Treadmill Nirvana and other ramblings

[plutosmyfav]

Guess what???????


I made GOAL TODAY!!!!!

Its official! I weighed in at WW at exactly 160.0 (good thing I chose my lightest clothes today )

Now the hard part-- MAINTENANCE No messing around now! I have to maintain or lose for the next 6 weeks to make lifetime.

I don't think I'll switch my clippie yet. My personal goal is still 15 lbs away, so I'm not sure I want to wear the "Goal" clippie yet.

I'm sooooooooo excited

Sunny

 

[Strings]

SUNNY'S AT GOAL!!!

You are a God. Your dedication and consistancy are amazing. Thank you so much for sharing your journey with us. You help keep me going.

You kicked some behind reaching your goal, and I know that you aren't going to let that accomplishment slip through your fingers. You will rule maintainance.

Congratulations,
Beth

 

[jay-nee]

Good for you! Sunny! I am so thrilled for you! You have just worked so unbelieveably hard for this! I know you can do this. Keep focused!

Wow, honestly, I am so, so, so happy for you....

Great job my friend. Be proud! Lightest clothes didn't do, BTW, you did!

You are the true exercise GODDESS!

 

[Tera]

Congratulations Sunny!! I am SO proud of you

I want to hear ALL about getting through maintenance

 

[plutosmyfav]

Oh thank you all

My "victory" has been kindof short lived. I haven't gain anything back (in fact the scale said 159.5 today). BUT I'm not feeling very thin at 160.0. I tried on bathing suits last night. Ugh. My butt is still blubby. I ended up getting a two piece with skirt bottom. It covers my two bad areas (butt and belly from the button down). I'm thinking I really need to lose the 15 I aim to lose, possibly even 20 But what bothers me is the level of vigilence it will take to live at such a low body weight. Every bite will show up on the scale

I am really learning to bulk up on veggies. I still get the tummy troubles. It seems to be something that hits for a few days and then goes away. I just be real careful during the "hits".

Exercise is going great. I took 3 hours of vacation today and went for another 16 mile run. Not as energetic this time, but I finished and am thrilled I did it. I did a super fast TM run on Tuesday: 5 miles in 43 minutes. I was amazed!

DS is taking karate now. I am hoping to find a studio that does Mother/child classes, too. I think it would be fun to do together (someone told me such places exist). I've always been fascinated with karate. It will be good for DS as he has way too much energy and way too little impulse control

I'm doing a 10K on July 4th. I hope the weather cooperates. I'm hoping to get my "proof of pace" from this race for the WDW marathon. Yippee

Sunny

 

[keenercam]

Geez, Sunny, can I just say you totally blow me away! You must be so incredibly proud of yourself. Thank you so much for being such an inspiration.

Congrats on your long run! Have fun at your 10K. Howard and I and DSalmost12 are going to do a 5K that morning (they are running, I am walking). I am going to wear my stopwatch and totally push myself to see what pace I am doing at this point. I'll be thinking of you and drawing inspiration from your accomplishments!

Take care and have a wonderful day!

 

[Tera]

Sunny - I am SO with you girlfriend. I think you and I are going through the same problem, of course, your so much closer than I am. You just need to keep up with what your doing and you'll be toning the butt area before long. I wish I could run what you do, but baby steps.....

I do the two piece so I can wear swim shorts for my butt and thighs. My tummy isn't too bad, but have stretch marks from having my kids & the weight

I hope you find a karate class for you and your soon. That would be so much fun.

Hang in there and remember how far you've come

 

[jay-nee]

Sounds like things are going well. Don't fret the butt and tummy thing, things will tighten up - remember you told me so... it just takes up to 6 month, right?

My arms are definately firmed up, but my belly does not want to give way. I have not bee diligent though, I think I'm just taking a breather, so to speak. Good thing is...I'm learning to maintain and so far so good. Obviously whatever I'm doing is working because I'm hovering between 145-148 each time I WI (today 145.5). This is a good weight for me. Not perfect, but who cares. I am healthy and happy and my knee feels great! Honestly, that is more of what it's about.

So, a 10K - kick butt GIRL! I know you can (and will ). Can't wait to hear about it!

The kids and I are heading to DMs on Tuesday (my big 4-0 Bday!). I really wanted to be at WDW for this Bday, but you know what, who cares? I am going to have a blast with my family and this will be the 1st truly HAPPY Bday in years!

Have a great weekend Sunny! Happy Friday!

 

[Blueeyes101817]

have a great weekend!!!!!!!!!!

