When Did I Get Voted Off of Skinny Island & Why is This Fat Shadow Stalking Me?

[ancestry]

UURRGGHH!

I have had the most horrible peanut butter cravings all week long. The ONLY thing I want to eat is peanut butter. I managed to find a healthier organic peanut butter but it is still high in fat and calories although it isn't quite as bad as the regular stuff.

Plus I've only made it to the gym twice this week due to work related deadlines. And I probably won't be able to go tomorrow if I want to finish this project on time.

These two things combined mean that I am probably not going to have much if any weight loss for the week.

Okay vent over....back to work....just ignore me...I had to scream somewhere!

 

[stitchfan23]

Holy Smokes, go on vacation for a week and everyone has lots to say. I have spent a good part of the afternoon catching up. I am only back for a week until I am gone again so please don't post as much when I am gone the next time

I tried to do well in Disney and I think I was pretty sucessful although I am not stepping on a scale until Monday. I don't really want to know yet. I did come home with a cold though so that is not fun.

I was really happy to see a couple of other Canadian gals have joinned. Now someone will know what I am talking about when I mention Canadian things

Well just wanted to post that i was back and will check in again in the next day or so. My cold is making my eyes hurt (if that is even possible) so I will sign off for now.

 

[zoegirl]

The site wanted me to set a 12 wk goal. I put 20 lbs which is still less than 2 lbs a week and it said it was too much. For my weight the most I'm supposed to lose in 12 wks is 17 lbs. I figured my mom's number and she weighs quite a bit less than me and she's not supposed to lose more than 11 lbs in 12 wks. So that made me feel better as far as the rate of weight loss goes.

The site wants me to deficit 700 cals a day to lose the 17 lbs in 12 wks. I'm curious if the actual bodybogg login has yet another goal of calories/needs etc. It seems like every site I read I get a different caloric goal. UGH!

Hope everyone is having a great day!!!

I've always heard that 1-2 lbs per week was good. I'm real interested to see what they tell you to do to burn 700 calories per day (if I'm understanding your post correctly). My guess is a lot of cardio. Please keep us posted.

Ate within my points again today. Thursday evenings are usually our family night to go out to eat, and usually the night that I use some of my flex points to eat something yummy. I wanted pizza & garlic knots, & a salad ( you know for fiber ) but the boys picked taco bell (gross) then the kid saw the chick-fil-a beside taco bell & decided that's what he wanted. It was his night to pick so that's where we ate. SOOOOO not what i wanted on my splurge night so I didn't waste the points and ate soup & salad. It was a small victory for me b/c the old me would've eaten the fried chicken sandwich with fries b/c I was sulking not getting my way. Yes, sabotaging only myself in the process....so glad I've figured this out.

~bree~

 

[Stacybaeasm]

I had a rough night last night. My new upstairs neighbor has always been loud since he moved in - you know, one of those people who stomps everywhere, seems to run a lot, that kind of thing. Well, last night about 10:15, there was a LOT of noise up there, running, things slamming on the floor, yelling, and then I heard a female screaming "Ow. Stop it. YOu're Hurting me" over and over. Well, that was it for me, I was out of my apartment and up those stairs faster than I have probably moved in a long time. I pounded on the door and when the guy answered, I let him have it. I told him the noise was unacceptable and the fighting was out of control and if it didn't stop this minute, I was calling the police. Then, I demanded that I see the girl to be sure she was ok. She poked her head out of the bathroom and was crying with makeup all over her face. I couldn't tell if he had hit her or not. I asked if she was ok and she nodded yes. I then told her that if it EVER got bad, she felt she was in danger or he hit her again, all she had to do was go to any apartment in our part of the complex and ask for help and anyone would be glad to. I then looked at the guy again and said "Seriously, ANYTHING else happens and I will call the cops." I went back downstairs and I was shaking, I was so angry. About 10 minutes later, I heard more thumping, quiet yelling, and him saying "Be quiet, be quiet." I called the cops and reported a domestic. I know the cops came but I don't know what happened from there. At least it stopped for the night, but I'm sure the guy knows who called the police on him. But, there was nothing else I could do. I wasn't going to let anyone abuse, physically or mentally, anyone else. Ever. Not on my watch.

