“I found a place where I can lose myself.”
“Til’ I Forget About You” is not about a girl/significant other, but Kendall’s song to his father:
Heading out ‘cause I’m out of my mind
All my friends are gonna see me tonight
Staying here until the sun starts to rise
And I’m, I’m gonna, I’m gonna, I’m gonna
Kendall is actually aware of the fact that he is losing his mind, but he will continue living in his fantasy “until the sun starts to rise.” A sunrise is very comparable to a “white light” or the “light at the end of the tunnel”—death.
Dance hard, laugh hard, turn the music up now
Party like a rock-star, can I get a what now?
I swear I’ll do anything that I have to
Til’ I forget about you.
Jump up, fall down, gotta play it loud now
Don’t care my head’s spinning all around now
I swear I’ll do, anything that I have to
Til’ I forget about you.
Kendall acknowledges that he will do anything to forget his father.
The entire chorus of the song actually describes the show’s setting/Kendall’s fantasy quite accurately.
I found a place where I can lose myself
And just leave your memory on the shelf
See I’m fine, no I don’t need nobody else
‘Cause I’m, I’m going, I’m going, I’m going
He only needs himself—thus creating his “characters.”
Spending money like it don’t mean a thing
I’m going crazy now, don’t even think
Losing my mind, it’s all I can do
Til’ I forget about you.
Kendall has accepted the fact that he will be stuck in his fantasy world until his death. In a sense, he has given up.