 

[toystoryduo]

Congratulations Sunny! :thewave:

I am so proud of you!!! Best WISHes for your 10K on Monday! You will do great!

Have a safe, healthy, happy, and wonderful 4th of July weekend!

 

[Blueeyes101817]

happy 4th!

 

[plutosmyfav]

Hi All,

Boy this week has been tough. It started with my 10K on Monday, July 4th. I got there and was instantly intimidated by the thin fit runners. It was a big race (1,000 people between the 10K and 5K). I was by far the fattest woman lined up to run the 10K. I kept expecting someone to approach me and say, "are you sure you are in the right race?". I fought all those ugly negative feelings like "what am I doing here?, I don't belong, what makes me think I'm a runner?". I can't explain it, but it was as if I teleported myself back to my 220+ lb body. I started off WAY too fast (finished my first mile in 8:03) but then I kept falling behind. Wave after wave of people overtook me. At one point two men pushing jogging strollers, carrying on a conversation overtook me! I finished in 55:34 with a good pace for me (8:57) but I was so disappointed with how I handled the situation mentally. I lost all confidence in myself.

PLUS, my weight has been creeping up. First for no reason (I was super careful about my points), then I gave into a binge . Now I am two pounds up from goal and I have to WI on Monday for my first maintenance WI. I am so disappointed with myself. I know the original creep was hormonal, but then I have to go and make it real with a stupid binge. I have been really discouraged that I don't feel thin. I really thought when I got to this weight I would be happy for a while before trying to slowly move on. But instead, when I look in the mirror all I see is fat. And I know that is also partly due to hormones. I am so sick of being a slave to my stupid hormones. Through careful journalling I have discovered that I have about 9-10 bad days per month, starting right after ovulation. I suffer terrible depression and lose all confidence during this time. Then it magically disappears, only to come back again the next month.

So I'm patiently waiting for the funk to lift...

Sunny

 

[Tera]

Sunny - I know how you feel sweetie. You and I have come such a long way, losing over 135 pounds between the two of us

First, YOU COMPLETED A 10K RUN!!!!!! I know your not happy with the way you went about it, but YOU DID IT!! Those people didn't give you a second glance because they were all there at one time or another. I think it was so awesome that you were able to do that and in under an hour. You should be SO proud of yourself And remember, when you were 220+, you wouldn't have even been doing this marathon

Second, don't worry about those couple of pounds. Like you said, your hormones are going wild and your probably retaining some water. Really focus on it this weekend and I bet by Monday you'll be celebrating your first week of maintenance. Also, have you considered switching to Core now? I find I get more food in and am completely satisfied and the scale has stayed the same. Today was the first time in a week that my weight finally dropped, so my body took some time adjusting. If I don't lose by Tuesday, I'm going back to Flex until I get to my goal and then switch back.

Your going to get through this like you always do and in 6 weeks, we'll be celebrating LIFETIME with you

 

[keenercam]

Hi, sweetie! I have been thinking about you and what you went through on Monday. You know what? I was in the same "place" but at a 5K and looking around at everyone who was so fit and accomplished. Heck, I am sure people were wondering how I can even lug this big fat body around. But you know what? Who cares? You don't owe them anything! Not even an explanation! Can you imagine running with a tee shirt on that says "I've lost "X" number of pounds, so stop gawking?!?!??!?"

Sunny, you were only running against yourself. Just trying to do better than the last one, right? Besides, you have to believe that there were plenty of people there who have felt like you did but who have learned to put on their game face. Feeling confident must be half the battle, I would think.

How absolutely amazing that you stayed below a 10 minute mile the entire time! Aren't you proud of yourself? You have come so far! You are a role model for so many of us on the WISH boards.

It is so impressive that you have been able to figure out the hormone issue -- maybe being totally tuned in to that will help you develop some strategies for dealing with it, so that you control how those 10 days or so go, rather than your body controlling you.

I will be thinking of you this weekend, hoping it goes really well for you, so that you will be pleased with Monday's WI. Take pride in what you have accomplished so far, hon, and bask in that. You've earned it. You don't HAVE to move on to the next accomplishment so fast. Sometimes it is really great to kind of sit quietly for a moment and just enjoy the feeling of being where you have gotten to.

Now, don't go discouraging me. I thought for sure that losing a lot of weight would cure every problem in my life! You mean it doesn't? I think you need a bigger cheering section, chickie, because if you aren't seeing yourself for all you have accomplished , someone needs to get you some new glasses! Can't you hear us all cheering for you? We're right over here in the "SUNNY'S FAN SECTION"

Oh, gosh, sorry so long. My heart just goes out to you because I don't think you realize just how fabulous you are! If you were near, I'd give you a huge hug and a bigger pat on the back.

