Hi guys. I'm sorry I haven't been around in a while. I was reading along most of the time, but just got tired of posting such negative news about Mom. The short message is that she seemed to be getting much better, then they got as far as they could weaning her and weren't able to make any more progress. We had to turn off the ventilator, as she had a medical directive against living with one, and it was time to end the suffering without hope of her ever getting better.
It was the hardest thing I've ever had to go through -- she's been in the hospital since August 23rd, and I've missed a total of 4 days seeing her. I'm lucky I have such a great boss. It took a real toll on my family, but Randy is an amazing Dad and really did well without me around much.
The support you have shown me has made such a difference to me. I promised my Dad that we would make our scheduled trip to Disney, and although I shed many tears, we are here at WDW. Thank you to everyone who contributed to all the wonderful surprises I've received. Since we had 4 hours to pack before leaving on this trip, a number of things were left behind, including the card reader to be able to post pictures. As soon as we get home, or get a card reader, I will post pictures.
I have also really appreciated the posts, PMs, notes, postcards sent from trips and Christmas cards. I prayed for God to take her because I didn't want to see her suffer, so I was relieved at first, then mad because she didn't take care of herself, and now heartbreaking sorrow that she is no longer with us. Our Pastor said that was normal and that I shouldn't worry or feel guilty, that it's part of the grieving process.
I know many of you have already delt with this, and I may need some advice as we get on down the road. On one hand I still can't believe that the Mom I used to see every day now is gone, yet she's been so sick for so long that it's hard to remember the good times.
Thanks again for everything.
Marci
I can only imagine how difficult these past months have been for you! I hope you are able to enjoy your trip, and please know that we are all here for you when you get home!
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We went to the dealership and changed my Dad's tires and Chris's from summer to winter. Then we came home and had a quick lunch. Colby and I took a nice nap. I wasn't feeling too bad when I got up so I headed into my bedroom to try to find some sort of order in all the chaos. What I should have done is take another pain killer, but I was hoping that the new reflux med was the charm (wrong). Anyway, Chris helped me finish the wrapping and we got all the mess picked up, thrown out or otherwise taken care of. Tomorrow I just need to vacuum and dust and that room is done 
My mother had called and wanted to make a quick road trip to South Royalton to go see the light display at the Joseph Smith Homestead. Glynis will know what I'm referring too as Alan covered an event there last year (?) It was beautifully decorated with millions of lights. We were able to drive through. Here is a link to some pictures. I did not have my camera, but these are better than I would have taken as we were moving.
I have totally fallen off the weight loss wagon. Need to drag my happy butt back up there. I swear, that eating in the morning thing is going to be the end of me. I just can not seem to make that work. Coffee in the morning, yes, without fail. Food in the morning I just can't manage. And I haven't been drinking my water since we got back from Disney. I need to get into that habit. Luckily my bathroom scale is buried under so much laundry I can't possibly stand on it.
