String's Atkin's Journal (Please Comment)

[wilderness01]

Beth,

I am so sorry. I hope it is just the hormones with your sister. Hang in there and take care of yourself.

 

[toystoryduo]

Beth, my dear WISH friend,
I am so very, very sorry. I know how much time and effort you put into that shower.

I agree with Doe... maybe a walk would be a good thing so that maybe you can relieve some of that stress. I wish I lived closer to you so that I could help you somehow. Please know that we are praying for you and hoping for much days ahead. Take good care of you, Beth.

Tracy

 

[Strings]

Just an update.

I am feeling much better. Won came home and took us out to dinner. I have stayed OP. I needed to be in my home with my family. I can't change my family any more than Won can change his. I can stop reacting to them. I didn't exercise, and it is ok. I am going early tomorrow maorning before I get started on my day. We are thinking of getting a new car. Mine has been having problems for the last few months.

I wanted to thank you all for your support. Knowing that I can come hwere to vent and that you won't judge me helps. I know I have support here. Without you guys, I would have completely lost it ovet the last few weeks. I thank God daily that you are in my life.
Beth

 

[septbride2002]

Aw Beth! Family is the pits sometimes and unfortunantly sibiling rivalary can be a bitter business. It sounds to me that your sister is extremely jealous of you and her jealousy is blinding her to the fact that you did something incredibly nice for her. Ya know what - you can't change people and you did the best you could and you did it from the kindness of your heart. If she can't accept that then that is her problem. But I wouldn't bend over backwards for her anymore - if she needs a breast pump she can go and buy one for herself

I hope you have a relaxing evening and focus on the many blessings in your life.

~Amanda

 

[Strings]

pretty much describe my reaction to the scale today. I decided to peek. I'm sorry I did. I am back on the straight and narrow. I went to the Y and did 5 miles on the treaddie. I need to get readyto go. Katie is getting her haircut and then we have dance lessons. Grocery shopping and swim lessons. I'll do journals tonight. Have a good one.
Beth

 

[DoeWDW]

Beth, I'm so sorry that you had an unhappy scale encounter. However, research has proven that stress can cause us to retain water and throw our metabolism out of whack - goodness knows you've had PLENTY of stress lately!

Good for you for combatting that stress with exercise! You'll be in a better frame of mind soon!

I'm sending you and for a happy, low-stress day!

 

[Strings]

I'm sorry that I didn't get to any journals today. After putting Katie to bed, I started reading. I planned on having a cup of tea, reading for 30 minutes and then journalling. I finished the book in 2 hours. My tea went cold, I never touched it. I sobbed through the entire book. It was Suzanne's Diary for Nicholas by James Patterson. It is a beautiful and sad story. It is well written, and I can't believe that it was written by a man. I am a Patterson thriller fan, but this isdefinately his best book ever.

I'm worn out. I am off to bed, but first I want to give Katie another kiss goodnight.

Have a good night,
Beth

 

[toystoryduo]

Good morning Beth!
Don't you just love a good book?!!? Reading is one of my favorite things to do.

I hope you have a wonderful day today!!

Tracy

 

[Strings]

I'm off and running. I am heading to the Y as soon as I finish this message. I then need to make my famous Kahlua cookies for the bake sale tomorrow at Kate's school picnic. Katie has school today, and I am getting my haircut. I need to pick up a few things for Won at Meijer for a potluck tomorrow. Then I need to make it. Afterschool I am am taking Katie over to her Godmother's for a sleepover. We are meeting friends at Max and Erma's for dinner then going to see Harry Potter. The plan is also to go to Coldstone for dessert. I will try to resist. I think I will get a decaf iced coffee with sf vanilla as my dessert. I'll let you know if I am able to resist. There are 8 of us, and I'm the only one who is lc.

Have a good one.
Beth

 

[CheapMom]

you sound motivated this morning- have a great day!
Mary

 

[DoeWDW]

Beth, are you pink with long ears?? Sometimes I read your schedule for the day and imagine you as the Energizer Bunny! Maybe a quick nap before you go out tonight would help. If I'm at the end of a long day and tired, my willpower is almost non-existent. Of course, you can do what I did on Sunday - I SLEPT through 30-45 minutes of Harry Potter! My son woke me up with a nudge and a grin - said he was afraid I'd start snoring!

I hope you have a wonderful, hassle-free day and a fun evening out with friends!

 

[Strings]

Doe, your post made me . Most of the time I feel more like a puppy chasing its tail. Next week is even worse, but I'm not thinking about that yet.

I had the worst workout ever. I did 2 circuits of weights and 30 minutes on the treaddie. The ac was out. They hope to get it fixed today, but it is on the wellness center is on the 3rd floor and has skylights. Today's high is 95. It was close to 100 degrees in there. ugh. I wanted to do more time on the treaddie, but I just couldn't. I drank my .5 l that I brought with me, and then another liter within 10 minutes of leaving. I don't like the heat. At least I did part of my workout.

I'm off... I will try to get to the rest of the journals in a little bit. i hope.

Beth

 

[LAinSEA]

Beth:

I'm so sorry that all your effort for your sister's baby shower was unappreciated by the "showered". Your mom was right to let her have it.

