Thanks, Linda.
I don't think my reasons are as noble.

First of all, I'm easily bored, I think I have ADD. No, seriously

And I like the idea of keeping moving and on the go and doing different things. I also like all of the possibilties that nursing offers. I wouldn't mind sitting at a desk, however, if I were doing research. I LOVE to research things. Anything that can keep my mind moving. If my sisters or Steven and of course ESPECIALLY me needs or wants to know anything about anything they come to ask me because they know I'll start researching it to death. I may forget what I read after I present the info to you

but I love the hunt of the research (kind of like feeling empowered by zeroing out the budget

). But, I definately like to keep my mind occupied. Before I moved down here I used to go back to the place where I had worked full time in the HR department just to help out in different departments. This one manager HATED to be by herself. Absolutely hated it so when her office girl (there were only two of them in the office) was out sick or whatever she would call me in . . . . to just sit there
. I didn't know anything about her office procedures so alls I did was anwer her phone. That's it. Oh, and play on the computer. I wanted to stick a pencil in my eye!! I was sooo bored. But, I did it more because we were friends (we still talk on the phone and email even now) and I knew she HATED to be by herself and she would rather pay me to sit there all day and do NOTHING than be alone. Oh, other people thought that would be the BEST job. Me, I hated it. I was bored. So, there's the long reason #1. The second reason is I love the prospect of working 3/12's. I think that would be super!! Seriously, I would SOOOOO love it!! Thirdly, the pay. Who can argue with the pay? Of course I've heard that there are much better things to do for the pay

(that's not me who said it but others to me. I think nurse's are super, super people!!) But the pay is great and the hours are great. And lastly, I like helping people too, but it's not my life. Like for instance, I HATE customer service!! Absolutely hate it because society as a whole seems so much more rude and demanding. Helping people I like, obviously, when they're receptive to it. But, when you're trying to help and they get mean

and mouthy. I get scared.
So, there ya' go. I'm 32 and have no idea what I want to do with my life. I always thought I wanted to be a wife and mom
as you all know but now I'm actually getting used to the idea of no kids but I really would like to have something rewarding, something with purpose in my life (if I can't have kids

). I'd just like to do it and actually get enjoyment out of it too.
I've got that book,
What Color Is Your Parachute but I've just got to get into it. Maybe that could give me some direction.
Sorry this is so long. . .

And thanks for listening.
ETA:: Not that I'm giving up on children. I'd be blessed to have them but for too long I slumped in the valley of despair because I couldn't/didn't have children. I don't want to be there anymore and I just need a focus. If it happens, it happens. For me, it's a physical/medical condition problem that I know I have. Remember, I already had to have one tube and ovary removed so I know I'm already at a disadvantage but it
could still happen. But, if it doesn't I'm ok with it.