
Urgh, I am such an emotional wreck today. I don't know what is wrong with me. I should be excited that we are moving into our new house yet I'm sitting here in tears. Wow, am I really posting this, I guess so... I just need to vent. A little background, my parents split in 97' and I left home to live with Grandparents (move #1), then moved in with my dad in his new place two months later (move #2), then he moved again (move #3), then we didn't get along so I moved back with mom (move #4), then moved back to dads (move #5), then on my own for first time in 99' across the state day after I had surgery OUCH..lol (move #6), that lasted 5 months until I moved in with Fiance' across state again (move #7)... then we moved out into own place 4 months later (move # 8), in 2001 we moved back to my parents town into our new place (move #9), then to take a position as a live in nanny (#9), then job ended move in mom's garage apartment for 3 months (#10), then moved into current place (#11).... so 11 moves since 97', any wonder I'm so tired of this.
I can't get myself to pack, I can't bear going into the moving truck. Each move has always been with sadness and this is the first time its not and I am not sure what to do with myself. Anyone else been through many many moves and feel the same. You want to move but you just dont have the power to get up and do it. Sorry for venting all, just know DISer's are so supportive and I needed some support right now. I broke down crying just 10 minutes ago... yikes, and now I realize computer wil be packed in a few hours too...
