Morning Hyenas!
I crashed early last night. dh begged me to come to bed. He said he thinks I need to force myself to get more sleep. I know he's right. i dont get enough. I've been moody lately. Well, moody for me and he's noticed it.
I havent said anything to you all but my mom's Rheumatologist appt did not go well. My mom has osteoarthritis, rheumatoid arthritis and fibromyalgia. Heck probably a lot of other stuff she does not tell me. Well I went to one of her appts the other day. she usually does not want me to go to this DR but I showed up unannounced and I realized why. She takes like 30 pills a day. Ok maybe 20 but its crazy, then she goes in for Remicade treatments every 6 weeks. Well she has been doing this for years but it started making her sick so they took her off of it. She switched to some other kind of injection I cant remember what but it made the pain worse so they went back to remicade but apparently its not taking this time. She's been on it for a year and neither the DR or my mom has seen an improvement. Remicade is not supposed to cure or fix arthritis but it slows down the progress but this past year it has doubled its progress. The DR was completely baffled.
My mom kept asking her to stop talking in front of me but I'm on all the medical releases and she finally convinced her that I need to be aware of how bad her medical condition really is and how serious this is going to progress in the future.
I mean we talked about her living with us, we talked about long term care somewhere (this was against what my dad wanted) we talked about all kinds of circumstances where if in a couple years it just becomes too bad where she cannot and should not be alone we figure out what is best. I guess its been weighing on my mind lately.
Anyway, there is no way I'm letting her go to this DR's appt on Monday about the elective surgery without me now. there might be more to the story.
I just feel so bad. She's so young she's only 58 and you all know how lively and active she is.

Yes I get frustrated with her every now and then like a mom would with a teenager daughter (the rolls have switched!!!) but I love her more than anything in the world and this is tearing me apart.