Toystoryduo’s Journal: Baby Steps are the Key... Celebrate Each Victory!

[CACruisin']

Tracy, here is special P & PD for your mom and that the Dr's can figure out what is going on. You have so much on your plate right now. What a wonderful idea to just keep track of what you do for exercise and rejoice in that! It is also wonderful that you are walking. As you said, it is a good time to think and it also helps release some stress too.

Take care friend.

 

[ScoJo15]

Hi Tracy...

Sending out my best wishes and thoughts for your mom. I hope everything is ok. I'm always amazed at how you handle your busy schedule and all of the things on top of it...and i think your focus on your exercise is the right approach to take.

Have a good day!

 

[eeyore25]

Tracy,

Just got caught up and I am so glad that you finally received the money for the job that you DH did. At least you got an explaination.

Sorry to hear that things are very hectic for you right now, they will get better. There is always a bright side to things, I know that you may not be able to see it right now, but hang in there. WDW is just around the corner....

You are doing great with everything. Keep it up!

Your family is in my thoughts and prayers.

 

[Blueeyes101817]

tracy--you guys are in my prayers..hang in there!

 

[toystoryduo]

Thanks WISH buddies.

My mom is doing okay right now. She's not making much progress, but she's not digressing either so I guess that's good. I'm not sure how long she will be in the hospital. She's really not happy about being there.

In other news.... I've added 120 minutes of exercise in the past two days. It really gives me time to think when I walk..... Tomorrow, I will start trading the summer clothes with the fall/winter clothes in the closets and dressers. This project usually takes awhile since there are four of us.

Homeschooling is going well. Hopefully, we will be able to get the field trip in this Friday. The kids are looking forward to it.

I will try and get to journals tomorrow..... Thanks for all of your prayers and support.

 

[Amy&Dan]

Tracey, I am glad your mom is maintaining, that is good news! I am sure she isn't happy about being at the hospital, thats never fun especially when they are not completely sure what the problem is. I am keeping you all in my prayers! Great news with the exercise. I am very proud that you are turning to activity to cope and think as opposed to what I usually do which is eat! Just keep hanging in there!

 

[toystoryduo]

Thanks Amy.

Today looks to be a busy, but not overwhelming day. I have homeschooling, lunch out with my DH and kids, a trip to the grocery store and library planned and then the clothes transfer.... Busy, but not too much.

We went to visit my mom yesterday and she was very tired. They have adjusted her medication a bit and she seemed to be doing well. She called me last night and started ranting and raving about stuff so I'm not sure what is going on. I put a call in to her doctor today and am waiting to hear from him.

My DH and I are looking forward to our December trip now more than ever. With all of the stuff that is going on with my mom, his business and work situations, and other family drama, we just really need this vacation to rest, relax, and recharge. We also need to pray about some big decisions (moving, work, mom, extended family) that we feel will be coming up soon. It's so hard to focus on these big decisions when day to day life is so hectic.

I appreciate your continued prayers for my family, especially my mom. Have a great Thursday!

 

[keenercam]

Tracey—
I am so glad you and DH and your family have the December trip to look forward to. Sometimes just knowing it is going to happen is enough to get us through all the hassles we have on a daily basis. It will be good for all of you to be away together away from the everyday stresses.

I am glad your mom is stable, though I hope they can quickly determine what is going on with her and provide a plan to address it.

Here’s hoping the weather is wonderful Friday for the field trip.

Have a great day, sweetie! Enjoy lunch out with your family.

 

[goldcupmom]

Hang in there, Tracy!!! I'm still here, still praying!

Glad at least 1 check finally made it to you.

December will be here soon, just keep looking forward.

Hopefully your mom will continue to stabilize. Stress like that is no fun at all!

Enjoy those girls and get some down time!! you need it!

 

[CACruisin']

I hope the Dr got back in touch with you and they can figure out your mom's situation soon. Glad today is going to be not to jam packed. Hopefully you will have a wonderful time on your field trip tomorrow. I'm glad you are getting your morning walks in. It seems to have helped you be more at peace. As always, take care!

 

[AmyBeth68]

Tracey! I'm SO sorry to hear about your Mom? I hope you get answers VERY soon . I'll keep her, and your whole family for that matter, in my thoughts for sure!!!

I'm so happy that you have your December trip to look forward to! Having something like that to plan for and focus on will really help you get through the tough days! I'm really proud of you for continuing to exercise...it will certainly help you deal with the stress!!! Hang in there sweetie!

 

[toystoryduo]

Thanks so much WISH buddies. I really appreciate your prayers and support.