All of that, combined with my normal insomnia, meant I got a total of 45 minutes sleep last night. I feel like work is going to be really hard today. And probably eating will be too. When you don't get any sleep, you are hungier than normal. Can't wait to see how this plays out on the scale.

 

[Mndisneygirl]

I had a rough night last night. My new upstairs neighbor has always been loud since he moved in - you know, one of those people who stomps everywhere, seems to run a lot, that kind of thing. Well, last night about 10:15, there was a LOT of noise up there, running, things slamming on the floor, yelling, and then I heard a female screaming "Ow. Stop it. YOu're Hurting me" over and over. Well, that was it for me, I was out of my apartment and up those stairs faster than I have probably moved in a long time. I pounded on the door and when the guy answered, I let him have it. I told him the noise was unacceptable and the fighting was out of control and if it didn't stop this minute, I was calling the police. Then, I demanded that I see the girl to be sure she was ok. She poked her head out of the bathroom and was crying with makeup all over her face. I couldn't tell if he had hit her or not. I asked if she was ok and she nodded yes. I then told her that if it EVER got bad, she felt she was in danger or he hit her again, all she had to do was go to any apartment in our part of the complex and ask for help and anyone would be glad to. I then looked at the guy again and said "Seriously, ANYTHING else happens and I will call the cops." I went back downstairs and I was shaking, I was so angry. About 10 minutes later, I heard more thumping, quiet yelling, and him saying "Be quiet, be quiet." I called the cops and reported a domestic. I know the cops came but I don't know what happened from there. At least it stopped for the night, but I'm sure the guy knows who called the police on him. But, there was nothing else I could do. I wasn't going to let anyone abuse, physically or mentally, anyone else. Ever. Not on my watch.

All of that, combined with my normal insomnia, meant I got a total of 45 minutes sleep last night. I feel like work is going to be really hard today. And probably eating will be too. When you don't get any sleep, you are hungier than normal. Can't wait to see how this plays out on the scale.

You should be proud of yourself. I'm so glad you spoke up and called the police. You may have saved that woman's life. She needed to know there was someone there to help and he needed to know he wasn't going to get away with that bull#$#@! Realize how strong you are and remember to eat healthy like a strong person!!!

 

[luvsJack]

Sorry I haven't been around much this week. I'm feeling really down about life, weight loss, everything so I haven't been much fun to be around. I"m hoping to pull out of it soon. We'll see. Meanwhile, I have managed not to eat my depression away. I know that would just make things worse because I know it is the scale that is at the root of this one.

I have been feeling the same way! Time to get each other on the up swing! I think I have stayed the same so far this week but it has not been easy!

I have been at the ball field every night this week without time to cook before or after so I am tired; plus all this emotional junk going on. I have just been feeling down and on the verge of tears most days and a situation with my mother certainly has NOT helped.

I am hoping to get myself kick started back into gear and ready to go again!

I saw a coworker yesterday that I have not seen in a couple of months and she looks WONDERFUL!! She eats only veggies, fruits, (as much of it is fresh as possible) fish and chicken and drinks water and green tea. She works out when possible but has a very demanding position and is very late leaving work most nights so says she only work out, at most 2 nights a week. Seeing her has been a motivator for me to get going again.

 

[mom2faith]

I've been doing some research on the bodybugg site and was able to figure out my basic caloric need, my resting metabolic rate, what they want me to consume and what they want me burning. Very interesting. The site is their unofficial site so anyone can do the calculations. I'll get a log in account when the bugg arrives but for now I am playing around. There's a whole thread on their forums devoted to what um bedroom activities yield the most calorie burn. I was cracking up reading it!

The site wanted me to set a 12 wk goal. I put 20 lbs which is still less than 2 lbs a week and it said it was too much. For my weight the most I'm supposed to lose in 12 wks is 17 lbs. I figured my mom's number and she weighs quite a bit less than me and she's not supposed to lose more than 11 lbs in 12 wks. So that made me feel better as far as the rate of weight loss goes.

The site wants me to deficit 700 cals a day to lose the 17 lbs in 12 wks. I'm curious if the actual bodybogg login has yet another goal of calories/needs etc. It seems like every site I read I get a different caloric goal. UGH!

