Hi all
Sorry I have abandonned you for a while (don't we all say that too often on these boards?

)
Maybe it's because I unconsciously knew what was coming.
The spring has been easier on my health than the winter. Had not had infections on top of viruses and so on... but Ehlers-Danlos syndrome is still making life hard.
I've had a few bedridden days each month, migraines and osteoarthritis episodes regularly... routine, in other words!
A few months ago Mama told me we had to start being careful with our expenses.
My parents are both retired now, so our income is lower than it was, and we have to be careful so they don't spend all their retirement money too early (neither of them worked for a company with a retirement plan, they had to make their own, so it's not garanteed).
I say "their" income but "we" because as I may have said before, being chronically ill I can't work. I get social disability money, which I mostly share with them (and use the rest for my personal expenses).
So... seeing how much effort we have to make to make ends meet, and how many things we need to delay buying... or had to decide not to buy, because money is short... I was feeling maybe she would just not go to Disney.
I'm also personally very low on money and haven't even finished paying last December's trip! I THINK I will have by next September, but I'm not 100% sure.
My computer died on me last January so I had to put money into that and so on... as things always happen.
I talked to Mama about it, and she said she had put money aside specifically for that trip, and she didn't want to re-assign it, and she wanted to go.
And then... weather happened.
Mama had already told me of her worries about us going to WDW late-September to early October heat-wise. And I had told her I was sure I would be OK, and how could that be so much warmer than what I had planned initially (end of October)?
Plus, I had been fine in May in 2008, and this past December, and we had a few days in the warm side.
But in truth... I was wondering myself.
Because in May 2008, I was in a wheelchair, but on the warmest day, I almost fainted because of exhaustion and heat.
And last December, when we had that worst day heat-wise, it was really hard for me. I couldn't stand to watch the parade, I had to sit down often... and it definitely was a harder day.
Still, I was sure I'd be fine.
And then, as I said... the weather happened. Here.
It's 84°F right now, plus humidity...
And here I was, outside, sitting in the shade, just typing on the laptop... with my cooling scard around my neck, wet hair and an iced coffee to drink... and I started feeling ill, my blood pressure dropped, and I had to rush inside (well... rush slowly

) so as not to faint.
It took me at least half an hour to recover.
When my mom learned of that, she came back on the subject of Disney, and would it really be wise to go?
She didn't want me to have a crappy trip, didn't really want to have to worry about me or be overly protective ("are you OK?" "Are you sure you can do this?" "do you need to rest?"). And she's not a fan of the heat either...
So we checked the average weather for September and October, again.
And it's exactly what we have today... or worse.
Realizing that our last trip was almost perfect, in my eyes... even with the problems we had... I wouldn't feel brokenhearted not to go back so soon... or ever again.

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. And most of all, I'd rather "end" Disney with that last, good trip as my last memory (at least, last memory for a while), than go back and have a crappy trip and end on THAT memory.
Because we had already decided that next fall would be our last Disney trip for a long while. We are limited and want to do other trips.
We talked about it, and she feels the same.
But we didn't officially decide right away...
After a while she came back and told me, maybe we could just go to the parks in the late afternoon and evenings... and maybe early morning.
And then I looked at my plan, and noted that parks never opened early (plus if we went late in the evening we wouldn't want to wake up early, she added).
And since it's off-season, there are no or very little EMH planned... so parks will close before 10pm!
And AK closes at 5-6pm.
So we would spend the day in the room, in the AC... and then only 5-6 hours in the parks each day?
Spend over 7000$ for that?
No way.
If I could only physically do so few hours, it would be worth it.
But going at another time of the year, I can do an almost normal day, so it's not worth it in my eyes. And I would just go crazy being stuck inside the rest of the time! Knowing the parks are all around and having all those plans I can't do!
So that was it.
We officially pulled the plug on our trip.
Fall 2013 trip died this afternoon at 2pm. RIP.
Honestly... I'm at peace with the decision. Because of what I said earlier.
But I'm still sad.
I'm thus ending this PTR...