 

[plutosmyfav]

Tera and Cam, you've brought tears to my eyes! Thank you so much for your encouragement I can't imagine going this journey without the support here at WISH. You are absolutely the best

Tera: Your post has prompted me to give CORE another thought (I keep thinking about trying it and then not doing it). I know my body would do so much better with the more wholesome food and LESS SUGAR. I think my hormonal trouble would be better without the refined sugar and flour, too.

Cam: What can I say? You have totally made my day!

Can you imagine running with a tee shirt on that says "I've lost "X" number of pounds, so stop gawking?!?!??!?"

That is toooo good! Maybe some day I'll have the guts to do just that! How about another one that says, "Move your skinny butt-- I'm coming through"

I thought about you as I went through this. I remember your terrible story of going to the running shoe store and haveing the salesperson basically tell you you didn't belong. And you perservered! And you did belong! And you've lost so much weight and gained so much endurance! I supposed we will never lose the old tapes that run in our heads, but maybe we can drown them out with our iPods

You are so right about getting the competition thing in check. I have been pushing and pushing for better time, more miles, etc. , to the point of draining the joy right out of the run! Time to slow down a bit and enjoy the process.

Happy Friday

Sunny

 

[toystoryduo]

Sunny,

I just want to say how proud I am of you! You have met your weight loss goal, you have been an exercise , and you completed a 10K!!!! Sunny, I'm sorry that the race brought out some of those old, negative feelings, but just think: would you have been able to accomplish all that you have accomplished a year ago? You have done an amazing job! You are such an inspiration to me!

I hope you have a wonderful weekend! Hold your head up high and be proud of yourself, Sunny! I am so proud of you!

 

[Blueeyes101817]

Sunny-
i just wanted to agree with tracy--you are an amazing person and i am so proud of you, even though i have never "met" you, i feel like i have!
Hope you are having a great weekend!!!

 

[calena]

Congrats on the 10k. Your time was GREAT, and you are doing such great long runs. You are an inspiration to ME! I know it is hard to compare ourselves to others, but as far as I am concerned, you are one of "them". You belong. You are an athlete and you are running. I would LOVE to be at the fitness level you are at. You are amazing. Just think of all of us out there who would not attempt a 10K!!!!! I had wanted to do a 10k in September but it has been so hot I have been swimming more than jogging and this week was sick so did nothing (I wanted to give my body a chance to rest and heal, plus I felt LOUSY) ... we will see. I may do 5k in September instead.
I wear a skirtini and love it. It also covers my bad areas but I still feel sexy. It is VERY in style this year too so go for it!
Your comments on the hormones are interesting. A friend once told me just to map my hormonal days and when I get irrational on those days, just remind myself this is not "me" talking... it is the hormones and don't make any major decisions then... like deciding you are fat!
Hope the WI goes ok today. You have come SO far and if the scale is up a wee bit just take it in stride. We all know - you are a loser!!!!!

 

[Tasha+Scott]

Hi, Sunny! I just have to agree with everyone at how amazing you are! I can't wait until I am at a point physically where I am even capable of running a 10k marathon! You most definitely did deserve to be there and you did great! I've said it before and I'll say it again: You inspire me! And thanks so much for starting the July Exercise Challenge! It is exactly the kick in the rear I have needed to get started back exercising since having dd. I just started Mon. and I already feel a million times better than I have in a long time! Plus, my exercising the past couple days has inspired dh to do the same which is great since his dr. told him he is borderline diabetic and told him he needed to start exercising to help control it! So, Sunny, you rock!!!

 

[plutosmyfav]

Thank you, all

Jay-nee-- you're right, I will try to be patient on the butt and tummy

Calena-- thank you so much! Thinking of myself as a role model will spur me on

Tasha-- I hope your DH can get his health under control. You are a great role model for him! Keep up the great work.

Jen-- hopefully we meet some day but I feel like I already know you, too!

Tracy-- as always, you are the sweetest person Your words are always so encouraging-- you have a gift!

OK, I'm short on time, so I'm going to just post a pic of my at goal. I put it on the thread for those making goal, also.

I still want to lose another 20 lbs for my personal goal, but I will take it real slow (I dont' think I have a choice anyway as the bod just doesn't want to part with another ounce.)

Sunny