Hope everyone is having a great day!!!

I am very interested in your feedback on the bodybugg!! I personally shoot for the 2lbs per week and eat calories accoring to My Fitness Pal, which has me at 1250 (but I usually eat about 1500). But last night I was STARVING - I mean FAMISHED!! So, I had a bowl of oatmeal at 7:30. Not great, but better than chips. Much to my surprise, when I weighed in this morning I am down 3.0 lbs so far this week!! with 2 days to go (granted they are the hard two days - I hate weekends!!)So, now I am wondering if my crappy feeling yesterday was a combination of too much water and too few calories. I am going to keep a closer eye on it for sure, there is no need to starve myself. I want this to be a healthy change, not starvation mode!!

UURRGGHH!

I have had the most horrible peanut butter cravings all week long. The ONLY thing I want to eat is peanut butter. I managed to find a healthier organic peanut butter but it is still high in fat and calories although it isn't quite as bad as the regular stuff.

Plus I've only made it to the gym twice this week due to work related deadlines. And I probably won't be able to go tomorrow if I want to finish this project on time.

These two things combined mean that I am probably not going to have much if any weight loss for the week.

Okay vent over....back to work....just ignore me...I had to scream somewhere!

Peanut butter is a good fat!! You should allow yourself some of it, especially if you are craving it. I like to have it with apples and then it really makes me feel like I am having a healthy snack. Even WW suggests a portion of "good fats" everyday. Just don't go crazy!! (Licking the bottom of the jar is a sign you are overdoing it!!)

I was really happy to see a couple of other Canadian gals have joinned. Now someone will know what I am talking about when I mention Canadian things

Well just wanted to post that i was back and will check in again in the next day or so. My cold is making my eyes hurt (if that is even possible) so I will sign off for now.

You mean like Tim Hortons Cafe Mocha?? MMMMMMMMM My weakness!!

Hope you are feeling better.

I had a rough night last night. My new upstairs neighbor has always been loud since he moved in - you know, one of those people who stomps everywhere, seems to run a lot, that kind of thing. Well, last night about 10:15, there was a LOT of noise up there, running, things slamming on the floor, yelling, and then I heard a female screaming "Ow. Stop it. YOu're Hurting me" over and over. Well, that was it for me, I was out of my apartment and up those stairs faster than I have probably moved in a long time. I pounded on the door and when the guy answered, I let him have it. I told him the noise was unacceptable and the fighting was out of control and if it didn't stop this minute, I was calling the police. Then, I demanded that I see the girl to be sure she was ok. She poked her head out of the bathroom and was crying with makeup all over her face. I couldn't tell if he had hit her or not. I asked if she was ok and she nodded yes. I then told her that if it EVER got bad, she felt she was in danger or he hit her again, all she had to do was go to any apartment in our part of the complex and ask for help and anyone would be glad to. I then looked at the guy again and said "Seriously, ANYTHING else happens and I will call the cops." I went back downstairs and I was shaking, I was so angry. About 10 minutes later, I heard more thumping, quiet yelling, and him saying "Be quiet, be quiet." I called the cops and reported a domestic. I know the cops came but I don't know what happened from there. At least it stopped for the night, but I'm sure the guy knows who called the police on him. But, there was nothing else I could do. I wasn't going to let anyone abuse, physically or mentally, anyone else. Ever. Not on my watch.

All of that, combined with my normal insomnia, meant I got a total of 45 minutes sleep last night. I feel like work is going to be really hard today. And probably eating will be too. When you don't get any sleep, you are hungier than normal. Can't wait to see how this plays out on the scale.

WOW!! GREAT JOB!! You should be proud of yourself. I am very impressed and quite humbled to say that I "know" some one who stuck up for a stranger in an abusive situation!!

I have been feeling the same way! Time to get each other on the up swing! I think I have stayed the same so far this week but it has not been easy!

I have been at the ball field every night this week without time to cook before or after so I am tired; plus all this emotional junk going on. I have just been feeling down and on the verge of tears most days and a situation with my mother certainly has NOT helped.

I am hoping to get myself kick started back into gear and ready to go again!

