Thanks ladies
The rest of Thursday was blah I just vegged, DD dragged me outside but after 5 mins i felt so drained i had to come in!! Took a few pics - will post them later.
lunch - chk/potatoe GFY ready meal, mars bar (comfort food)
Dinner - chk curry - LF sauce, wholemeal rice - the rice was very high in calories & it was the ''boil in the bag'' kind that is supposed to have enough for 2 people in one bag but no where near does DH & I usually have a bag each - over 400 cals

so i scraped 1/4 into the bin

Nam bread high too so just had a 3rd
still came in just under 1500 cals for the day
Friday
WI day......now 1st i was happy then i was sooo down i wanted to cry.....
my scale - 3lb loss
Had an appointment with the nurse - i told her how much i had been working out & how good i'd been with food & how it just wasnt coming off, & how i've just altered my training to High intensity interval training & how I've started to watch calories as well as fat/sugar...she then weighed me -1lb heavier than when i last went before xmas

Then i said how people keep telling me muscle weighs more but that my clothes dont feel any looser - she takes my waist measurement.......its gone up 2 inch
i was shocked - now have a 39 inch waist..37 was bad enough

Could she give me any words of wisdom you ask - to exercise!!! is this woman not listening - i cant do any more exercise than i already do!!! unless i live at the gym & divorce my family & job!! She then tells me the text book comment that women need 2000 cals a day - if my resting metabolic weight is 1500 cals how on earth can i need 2000 - i was eating that for the last 3 months & its got me know where!! arghhhhh
any how it ended with her saying keep on my new training, & counting cals & come back in 2 weeks - i feel she has washed her hands of me as the 'text book'' method hasnt worked!
I still felt really ill & was soo emotional i went home & curled up on the sofa, we had arranged to go out for dinner with friends so i dragged myself upstairs to get ready - blk legging & a black jumper - siuted my mood, hid the fat i felt has doubled in quantity since i got up!!
not a good food day either
b/fast - cereal
snack - organic cereal bar (no idea how many cals in that!)
lunch - small baked potato with regular cheese, GFY pasta, yogurt -
700 cals
dinner ate out - on a good day i would have gone for the tuna with boiled potatos & salad - i had battered fish with fries & caramel/apple pie - along with a large red wine & 2 gin & slimline (ha ha) tonics, suprisingly i felt much better & was in a much better mood!!!
Saturday
b/fast - none (the guilt had kicked in)
lunch - 4 crispbreads with LF cheese/onion filler, yogurt - 300 cals
dinner - having pasta bake
Woke feeling i needed retail therapy so today i have spent over £200 pounds on clothes & accesories

(about $300)
my account is gonna be seriously reduced
Went to gym - 700 cals burnt
Thanks for letting me rant, moan & feel sorry for myself...........