I cant be the only one who thinks of the totally bizarre things when I cant sleep. I dont know if it stems from a dream ( or nightmare) that I was having before I woke up or how it works but it really bugs me! This morning I woke up at 2AM and couldnt go back to sleep. As I lay there in that half-lucid state my mind wandered through several subjects, all of them morbid and frightening, then I settled on the most morbid thought I think Ive ever had. I began to think of all the sick and twisted ways humans have come up with to kill each other. I think it must have been brought on by reading about the woman who was sentenced to be stoned to death. But EWWWW how weird is that?? I put a quick end to that line of thinking but not before my mind had allready grappled with several things. So does your mind wander in the middle of the night and think of terrible things ( or wonderful ) or I am the only weird one here lol.
Your not the only one binny, I'll wake up in the middle of the night with the weirdest thoughts in my head.....and usually they are horrible things too. Once I caught myself planning my DH's funeral (and I wasn't even mad at him ). Mostly its "what would I do ifs...." that get me, I am a compulsive plannner.
I think about bills, or a chore that I put off. Then I turn on the weather channed to dull myself to sleep!
I'm always thinking of my kids & their safety. My mind is always working on something (even if the rest of me isn't!) I'm thinking of what needs to have a good cleaning or how will I ever clean out my basement or bedroom closet? How will my DS do on his math test? When will my 2 y/o talk? Will he be able to support himself as an adult? What will I do when oldest DS can drive? (Especially since we can't afford the safety of a Hummer for him???) I could go on forever...I think I just wear myself out & then fall asleep!
I tend to redecorate. I have great ideas at 2:00 a.m. trayletha, I did plan my husband's funeral once. A good friend of ours had passed away, and it got me to thinking what I would. It sparked a conversation about what we want at our funerals, and that sparked my late night musing. I also considered what I'd wear, now that's weird.
Just last night I was stressing over what color to paint my family room. I got a whole bunch of paint samples and I'm still undecided. I've got a whole room full of spackled walls, and a room that's in a shambles. It NEEDS to get finished. But nothing will happen until I paint it. Matter of fact, I should be out buying paint right now. But here I sit.
Sometimes I convince myself that whatever ache I've been feeling lately is cancerous. But usually it's the little things that keep me awake: did I remember to dry DD's jacket for in the morning, maybe I should go check; oh, I bet I forgot to run the dishwasher; did I hear the baby wimper, I bet she's waking up, I better not go back to sleep yet; I HAVE to remember to make a deposit in our checking account 1st thing or else ;sounds like someone is in the house I just know it's a terrorist!; I wonder if anyone answered my thread on the DIS; ___________or_____________ (that darn thread I visit all the time); is it illegal to kill your hubby if you've been trying to go back to sleep for 2 hours and he's snoring now? These are the things that keep me awake!
Usually I stress about money...will we be able to afford a trip to WDW? Can we buy passes this year? Can we buy them this month, before we lose out on the cost of our "Play 4 Days?" If money isn't on my mind, then I am thinking bad thoughts about my husband's ex and how she tries to keep the boys from him...will we win in court? Will they be here for Thanksgiving? How long will we have to wait before buying plane tix for them to visit, and how high will the prices go before then? Back to money...
Sometimes it's my checkbook...where did I write that last check, and how much was it? What exactly IS my balance? Why don't I just reconcile the statement and find out? And then there's the thought that always seems to pop into my head...is "finite" really a word? Why don't I ever just get up and look in the dictionary and find out? If I did, would I ever USE the word? (Ummm, no.) Better just to keep wondering, otherwise there's no telling what I would start thinking about.