I saw a coworker yesterday that I have not seen in a couple of months and she looks WONDERFUL!! She eats only veggies, fruits, (as much of it is fresh as possible) fish and chicken and drinks water and green tea. She works out when possible but has a very demanding position and is very late leaving work most nights so says she only work out, at most 2 nights a week. Seeing her has been a motivator for me to get going again.

Nothing like a skinny friend to get you motivated!! I have one of those and as much as I want to punchher in the throat everytime I see her, I also know I have a lot to learn from her.


As I said, last night I had a snack after supper which is something I have sworn not to do, but I was still -3.0 lbs this morning so I am not going to beat myself up for it. I ate because I was hungry - not out of boredom, not becuase of emotions, but because I was hungry.

Today is a gloomy icky day here, so I also lack motivation. I am just focusing on staying strong for the weekend. I have a gathering tomorrow that will invovle alcohol, so I am a but worried about the extra calories. I am going to take it easy and cut my drinks with water and I swaer I will not over do it!

Have a great day everyone!! I will check in later.

Amy

 

[mom2faith]

Slow board today ladies....I guess everyone is off getting ready for the weekend.

I am experiencing my first day of Diet Blues. You know the ones you get when you are about 10 days into eating healthy, where you feel like you have lost your best friend? I know food was not my friend, and in fact was at times my worst enemy, but I still feel that longing to go FILL MY FACE!!

Yup, I am missing my BFF. What was his name again, OH, HENRY that was it. And, he is from MARS. He used to visit me with his sisters KIT & KAT. We had MOUNDS of fun! We often watch BABY RUTH play baseball together and we would SNICKER when he struck out with his BUTTERFINGERS. The bat would CRUNCH as he tossed it aside.

OK. Eoungh with the mournful cheesiness, but you can see I am just having one of those days

 

[Mndisneygirl]

Slow board today ladies....I guess everyone is off getting ready for the weekend.

I am experiencing my first day of Diet Blues. You know the ones you get when you are about 10 days into eating healthy, where you feel like you have lost your best friend? I know food was not my friend, and in fact was at times my worst enemy, but I still feel that longing to go FILL MY FACE!!

Yup, I am missing my BFF. What was his name again, OH, HENRY that was it. And, he is from MARS. He used to visit me with his sisters KIT & KAT. We had MOUNDS of fun! We often watch BABY RUTH play baseball together and we would SNICKER when he struck out with his BUTTERFINGERS. The bat would CRUNCH as he tossed it aside.

OK. Eoungh with the mournful cheesiness, but you can see I am just having one of those days

That was good. I feel like that too - some days I just don't want to diet/eat healthy. So I will allow myself a small something so I don't then go overboard and pig out. Although I know that doesn't work for everyone (sometimes even for me) because it's hard to stop at just one piece of candy or whatever.
I didn't eat a real lunch today and have been nibbling. Mostly healthy nibbles though. I've got to eat a good dinner. Have roast beef in the crock pot and hoping it will shred up soon.

Dawn- hope your sale didn't get too much rain! I know there were some scattered showers here today.

 

[luvsJack]

Nothing like a skinny friend to get you motivated!! I have one of those and as much as I want to punchher in the throat everytime I see her, I also know I have a lot to learn from her.


Amy[/COLOR]

Oh! You are so right! (the wanting to punch her in the throat part. )
My friend wasn't even someone I would have said was "overweight" or needing to lose any. I don't know if it was her clothes or that she "carried" her weight well but she always looked fine. But she really looks good now! I am so jealous! But glad for her too.

I do think I may take some lessons from her and make those same cuts from my diet. Or at least try it for a little while and see how it goes.

 

[zoegirl]

Slow board today ladies....I guess everyone is off getting ready for the weekend.

I am experiencing my first day of Diet Blues. You know the ones you get when you are about 10 days into eating healthy, where you feel like you have lost your best friend? I know food was not my friend, and in fact was at times my worst enemy, but I still feel that longing to go FILL MY FACE!!

Yup, I am missing my BFF. What was his name again, OH, HENRY that was it. And, he is from MARS. He used to visit me with his sisters KIT & KAT. We had MOUNDS of fun! We often watch BABY RUTH play baseball together and we would SNICKER when he struck out with his BUTTERFINGERS. The bat would CRUNCH as he tossed it aside.