I love my sister dearly - but I don't like her choices in life with regard to the men in her life or her decisions with regards to her daughters. I can't have a decent conversation with her anymore except about how the girls are doing. My sister is the definition of a "taker". She takes and takes and takes and only gives at her profession. She is an exceptional nurse, but not much of a sister, daughter or mother most of the time. I did both her first wedding shower and her first baby shower for her...the conversation with our mom after both was very similar to the one with your sis and mom. I've learned to pack up and lick my wounds elsewhere. Why anyone would ever want to take on the responsibilities on planning and preparing for any party just for "attention"? Sorry - now you've got me ranting!

Good for you for staying on plan and handling your life. Don't let the scale get you down. This going to be a bad lunar month...and we women are affected more than we want to admit to the lunar cycle. Just roll with it and ride it out - I'm here for you.

-Laurie

 

[wilderness01]

How did you like Harry Potter? I hope you had a great evening.

 

[Strings]

I just have a few minutes. As Usual. Thanks Laurie, my sister and I have never been terribly close, and I was a senior when she was a freshman. She had a lot to live up to. I was class president, valedictorian, on the football team (yes, the guys team). I think she never forgave me for that, and she was always my kid sister. I had hoped that 15 yrs later we could move beyond that.

Last night was great. We went to Max & Ermas. I had a small lc salad and the lc chicken cordon bleu. 10 carbs. It was very yummy, and great conversation. We did go to coldstone, and I didn't order anything. I did have 1 bite of Won's major chocolate concoction. It was way too sweet, but I am glad I had the bite. I didn't feel deprived at all. I had one condition to going to the movie. I wasn't going to sit next to Dawn. I love her to death, but she cannot follow a movie plot. The entire movie she asks questions. Drives me crazy.

I know that Amanda didn't like the movie, and Doe slept through it, but I enjoyed it. I am a huge HP fan. Won would say obcessed. It was very different from the book, but I think it was better than the first 2 movies. It was much better paced. I liked the casting, but Michael gambon isn't the Dumbledore that Richard Harris was. Emma Thompson was AWESOME. I think the guy playing Pettigrew looked perfect. The kids did a good job. I don't like that they have ROn as the terrified sidekick the entire time. He is Harry's foil, and makes him look braver. I also didn't like Malfoy being a complete wimp. I know that he is, but not that extreme. It makes it hard to take the character seriously.

Enough. I'm going to the Y, getting Katie, making cookies, doing laundry, and going to Katies raining picnic.

Talk to you later.
Beth

 

[lulu201]

Good morning, Beth. I see we're together at our computers this morning--both posting to our journals around the same time again.

A couple of days ago I read your entry about the baby shower, and I couldn't respond. . .it just brought up so many memories for me of unpleasant family events and so many questions about family relationships. I do have a philosophy about all this, though: it is what it is. Over my lifetime I've spent a lot of time wishing that my sister and I were closer or my in-laws understood us or that we all had more in common. I've shed a lot of tears and I've tried very hard to make things work in different situations, but I'm learning to let a lot of it go. Nowadays, I just do what I can. I pray to love, to be kind, and to be respectful, and that's pretty much it. I can't understand every situation--like your situation with your sister, for example. . .why on earth would she think that you did all that work for attention?????--and I try not to spend much energy thinking about issues I can't really resolve (which is tough 'cause I overthink just about everything! ). You know that you did what you did at the shower to make a nice event for the sister you love, and that's enough. Let the rest of it go--her reaction is her problem, not yours.

Anyway, I'm glad to see that you're OP and walking the walk--even if it does get really hot!

Take care of yourself today and treat yourself right!

Erin

 

[DoeWDW]

Beth, I've just gotta ask - what position did you play on the football team??

I totally agree with your assessment of HP! I especially agree that Richard Harris did such a great job of portraying Dumbledore that any other actor would fall short. I also concur with your thoughts on Ron and Malfoy - they were rather one-dimensional in the movie, when they could have been much more.

I'm so happy to hear that you had a great time last night! You certainly deserved it!

I'm sending you Energizer Bunny vibes (hmmm + ??) to help you through your day and some extra to brighten up that rainy picnic!

 

[vald1977]

Hi Beth,
So do you have any pics of your football days to share ? I'm so sorry that things went sour at the end of the shower. Your sister had no right to treat you that way.

I hope you have a great time with Katie at the picnic today. That sounds like fun. Have a great day !

 

[Strings]

Just a quick update between cookie batches.

Erin, You are a wise woman. Won and I have talked about it, and itis Marnie's problem. I've been doing what I have in the last few years for my mom. I know that she wishes we were closer, but it just isn't happening. I hope that motherhood mellows Marn, but it is a wait and see. I am not going to let her get to me today.

Doe and Val, I was the teams kicker. My uncle and both of my cousins played Big Ten ball. I only played the one year, and put up with a lot od grief. As for the locker room, well I knew who to date and who not to bother with.

4 loads of laundry so far, 4.5 miles on the treadmill,4 dozen cookies. I have a theme today.

B- 1 egg and tea.
Lunch- roast beef and swiss cheese, celery with peanut butter.
Dinner- Hot dog and veggies at the picnic.

I'm off to more journals.
Beth

 

[wilderness01]

Beth,

You have a wonderful attitude toward your sister. It is HER problem. It is also HER loss that she can't see how much you did for HER at that shower. I hope her hormones are just going nuts and she apologizes to you. You deserve that and more......

Your day sounds busy. Glad you liked the movie. Our kids can not wait to go and see it! Have a good one.