The Bottom has fallen out

[keypooh90]

I've struggled with severe generalized anxiety, panic attacks and major depressive disorder for quite some time, along with self injury/cutting. I ended up doing something to myself the day after my mom's funeral (Ugadog99) which landed me in inpatient psychiatric treatment for about a week (just got home yesterday). Adjusting to life outside and having family and friends so worried about my safety is so hard. I've got follow-up treatment scheduled and know this will be a long and hard battle, but dealing with mental illness on top of the normal grieving process after losing my mother has been absolutely exhausting. All of our family and friends are now wanting me to open up and talk, as are my treatment team and that's always been difficult for me as well. Anyway, I guess I'm just looking for "virtual support."

 

[Robbi]

I'm sorry. My advice is to continue therapy and open up. I was hospitalized for depression/ anxiety in the past. I'm a private person and it was hard for me too. Once I did begin to talk though, I felt so much better. Hugs.

 

[Brissymum]

So sorry you are going through such a difficult time

 

[Disneylover99]

I know this might sound cliche but try to take it one day at a time.

It sounds like you are doing the right thing by getting treatment. Try to think about family and friends who worry about you as a gift. People care.

I'm sorry for the loss of your mom. That's tough.

 

[keypooh90]

I'm sorry. My advice is to continue therapy and open up. I was hospitalized for depression/ anxiety in the past. I'm a private person and it was hard for me too. Once I did begin to talk though, I felt so much better. Hugs.

Thank you. Opening up and talking about my problems instead of turning to cutting was one of my treatment goals. I've got a follow up appointment with a psychiatrist on the 27th and there's a huge possibility of entering a partial hospitalization program after the holidays. I know this will take time but I think I can get better and now I can see that my attempt to end things was not the right decision.

 

[denisem]

Oh, gosh, I'm so sorry - this is a difficult time of year as it is for many of us "depressives", much less dealing with recent grief of your mother's passing. Wish there was something I could write to make it easier.

Please try to treat yourself as you would your very best friend and try not to isolate your feelings from your friends and family; it can help even if you find just one that's supportive and understanding in which to confide.

 

[The Mystery Machine]

I've struggled with severe generalized anxiety, panic attacks and major depressive disorder for quite some time, along with self injury/cutting. I ended up doing something to myself the day after my mom's funeral (Ugadog99) which landed me in inpatient psychiatric treatment for about a week (just got home yesterday). Adjusting to life outside and having family and friends so worried about my safety is so hard. I've got follow-up treatment scheduled and know this will be a long and hard battle, but dealing with mental illness on top of the normal grieving process after losing my mother has been absolutely exhausting. All of our family and friends are now wanting me to open up and talk, as are my treatment team and that's always been difficult for me as well. Anyway, I guess I'm just looking for "virtual support."

Well I will toss my hat in here since I live with this at home with my own family members. It is a mixed bag here.

It is a process and takes time. The right med cocktail and the right counselor or program is key critical for you in order to continue to progress forward.

People are going to be worried about you. I know that is hard but it is something that is just normal in folks because they care about you. It might be comforting at times and absolutely irritating as well because you want to be left alone.

Take it one day at a time. Many HUGS to you.

 

[wdwmom2]

 

[java]

I've struggled with severe generalized anxiety, panic attacks and major depressive disorder for quite some time, along with self injury/cutting. I ended up doing something to myself the day after my mom's funeral (Ugadog99) which landed me in inpatient psychiatric treatment for about a week (just got home yesterday). Adjusting to life outside and having family and friends so worried about my safety is so hard. I've got follow-up treatment scheduled and know this will be a long and hard battle, but dealing with mental illness on top of the normal grieving process after losing my mother has been absolutely exhausting. All of our family and friends are now wanting me to open up and talk, as are my treatment team and that's always been difficult for me as well. Anyway, I guess I'm just looking for "virtual support."

This breaks my heart to read. Mental illness is so all consuming that normal everyday is difficult, trying to grieve well

Talking is tough when you feel like you cant put words together. I have found it helps me to start with writing it down. Alone, my thoughts come more freely.

Please know that you are loved and valued by all of those around you. I believe your Mom is watching over you. I hope you can find peace. Step one get some sleep. Step two eat something. My guess is that you are not doing either of those things right now when just breathing feels hard.

Feel free to PM me anytime. I'm here to listen. (not a trained professional just a mom)

We are also trying running. Refocusing our thoughts.

 

[dislaney]

 

[Art 1]

I wish you the best of luck. Just remember to not get discouraged when and if you have a relapse, just keep busy and keep on going. Good Luck!

 

[anniemae]

I am so sorry you are going through this. You are doing all the right things by seeking help. From the bottom of my heart, I hope 2014 will be a much better year for you.

 

[Dan Murphy]

Good morning, keypooh. Today will be a sunny day for you, it will.

A very good idea sharing your concerns here, as with others at home. Follow what your therapists suggest for you, they are knowledgeable. Stay the course, and if in a slump, reach out...family, friends, here, anywhere. Be good to yourself. 's

Dan

 

[jackemail]

Please, please take care of yourself and follow up with your treatments.

 

[keypooh90]

Thanks to all of you for the support. This winter break has just been everything but expected. I lost my mom on 12/11, had her service 12/14, overdosed on my Xanax and ambien on 12/15 and ended up hospitalized until this past Saturday. It's so difficult and what makes it especially hard is my sister doesn't understands these things at all.

 

[okeydokey]

I am so sorry you are having such a difficult time. Think of this as the low point, and all the work you are doing as leading to the life you want to have. We are pulling for you.

 

[DebbieB]

Sorry you are having problems, I had problems when my mom was fighting cancer for a long time. I found that the weeks after the funeral were the worst time, getting back to "normal life" and she wasn't there. Luckily I was very busy with work and that kept me going, plus support from my family and friends. You are also getting hit with the holidays, which is always a hard time. Keep your appointments, take your medication, reach out to family and friends you feel comfortable with, try to keep busy.

 

[Liberty Belle]

I'm glad you're still with us.

I'm so sorry for the loss of your mom. That on top of everything else has to feel almost unbearable. I will continue to pray for you and your family.

Remember what Dory says.

 

[TuTu4U]

Oh, Sweetie You have been through so much.

Please surround yourself with people. Don't block yourself off.

Counseling, counseling, counseling! Everyday if you have to.

And, of course, you can always come here. We are always a sounding board for you

 

[Liberty Belle]

Thank you. Opening up and talking about my problems instead of turning to cutting was one of my treatment goals. I've got a follow up appointment with a psychiatrist on the 27th and there's a huge possibility of entering a partial hospitalization program after the holidays. I know this will take time but I think I can get better and now I can see that my attempt to end things was not the right decision.

That's so good to hear.

I have a history of anxiety and depression and have self-harmed, as well. I'm very open when it comes to some things, but extremely private about others and I find it hard to disclose some things or talk about my feelings much.

I hope you continue to heal.