OK. Eoungh with the mournful cheesiness, but you can see I am just having one of those days

This is hilarious! I so know how you feel. Hang in there, hopefully the "dt's" will pass.

I think I stayed within my points today, I haven't added them all up yet, actually I'm a little scared to. I did run 7 miles this morning so my activity points are up for the week, but I got a mean case of "chub rub" so I'm reminded of that run every time I walk across the room
We're supposed to go to an engagement party tomorrow evening, I hope i can control myself. I think I'll wear white pants so I'll be too scared to eat much for fear of dropping food on said white pants.
Hope ya'll are having a great start to your weekend.

~bree~

 

[gellybean]

I totally started on a binge tonight. I had two kelloggs fiber bars, half a bag of white cheddar popcorn and was on my way into a bag of dark chocolate pieces when I realized I was repeating habits and made myself stop. I switched to gum and tracked everything and am going to have a Smart Ones for dinner tonight.

I wish I hadn't started the binge in the first place. Weekends = food to me and I'm gonna have to figure out why. BUT I stopped myself before it continued all night and switched to gum so I'll take it as a victory.

Happy weekend everyone! Good luck fighting off the weekend munchies!!

 

[hanutedmansionmomma]

hey gelly, I'm right there with ya in binge mode. DD made cookies, I've hit them 3 times for 2 cookies each since I got home from work. AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHH. I need to just go to bed.

When I get like this I just have to start again with one day at a time. Tomorrow is day one again for me, I guess! I'm going to drink lots of water tomorrow and try to get back on track....

damn wagon, I'm always falling off and getting dragged by it!!

 

[ancestry]

Ahhhh....it's the first day of May and it is the weekend!

I HAVE to go to the gym today. I only went on Monday and Wednesday this week -- only 2 days when I normally do 4-5 thanks to having too much work. I am actually craving doing the weights. lol! I don't think I realized how much stress I relieve by doing weight training. The cardio I still don't care for as I hate to get sweaty.

Anyways, it is hard to believe that our Disney trip is coming up so soon. We only have 13 more days until we leave for our 10 day trip. My in-laws are coming here to stay with my older children while DH and I are going with the younger children. I keep stressing that I am going to forget to do something important.

Oh well. Have a good weekend and enjoy the beginning of May.

 

[2_Eagle_Mom]

I've been gone for a couple of days so some of these are older, but I just had to respond...

You ladies sounds just like I did a couple of months ago. Some how I have managed to get control on the food addiction and I can (at least for now) stop myself. Although it terrifies me each and every day that I will suddenly wake up and find myself back where I was with no ability to control what I was shoving in my mouth.

I used food as medication and celebration. If I was happy I ate to celebrate. If I was sad I ate to make myself feel better. If I was stressed I ate to relieve the stress. If I was bored I ate out of the boredom. If I was procrastinating on something I ate to pass the time. It never had anything to do with hungry -- it had everything to do with self-medicating.

Alcoholism and drug abuse run in my family. I always was SO careful to stay away from alcohol and drugs out of fear that I would easily become an addict due to my genetics. Well, I did become an addict -- except it was a legal one and a somewhat socially acceptable one. I was (or should I say I am) addicted to food.

The avoiding drugs and alcohol are totally me. I've never touched a cigarette in my life. Never done any illegal substances. Never ever been drunk. Buzzed off two margaritas, yes, but never drunk. And I have always had (ashamed to admit it) a bit of a prideful attitude about this, when in reality I'm just as much of an addict as any one else. In my defense, a lot of why I avoided those substances was because I *KNEW* I was prone to addiction and was fearful I wouldn't be able to handle those things in moderation. In some ways I wonder if it's easier to be a drug addict or alcoholic. Those addictions you can detox from and never touch the stuff again. Food you can't. I have to keep eating. I can't give it up forever.

The thing you said that I up-sized is a HUGE bam right between the eyes for me. You could not have said it better. I.am.terrified that this time won't be different. That I'll slip back into my old habits, my old apathy.




Here's an excerpt from my blog on livestrong that I wrote back on March 3:

And it begins.....


