sasha
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- Mar 2, 2002
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Hi Everyone,
This is my first time visiting W.I.S.H. Even though I knew it existed I never clicked on it. Obviously I've been in denial for quite some time. I'm finally ready to face reality and reclaim my life.
I have gained a lot of weight since getting married and having children and I HATE my body the way it is now. I am so upset because I'm missing out on wonderful moments with my children because of my weight gain. They have never had me swim with them or run wild with them in the backyard like DH does. When we go boating it's always DH who goes in the water & tube with them. I stay in the hot boat and take pictures so I don't have to dare get into a swimsuit. In all of my scrapbooks there are just pictures of my girls with DH because I can't stand to look at myself in pictures anymore. I'm afraid that if something were to happen to me they wouldn't have any pictures to remember me by. And by looking at the scapbooks they'll wonder if I even existed.
I'm not an emotional eater, but a social eater. I go out to eat way too much and I choose the wrong foods. I have never had much of a sweet tooth, but carbs are my weakness. I obviously lack will-power and my metabolism stinks. I have a closet full of size 8-10 Bebe suits that I just can't seem to get rid of. I think someday I'll fit into them again, yet I can't get motivated enough to do anything about it. I used to be attractive and get a lot of attention, now I can't even stand to see my own reflection in store windows. I literally look the other way. I used to have a great sense of style, now I dread shopping because they don't make anything "cute" in my size. I miss who I used to be, but I have no one to blame but myself. I have so many old friends who call me and want to get together, but I either make excuses or don't call them back because I'm ashamed for them to see what I've become. Last month I even missed my 20 year high school reunion because I couldn't bare to let people see me now. Back in school I was voted "cutest", but I'm far from cute now. My DH deserves so much more! He's a wonderful, wonderful man and he never says anything about my weight gain, but I'm sure he would like me to be like I was when we met. You'd think if not for myself & my health I'd at least be able to lose the weight for him and my children, but I can't get myself motivated. What's wrong with me? I've missed out on a good part of my 30's because of the way I look and I don't want to waste anymore time. I want the old me back!
I'm fortunate enough to have an aunt who said she would completely pay for Jenny Craig for me. I'm just not utilizing it. How stupid is that?
I want to turn my life around. Please help me!!! I can really use the support. We're going on a Disney Cruise next May and I would love to be able to get into a swimsuit by then so I can finally swim with my girls. I would love to be a part of this group, but I don't know where to start. I need a big kick in the butt. I just called Jenny Craig and made an appointment for Friday, plus I went on a 3 mile walk this morning. It's a start....
This is my first time visiting W.I.S.H. Even though I knew it existed I never clicked on it. Obviously I've been in denial for quite some time. I'm finally ready to face reality and reclaim my life.
I have gained a lot of weight since getting married and having children and I HATE my body the way it is now. I am so upset because I'm missing out on wonderful moments with my children because of my weight gain. They have never had me swim with them or run wild with them in the backyard like DH does. When we go boating it's always DH who goes in the water & tube with them. I stay in the hot boat and take pictures so I don't have to dare get into a swimsuit. In all of my scrapbooks there are just pictures of my girls with DH because I can't stand to look at myself in pictures anymore. I'm afraid that if something were to happen to me they wouldn't have any pictures to remember me by. And by looking at the scapbooks they'll wonder if I even existed.
I'm not an emotional eater, but a social eater. I go out to eat way too much and I choose the wrong foods. I have never had much of a sweet tooth, but carbs are my weakness. I obviously lack will-power and my metabolism stinks. I have a closet full of size 8-10 Bebe suits that I just can't seem to get rid of. I think someday I'll fit into them again, yet I can't get motivated enough to do anything about it. I used to be attractive and get a lot of attention, now I can't even stand to see my own reflection in store windows. I literally look the other way. I used to have a great sense of style, now I dread shopping because they don't make anything "cute" in my size. I miss who I used to be, but I have no one to blame but myself. I have so many old friends who call me and want to get together, but I either make excuses or don't call them back because I'm ashamed for them to see what I've become. Last month I even missed my 20 year high school reunion because I couldn't bare to let people see me now. Back in school I was voted "cutest", but I'm far from cute now. My DH deserves so much more! He's a wonderful, wonderful man and he never says anything about my weight gain, but I'm sure he would like me to be like I was when we met. You'd think if not for myself & my health I'd at least be able to lose the weight for him and my children, but I can't get myself motivated. What's wrong with me? I've missed out on a good part of my 30's because of the way I look and I don't want to waste anymore time. I want the old me back!
I'm fortunate enough to have an aunt who said she would completely pay for Jenny Craig for me. I'm just not utilizing it. How stupid is that?
I want to turn my life around. Please help me!!! I can really use the support. We're going on a Disney Cruise next May and I would love to be able to get into a swimsuit by then so I can finally swim with my girls. I would love to be a part of this group, but I don't know where to start. I need a big kick in the butt. I just called Jenny Craig and made an appointment for Friday, plus I went on a 3 mile walk this morning. It's a start....
Welcom Sasha!!!
But last week my oncologist said I can stop the Arimidex (yippee!), so today at lunch time I re-joined WW.
Welcome to WISH!! You will find everyone here is supportive and has been in your shoes. I don't know how much you need to lose, but I will tell you that if you think you have it bad, odds are someone has it worse. At age 36, I started WW in Feb at 215 lbs. I am only 4'11". I need to lose 100 lbs. That's right 100 lbs. I have lost 39 lbs so far, and it isn't easy. Not nearly as easy to take off as it is to put on. But I decided after our last trip to WDW last December that I was not going to be FAT at 40, but FIT at 40.
. You can do it!
. Ouch - that hurt to write. That goal sounds like it's so far away, but I guess I should make "mini goals" for myself instead. I'm glad we have our May '08 cruise in common, even though they're on different ships. But we can encourage each other as we work our way to May. As you said, you'll be much smaller on your next cruise than you were on your last. That's a huge accomplishment in itself! That's my goal too. I won't be in a bikini, but if I can (somewhat) comfortably put on a swimsuit I'll be happy.
I finally just recovered from a hysterectomy and several big-time complications that left me lying around and packing on the pounds, and I'm at an all-time high weight except for my pregnancies and really need to do something about it!
I wouldn't hesitate to do that if I were in your shoes. I hope that you like it!