I had an A-Ha! moment this morning.... I was walking through the neighborhood and came to a decision. Do I keep going forward and climb this huge hill or do I take the easy way out and head through the park? I was having some pain in my shin so it gave me pause while I was deciding what to do. I decided to go for it... Climb the hill. About 1/3 of the way up the hill, the batteries in my CD player died. Uh oh! No music to help me get my blood pumping to finish this hill. (The hill is very steep and about 1/2 mile- 3/4 of a mile long.) As I was climbing the hill (without my music), I realized that climbing the hill was like life. Sometimes, all you can do is push forward, sweat a lot, get through the aches and pains and eventually, you will make it to the top. That is what my family and I have been doing this year. Pushing and sweating and straining and making our way to the top of the hill. We still have a ways to go, but with God we CAN do this! It was also a comfort to me because once the music shut off, I felt as if the Lord was saying, "Tracy, rely on me. You can not do this alone and I am here waiting to help."

My mom has been diagnosed with a mood disorder. They have increased her medication and have had her in some therapy groups, but when we speak to her, it seems like nothing has changed. We still have not spoken with the doctor and he has not heard our concerns so I'm not sure what is going on. I have family members calling me daily to find out what is going on and it gets quite frustrating to tell them I don't know. Again, this is just one of the ways we are climbing the hill/ mountain....

Today, we are going to go on the field trip to the apple farm. My DD5 is very excited! Afterwards, we will go to the mall and pick up the last bit of Disney Dollars we need for the trip! Then, my kids will stay home with my DH while my dad and I go visit my mom. Speaking of my dad, please keep him in your prayers. This situation has been very, very difficult for him and some days, he is quite discouraged and worried. Thank you!

I hope to update my journal later on this evening. In the meantime, have a great Friday and GO BUCKEYES!

 

[eeyore25]

Hi Tracy,

Good for you for continuing up the hill and not taking the easy way out!! That was great!! You are so right with what you are thinking about life and that hill. You have to push and sweat to get through, and you'll make it. I know you will.

I'm sorry you still not getting the answers or return calls that you need. Keeping your entire family in my thoughts and prayers.

Keep up the good work. You are truely doing a great job!

Only a month left until your trip.....the time is going to fly by!!!!

Happy Friday

 

[traceycooper]

Hi Tracy
I hope your mum is doing ok, at least you have a diagnosis now, so i hope that has helped.
I love morning walks too, a great time to clear your head & think things through
I'm afraid i dont get to do many now though!
Hope you reach the top of that 'hill' soon
Sending thoughts for your mum & dad
Take care
Tracey

 

[kimwim8]

HUGS for you and your family, Tracy. I love the hill metaphor! What a great way of positive thinking! You continue to push on, through the hard times, and for that - you're an inspiration!!

Take care, and have a great weekend!

 

[CACruisin']

What a wonderful metaphor. Hang in there Tracy. Every hill has a peak and you will make it to the top.

 

[Amy&Dan]

Tracy, you are climbing up that hill and you are doing a great job! You never lose your faith, your sweetness and caring, your determination and your wonderful attitude. You are rock not only for your family but many of us here on the WISH! Keep climbing that hill sister, the top is in sight! And I am so glad you have that WDW trip to look forward to. Sometimes the Mouse and the Magic keep us going through the hard times don't they? I think thats what old Walt had in mind. I am glad that at least your mom has been diagnosed. And don't feel bad about the doctor not calling you, they do that to EVERYBODY! I am still waiting for my mom's oncologist to learn how to communicate with us after five years. I think they need to teach some communication skills in medical school maybe. Just be persistent and you'll get your answers eventually. All part of the hill right? I hope you have a great weekend with lots of time for prayer, relaxation and fun!

 

[SunFloridaDisney]

Keep climbing!!
I'm keeping you in my prayers.

 

[toystoryduo]

Jamie, Tracey, Kim, Anna, Amy, and Kate~ Thank you very much for your words of encouragement and support. This journey that we are on with my mom may be a tough one, but it helps so much to know that my friends and family are praying for us and supporting us through this tough time. Thank you so much!

Yesterday was a tough day. Mom was not at her best. I did speak with her briefly today and she seemed okay until she made some strange comments and hung up on me. I'm trying not to take her attitude personally, but it can be tough.

I have managed to add another 15+80+35 minutes of exercise over the past few days for a grand total of 295 minutes! The walking helps to clear my mind and allows me some one on one time with the Lord. Tomorrow, my DD5 wants to walk the hill with me.... We'll see how that goes.

As for tomorrow's plans.... Walk, work, and relax. On Monday, we have our first family meeting with my mom's doctor and I am a bit nervous about that...

Hope everyone has a great Sunday!

 

[Amy&Dan]

Tracy, I hope your meeting with the doctor goes well. I have been there and done that and its stressful! Just hang in there and remember that doctor works for you so get the information you need. And I also understand about the strange comments/hanging up the phone/up and down emotions with your mom too. That is also very stressful. Just remember that she is not herself and don't take these things personally. Your long walks when you spend time along talking to the Lord are helping you body and soul. Keep those up! I hope the rest of the weekend went well, just remember you have lots of friends pulling for you and you will get through all of this!