Weight loss. What an ugly word. It saps the life out of me to think about it. But the irony of that statement is that the life is literally being sucked out of me without weight loss. I don't know if this time will truly be different. I can only hope. Hope. Hope can be a devastating thing. But without it, where would we be? I've tried to lose weight many times in my life. Done fad diets and stupid medical interventions. But this time I'm doing it the hard way. The right way, I hope. Counting calories and exercise. It seems so simple now that I've started it. It's something I've known would work. So why haven't I done it before ?


I don't know.
I could list a thousand reasons. The truth, deep down, is I really don't know why. It seemed impossible before. Literally impossible. And now it seems doable.

And I'm terrified. I am scared to death that it will become impossible again. And I wish to God I knew what made the difference in me. What made it seem so seemingly undoable and now seems like something I can really put into place as a permanent fixture in my life. It doesn't seem so hard. And I'm scared it will become hard.

I'm doing everything I can do keep it easy. I have joined a support group online and now this site. I love this site. The info, the format, the blogging and diary and that you can keep them separate, and one marked private. I love the tools and data available.

I hope I've put myself into the Perfect Storm-calorie counting, exercise, and moral support.


Until next time.

I can totally relate! While growing up I watched a family member deal (or actually NOT deal) with an alcohol addiction and I vowed to never have that issue. I will have an occasional fruity alcoholic drink, but I actually don't like the taste of alcohol so it's not a hard decision to make. Do you ever watch the show "Ruby" this weeks episode was about how having an addict of some kind in your family tree making it much more likely that you might becoming an addict (and if you vow not to follow in their addiction of alcohol or drugs your addiction of choice might be food). That makes a lot of sense with me. I KNOW that I eat when I'm feeling lonely or depressed (or happy or excited) the only time that I DONT eat is when I'm really stressed. I'm generally happier than I've been in a long time - then why have I been having a harder time keeping control now than ever before? I'm not quite sure, guess I'll have to ponder that and try and figure it out. I know that tracking is a big part of keeping myself accountable. I just have to figure out the easiest way for me to do that. I've tried WW and Sparkpeople and liked the Sparkpeople site the best, but since I'm not always connected on the computer it makes it easy to "forget".

Okay - I have an actual Disney related question.....

How many of you have actually used any of the gyms at any of the Disney resorts?

Our trip is coming up in 15 days. We are going to be at Disney for 10 full days (arriving early and leaving late). We are staying club level and also have the dining plan plus we have dinner reservations at several of the signature restaurants. In other words the trip is VERY food focused - primarily to keep my husband happy. An enjoyable dining experience is what he enjoys on vacation.

I promised him early on that I would not be obsessing about food and trying to stay on a diet -- that I would allow myself these 10 days to try to eat like a normal person, although I'm not so sure I'm capable of eating like a normal person. I'm going to order what I want when I am hungry and not worry about calories. BUT I am not going to binge and I will stop eating when I am full and will not stuff myself just to clean my plate or to maximize the value of the dining plan like I used to do. If I am not hungry I won't eat.

Obviously we will be walking a lot but compared to the level of exercise I normally do the walking isn't going to be much. I was thinking about trying to get in a couple of gym days for a more intense workout but my DH thinks I am nuts that I want to go to the gym when we are at Disney.

Has anyone else had their Disney trip hit in the middle of their weight loss program like this? What did you do? Did you try to stay on plan or did you give yourself a free ticket for the trip?

I havent gone to any of the gym's while at the parks, but I did try and stay on track last year during the F&W Festival. I didn't want to "let it all go" because once that happens it is just too hard to get it back on track (as evidence by my past month). I just tried to make good choices, not ordering something just because we were at a fast food place and burgers and fries were the easiest choice. I ordered a lot of kids meals. The portions are much more realistic and I acutally found I liked having the grapes instead of the fries. If I wanted something that was "not on plan" I'd ask my DH to share it with me, then I'd let him have the first 3/4 of it and have the last couple of bites. I'd still get all the taste, but not feel guilty about splurging. I also wore a pedometer. It was great to actually see how much we walked and not just think that we walked a lot. I knew exactly what I was going to have to splurge - got to have one Premium Mickey bar each trip.

