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[Piglets Mommy]

I don't have any advice not already posted here, but I just wanted to give you a

 

[RunningGirl]

I'm sorry you're going through all this, but so glad to read that you're brave enough to take these steps forward! Your mom would be proud of that and so happy and hopeful for you.

 

[sookie]

Hugs to you! I am sorry you lost your mom. That is a horrible thing to go through. Remember that mental illness is no different than physical illness. Depression and anxiety are in some ways even worse than a physical illness because people can't see them as they can with a physical ailment.

I hope you feel better soon. The loss of your mother had to be a horrid trigger. You can get through this. Stick to your treatment plan. Talk to your team about what is working and what isn't working. They won't know what is helping and what isn't unless you tell them. Be compliant. If you don't feel like you can be compliant because something doesn't work - tell them. They don't know unless you tell them (remember - they can't see everything because you aren't inpatient, and it isn't like a physical ailment). Good communication is key. Let your family members support you. They are asking questions because they love you and want to be there for you. Let them be there for you.

And remember - when you feel better - continue to take your medicine. You are probably feeling better because of the medicine. So maintain it with the meds until your doctors tell you otherwise. Your doctors will tell you when to change your medicines - don't stop them, change the dose, or anything else without your doctor telling you otherwise. A lot of people start to feel better and then because they feel better, they stop their medications - sending them back to starting point A. So don't do that!

Take care!

 

[keypooh90]

I just want to feel normal again. I'm tired of the crazy mood swings, of the intense anxiety, of the major anger/irritability swings, and especially of the major highs that feel so good, but the incredible lows that come after and suck so much. I was in a terrible low these last two weeks and constantly suicidal and now I'm in a crazy high and feel fantastic and out of control almost but I know a low will come again. I may not be able to start my program until Thursday and I'm hoping I'll still be in a high when it starts.

I'm on medication, have been since I was inpatient. Still haven't noticed a difference yet, but I know they take time.

 

[sookie]

I just want to feel normal again. I'm tired of the crazy mood swings, of the intense anxiety, of the major anger/irritability swings, and especially of the major highs that feel so good, but the incredible lows that come after and suck so much. I was in a terrible low these last two weeks and constantly suicidal and now I'm in a crazy high and feel fantastic and out of control almost but I know a low will come again. I may not be able to start my program until Thursday and I'm hoping I'll still be in a high when it starts.

I'm on medication, have been since I was inpatient. Still haven't noticed a difference yet, but I know they take time.

It will take weeks. But keep in communication with your doctors. And don't stop the meds while you feel better - because when you stop then you will feel bad and the whole cycle will start all over again. Let your doctors make any adjustments.

 

[Schmeck]

I'm glad you are getting help. Remember, your sister just lost her mom too, and I bet she is scared that she will lose you. Is she younger or older than you?

 

[dislaney]

Hang in there.

 

[keypooh90]

I'm glad you are getting help. Remember, your sister just lost her mom too, and I bet she is scared that she will lose you. Is she younger or older than you?

She's younger. She's 19.

 

[keypooh90]

Hi! Sorry for the delayed reply. I've been in treatment for one week now. It's super intense but it's already helping me. I'm in a young adult psychiatric partial hospitalization program that runs Monday-Friday from 9-3 pm. My psychiatrist is awesome and he thinks I have a bipolar disorder rather than just unipolar depression, which makes total sense. He put me on a mood stabilizer I take at night that is also supposed to help me sleep. I have my first family session tomorrow morning and I am going to my first EA (Emotions Anonymous) meeting tonight.

 

[Dan Murphy]

Sounds great, keypooh, stay with it.

 

[lisaviolet]

Thinking of you keypooh.

I've edited but I did want to tell you that the end result will all be worth it!

So stay on your path keypooh. I promise you, absolutely promise you, that one day you'll sit in all of your courage, all your work, all of your past pain that was helped/healed and look out and realize that you made smart and wonderful choices. No matter how difficult it might seem at times.

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And I'm so very happy to hear that you're in a good program and getting help and a diagnosis for what you've been facing.

Much love sent to you.

 

[RachelTori]

Keypooh, it sounds like you have found a wonderful program.

 

[Hillbeans]

Hi! Sorry for the delayed reply. I've been in treatment for one week now. It's super intense but it's already helping me. I'm in a young adult psychiatric partial hospitalization program that runs Monday-Friday from 9-3 pm. My psychiatrist is awesome and he thinks I have a bipolar disorder rather than just unipolar depression, which makes total sense. He put me on a mood stabilizer I take at night that is also supposed to help me sleep. I have my first family session tomorrow morning and I am going to my first EA (Emotions Anonymous) meeting tonight.

I wish you all good things Keypooh90, I am very glad to see you are getting the help you need and am glad to hear it's helping. One day at a time.

 

[okeydokey]

So glad to hear a positive update. Wishing you the best!

 

[dislaney]

Glad you are getting the help you need.

 

[TLSnell1981]

Keypooh90

 

[skylizard]

Hang in there

 

[anniemae]

You should be very proud of yourself. You are doing great, keep it up.

 

[ols386]

So sorry you are going through such a difficult time.

Sounds like you do have good support from your family, which is good.

Take one day at a time, one minute at a time.

 

[keypooh90]

EA meeting last night went so well! I absolutely had a fantastic experience and have now found even more support. I'm about to head to treatment for the day. Tomorrow morning I have a family session with my aunt & uncle. My sister refused to come/participate though so I'm feeling hurt about that.