[NC Belle]

From NC Beast and me---hugs

 

[Virgo10]

This is one of my favorite poems. It was originally written for dogs.

I will lend to you for awhile,
a cat, God said,
For you to love him while he lives
and mourn for him when he's dead.

Maybe for twelve or fourteen years,
or maybe two or three
But will you, 'till I call him back,
take care of him for me.

He'll bring his charms to gladden you
and (should his stay be brief)
you'll always have his memories
as solace for your grief.

I cannot promise he will stay,
since all from earth return
But there are lessons taught below
I want this cat to learn.

I've looked the whole world over
in search of teachers true
And from the folk that crowd's life's land
I have chosen you.

Now will you give him all your love
Nor think the labour vain,
Nor hate me when I come to take my cat back again.

I fancied that I heard them say
"Dear Lord Thy Will be Done,"
For all the joys this cat will bring,
the risk of grief we'll run.
We'll shelter him with tenderness
we'll love him while we may
And for the happiness we've known
forever grateful stay.

But should you call him back
much sooner than we've planned,
We'll brave the bitter grief that comes,
and try to understand.

If, by our love, we've managed,
your wishes to achieve
In memory of him we loved,
to help us while we grieve.

When our faithful bundle departs this world of strife,
We'll have yet another cat and love him all his life.

-author unknown



My thoughts are with you and your precious kitty.

Roberta

 

[avdeane]

chell,

My thoughts and prayers are with you and Kelly. They sure grab hold of our hearts and it hurts deeply to watch them hurt. Kelly is obviously very loved and very fortunate to have lived his life with someone whos cares so deeply for him.

 

[EsmeraldaX]

 

[Tinkerbelle739]

I can relate. We lost our kitty on Memorial Day Weekend. She was 12. We had a funeral for her and I cried for days. My DH said to me, "Do you want to go and get a new kitten?" I did look at the shelter but found no kitten was even close to our lost kitty. It just did not feel right. Then I fell in love with 2 brother kittens from a local pet store. We adopted them 2 weeks ago and they are wonderful. We named them Tigger and Pooh. I understand the pain of losing a kitty. It is also painful to watch them suffer. Letting them go, sometimes, is the most loving thing you can do for them.

 

[DMickey28]

Michelle~I am so sorry. I know how hard it is with fur babies... they become your "real" babies. Hopefully the vet will be able to make him better....

 

[chell]

Thank you everyone. When I came home today his breathing was much worse and I could tell the end was very near. I decided to take him to the vet to let the vet make it easier on him. you just don't know how difficult that was for me. I had been praying and asking God to take him home before it came to that. He answered my prayer because just as we turned into the vet's parking lot Kelly took his last breath. He died in my arms.

Sorry if I have lots of typos or whatever, but I'm crying and don't have my glasses on. I just wanted to thank all of my wonderful DIS friends who have been here for me.

My dog is so sad because she knows something is wrong. They were very close.

 

[Virgo10]

I know he is playing at the Bridge with my kitties right now!

Roberta