I had a rough night last night. My new upstairs neighbor has always been loud since he moved in - you know, one of those people who stomps everywhere, seems to run a lot, that kind of thing. Well, last night about 10:15, there was a LOT of noise up there, running, things slamming on the floor, yelling, and then I heard a female screaming "Ow. Stop it. YOu're Hurting me" over and over. Well, that was it for me, I was out of my apartment and up those stairs faster than I have probably moved in a long time. I pounded on the door and when the guy answered, I let him have it. I told him the noise was unacceptable and the fighting was out of control and if it didn't stop this minute, I was calling the police. Then, I demanded that I see the girl to be sure she was ok. She poked her head out of the bathroom and was crying with makeup all over her face. I couldn't tell if he had hit her or not. I asked if she was ok and she nodded yes. I then told her that if it EVER got bad, she felt she was in danger or he hit her again, all she had to do was go to any apartment in our part of the complex and ask for help and anyone would be glad to. I then looked at the guy again and said "Seriously, ANYTHING else happens and I will call the cops." I went back downstairs and I was shaking, I was so angry. About 10 minutes later, I heard more thumping, quiet yelling, and him saying "Be quiet, be quiet." I called the cops and reported a domestic. I know the cops came but I don't know what happened from there. At least it stopped for the night, but I'm sure the guy knows who called the police on him. But, there was nothing else I could do. I wasn't going to let anyone abuse, physically or mentally, anyone else. Ever. Not on my watch.

All of that, combined with my normal insomnia, meant I got a total of 45 minutes sleep last night. I feel like work is going to be really hard today. And probably eating will be too. When you don't get any sleep, you are hungier than normal. Can't wait to see how this plays out on the scale.

You ROCK!!! My blood was boiling and I was just reading about the situation. I hope your day wasn't as bad as you thought it was going to be.

Like I said I have been missing the last couple of days. I haven't been doing well on my plan (not tracking, not exercising, eating whatever is in site) and checking the thread was just one more thing that would demonstrate how off I've been. I can't hide from the fact that I have a problem with food and just ignoring things isn't going to make it better. May 1 is the perfect day for me to regain control. Not a good start so far: Slice of Banana bread, brownie and slice of bacon for breakfast. I'm planning on a nice large salad for lunch and then I have a party to go to tonight so I'll have to REALLY hold back to have something of a decent day. I'm going to get off my duff and do a TON of laundry, clean out the fridge and hope to go out for a walk before the party.

Happy Saturday!

 

[luvsJack]

Well, its the end of another weekend. Thought I would check in before a nice long bubble bath and off to bed with a book!

This has been a horrible week and a horribler (I know that is not a word, but the best one I can think of to use ) weekend, at least for weight loss. I have weighed and so far have not gained, but it seems like between out of time to cook or prepare, emotional eating and going completely hog wild this weekend--this entire week has been one big bust!

BUT: I REFUSE TO GIVE UP!!!!!

I had to see myself in pictures again from ds's marriage ceremony and the reception. UGGGGHHHHHH! The pictures of the happy couple are beautiful (it is amazing to me that EVERY picture of the two of them is so good. they just radiate happiness!), but I can't stand to see myself in pictures! I guess pictures make me admit to myself what 70 extra pounds looks like--NOT pretty!

So the pictures, my skinny friend and watching a few episodes of Biggest Loser have given me new motivation.

I pledge the following:

1. I will get up an hour earlier each morning and workout.
2. I will drink 105 ounces of water each day and the only thing other than that will be green tea.
3. I will eat 5 servings of fruits and veggies each day.
4. I will greatly limit any and all carbs.

Hope everyone had a great weekend and have a great week coming up!

 

[2_Eagle_Mom]

While this weekend hasn't been the blow out that the past couple of weeks has been, it hasn't been the on track one that I was hoping for. I could make excuses, but noone force fed me anything, no gun to the head, no "just have a little of this" guilt. Nope just me eating what looked good with a little thought to limiting calories.

DH and I did take the dog for a walk this weekend (3.79 miles) and while we were walking I was telling him that I really need to get back into the right mindset and get to the gym more often. I was wishing that I had a good workout buddy that would make me accountable. He shocked me by offering to join the Y and be my buddy!!! He recently had a big number birthday and figures he should lose some weight himself and get in shape for our trip in October.

We've decided, new month, new start. We are going to meet at the gym tomorrow and get him signed up and we've promissed to go three times a week. I'm also going to take measurements tomorrow so I can hopefully see the progress and that will help motivate me.

My goal is to lose 1 lb per week. I'll be happy with anything at this point, but if I can lose 20lbs I'll have broken through this plateau that I've been living on for the last couple of years.

My pledges:

I will track my food EVERY DAY
I will drink AT LEAST 64 oz of water per day (I tried the 1oz = 1lb of weight, but that didn't last, I don't want to sabatoge myself)
I will exercise at the gym 3 times per week

I'm starting slow and hope to add pledges gradually.

Question for you all. I normally spend 30 minutes on the ellipical machine doing the interval training. How do you know what speed/incline you should do? I haven't pushed myself so much that I sweat a lot, but my heartrate is normally in the "weightloss/cardio" zone on the machine. Should I be pushing myself more? Watching the Biggest Loser they seem to be sweating buckets so I wonder if I'm just not pushing myself enough. I wonder if I should check into seeing how much it would cost for a private trainer for a couple of sessions to really know what we should be doing.

I'm excited about this new start!

 

[CrabbyYetLovable]

So, I joined this board 2 weeks ago. I had this plan to start this USANA Reset asap. But... then life caught up with me. I'm finishing up my first year of grad school, and these past two weeks were the end of the semester. Never a good time to start anything new!

So, classwork is done for the semester, no finals for me! Starting the reset tomorrow morning. I weighed myself over the weekend, still the same as I was 2 weeks ago. Took some measurements tonight as well, so even if I don't lose weight in the next few weeks, maybe I can lose some inches??

I was also thinking about doing one more thing. I was thinking about taking some photos of myself now , to compare them to what I "will" look like when I lose weight? Has anyone done this? Like posed for actual before and after photos? I'm hoping it might be a bit of a motivational tool and something to look back on.

Ready to start over tomorrow! I might be posting a lot this week to talk about the reset. Hopefully I can get back into the group!

 

[luvsJack]

I have take the before pictures. I had dd take two pictures of me on my digital camera; one facing the camera and one to the side. My plan was to take pictures every 6 weeks or so and see the difference. My reasoning was that every time I have lost a lot of weight, I never really took a look at myself and what I had done. I just kept concentrating on what I needed to lose. Anyway, I wanted the ability to appreciate how far I had come. My mom joined a diet group at church one time and that is what they did, took a picture on the day it started and another 6 weeks later.

Ok, so this is the first morning of a new week. -/+ 0 which is ok. I got up an hour earlier this morning and did a minimum of exercise. We have some thunderstorms coming in which causes migraines for me, so head is hurting; but I wanted to move at least a little toward my pledges.

I just went back and read some of the posts about food addiction. I can really relate to so much of that. We have a lot of addictions on both sides of my family and it has come out in different way through all of my siblings. Drugs, alcohol, ocd, and for me food. Some days I know I can control it but others I just cannot. People without that addiction don't understand that its not as easy as just "stop eating" or "push away from the table". What I have found too, is that those with other addictions have the hardest time understanding the food issue???

Added to that, I don't know about other parts of the country, but here in the south EVERYTHING is related to food. Have a celebration? Let's eat! Everyone's sad? Let's eat! We eat at church for every thing that comes along. We even have a "kid's cook" thing on Sunday nights, so we are teaching the kids to eat! Somebody's birthday? We all go out to eat and then come home and eat cake. Somebody dies? We have to have food. If a group of friends want to get together, we start planning what we are going to eat! Heck, even when I am planning a vacation, I think about how much time is spent planning on where we are going to eat! Especially if going to wdw! I want to get to a point that I only think of food as a fuel for my body that keep me going to the things I want to do, not AS the thing I want to do, KWIM?

 

[officereg]

Another week gone. A -2 lbs. I feel pretty good about this. That is -34 since January 1, and -4 since I joined this board. I am hoping for a -4 for next week to put me below 200, but I guess I have to wait and see.